Please don't say you love me
"Please don't say you love me" by Gabrielle Aplin.
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"Please don't say you love me" she prays for the first time when they're too young cadets long time ago. He was young and nerdy, she was the girl who all the boys want like a trophy, why he? what the smart one of the class would want with her She was plain and simple, what he can want of her? Gladly, that time he doesn't say anything like that, because the last thing she needs now was a love interes, instead she found in him a truthful friend.
Years later, they were send it to a mission in France, that's where she saw him different for the very first time... Her friend suddenly become a handsome man, the first of his class, always courageous and ready to work, always having the best score. After that mission their SO assigned them to the same team, they work perfectly together, with the time, their personalities develop, he was the serious and her, surprisely becomes the prankster, always trying to pervert him, as like he wasn't up for it.
Months later on another undercover assignment, He kissed her for the first time. She doesn't know what to do, or how react because she doesn't know if the kiss was for the mission or because he wants to kiss her, but, why he will want to kiss her? And then she scares herself a lot with that thought, "Please don't say you love me" she begs in her mind again...terrifyed, that time the only one thing in her mind was their SO and his rude way to punish them, they can be sended away of each other. After a few drinks with her teammates, she started to feel different about him, and one of them was always teasing her for that, as like they always are together, the pranks of Victoria and Maria were worst and toughest. But they loves too much their friends and enjoy their teasing so much. One day the Karma will kick their asses. After a half failed undercover/ recovery mission, the Director decides to put all of them in a dance class, like a punishment. She starts the course of instruction, but tired after no one chance to dance with him, angrily drop dance and choose training. She became the best fighter and he the best operative asset in the agency.
They never be so close like that year, she was almost sure he will call for her to date soon, sometimes she was dreaming about those days, but that never happens, her heart falls apart when he dates a few times with Maria, she can't hate anyone of them, so she closes her eyes and tries to be happy for her friends.
One month later, he starts to ask her help in training, and every night they end all tired looking the stars in the gym's rooftop. He kisses her again one rainy night, she cried of happiness all the night long. In the next missions he changes his way to treat her, he goes so over protective, and in a dangerous mode when someone tries to attack her. They always are together, and she wants to tell him "I love you" because she loves him, but she doesn't know how to tell him or how to express him that.
He spends Christmas in her house that year, he gives her a beautiful necklace with a dove on it. She gives him a few Capitan America collectable cards and kiss him under the misteltoe every chance she have.
After the holidays, the director found some Intel about a traitor in their lines, all the classes was promoted to field Agents, and they set out to fight for their agency with honor. Both of them are the bests in their fields, always busy but always finding time to kiss each other under the stars.The time goes and the last thing they thought happens. Their happiness was complete only for a few months, and their dream goes just like it comes, surprisingly.
The recovery was hard, but with his love and support everything goes fine. After the medical clearence, their work becames the best therapy. They're fine, until their third mission alone. This time he was the responsable of the agents. And someone betrayed them giving them the wrong Intel, killing the agents and a part of her in the process. Before that situation she was Melinda, just a smart agent, a smiling girl, after Bahrain, she becomes The Cavalry, the best asset in the agency. A cold woman who always was hiding her feelings. He give her all his support, and his love during that time, but after that "other"little girl incident, she was broken. "Please Don't say you love me" she begs him the day she told him hiw she was reassigned to another Continent, letting him alone for the first time in a lot of years.
The years came and the old lovers turn into friends, and one time a year, they reconnect their old memories. Later in a desperate effort to avoid the loneliness, She married by a long time friend, but in the end Drew wasn't him. During her marriage, the old friends never came in touch and only seeing each other, two more times, for Agency business. She ends divorcing two years later, and he start to date with a Chellist. He seems happy and she decides to not tell him how much she loves him yet, because in her mind she was all destroyed, there's no more the old Melinda now. Agency put them working together again, but she choose stay inside the office and he always was in the field. How far where those days when they spend their nights together, she thoughts every night looking at the starry sky.
One day a 084 fall into the earth, with a exhiliated Norse God behind, trying to recover the object. He quickly was send it to get it into the S.H.I.E.L.D.'s custody that element, soon he meets the Asgardian and they begin a weird friendship. Some time afterward, the stepbrother of Thor, makes a terrible alliance with an Alien race, who wants the Tesseract to use it to control the entire planet. Without noticed the Agency begins to reclute a team of super heroes to save the world ,and that give him the chance to know his childhood heroe Steve Rodgers, she knows how much he wants to tell her about it, but, they stay so appart from the other then it was impossible
Just before the bloody battle, she knows about his attack, and how his brave death makes all those different heroes act like a team, saving the earth at the end.
Her heart breaks totally, she lost her best and only friend, but most importantly, she lost the only men she truly loves, she cries for days regretting all the time they lost. She wishes to die, only to be able to see him again. She was ready to do it, when the Director calls her, saying how his new technique will bring him to life again, her heart skips with that tought. She never knows truly how, but at the end he was back, but he was different with her, looks like that part of him was losted forever.
When a new Team was related, under the leadership of him, she can't deny the Director's orders to check him up, she sat like the B.U.S. driver, but soon, the adrenaline of the battle screams her name and she comes back to be a full time field agent. During the missions, they start to share a lot of their time again and the old long talks under the stars returned to their lives. She notices how her old friend was falling in love with her all over again. Sh was flattered but with on all these years alone and being so cold, she forgets how to show his emotions, and every time they are alone, her heart skips a few beats every time he looks at her, and she spend the time fighting between the need of run, and the need of kissing him again.
Flying to a mission, she remembers when the day she knows he was alive, she makes a promise, they had another chance to be together, to live together no matter what went on between them, they had another chance. And now, after the last undercover mission; a sort of deja-vù mission with the coctel dress, the high heels and the dancing part; they are alone in his office, she was scared, almost begging again "Please don't say you love me..." but internally she was begging he does, because this time she was ready to say him: "I love you too"...
"Melinda I need to tell you something"... He said looking at her eyes. And she panicked again.