The truth hurts....
Tony scanned over Steve’s motionless body and he sighed again. Same results, same everything. Tony sat his device down and laid his head on his hands, watching Steve breath. He had been in this coma for two months to the day and Tony kept getting more and more worried. He just wanted him to wake up.
“Come on, wake up baby.” Tony pressed a kiss to his temple and turned around to the ultrasound F.R.I.D.A.Y had taken. The small figure on the screen made Tony tear up a bit, as he glanced back at his husband. Taking a few sips of his whiskey he busied himself with new updates to his suit.
“T...tony?” Steve’s voice was scratchy and dry and he looked for water. Tony rushed over to Steve as he tugged at the I.V he had.
“Hey, how are you feeling?” Tony brushed back some of Steve’s hair and he smiled up at him. His blue eyes gleaming behind his eyelashes.
“Fine, What happened?” Steve coughed and Tony reached for a cup of water, letting him drink most of it. Tony helped Steve sit up and he adjusted the back of the bed accordingly. Tony kissed Steve forcefully making his lips tingle. Steve cupped Tony’s face as he applied the same amount of pressure.
“Tony, what are you hiding from me?”
“What do you mean? F.R.I.D.A.Y, do a power scan.” F.RI.D.A.Y ran a purple light over Steve and beeped a few times.
“Status of Rogers,Steven. Abilities include, peak human strength, escalated metabolism, and has healed his all of his previous ailments as a child. He has also developed empathic abilities. Meaning he can sense what others are feeling.” F.R.I.D.A.Y stopped talking and Tony rolled his eyes at Steve.
“Great as if you needed anymore abilities.” Steve smirked back and felt a different emotion other than Tony’s and looked around.
“Who else is here?” Tony pressed a hand to Steve’s lower stomach and smiled slightly.
“T-tony I can’t be pregnant. I don’t have those parts.”
“The lighting strike that hit you, putting you in the coma made you develop a uterus. Since you and Mr. Stark had some personal time on the jet I would suggest using protection next time Mr.Stark.” F.R.I.D.A.Y chimed in and tony glared at the screen.
“We’re having a baby? Tony! We’re having a baby!” Steve pulled Tony’s lips into his and felt him climb over him. Tony gripped Steve’s jaw line as Steve’s hands went down Tony’s side.
“Tony, why don’t we wait a little bit before reconnecting.” Tony rested his forehead against Steve’s and smiled.
“I’m just glad you’re back baby.”
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You had dropped Tatum off at one of your friends house not wanting her to be part of this drama. Bucky had driven you to her house and taken you to the tower. Your mind paired with your anxiety was getting the best of you. Am I just a mission? Is Bucky just playing me for the fool I am? I knew we shouldn’t have dated. Choking back your tears, you felt Bucky gripping your hands and you gave him a small smile. While he parked you rubbing your lower arms trying to get the goosebumps to go away.
“Ready?” You nodded your head and went up in the elevator. The ride up felt like a lifetime. You saw Bucky getting closer to you and turned to him. Wrapping you in his arms, he placed a soft kiss to the top of you head.
“No matter what happens, I love you.” Those words made your anxiety worse and you heard the doors slide open. Seeing Sam cuddling Felicity on the small couch, Natasha and Scott were talking at the bar. You nodded at everyone before kneeling in front of Felicity and rubbing her arm.
“How you feeling, babe?” Felicity nodded her head before a few tears fell from her eyes, you wiped them away and you patted her shoulder.
“Thanks to metalgear there, we have to tell, shortstack there about everything. So get your asses in the conference room and sit down.” You wiped the collected sweat from your hands on your shorts and followed everyone in there. Bucky’s face lit up when he saw Steve sitting at the table and he hugged him carefully.
“Tony, can I go? There’s too many.” The rush of different emotions in the room became too much for Steve, and Tony asked Natasha and Scott to leave, only wanting the main people in the room. He stay and sat next to Steve. Bucky was next to you and Felicity was next to Sam.
“If you have any questions please ask us.” Felicity’s broken voice cracked and you nodded picking up the first file from the small pile in front of you. Mission reports, and date and time stamps from different days, Several pages on your activities and just what you did daily.
“How do you have these?”
“There are cameras and mics all over your apartment complex. Even in your car and at your work. We had to make sure you were safe.” You continued reading about Tatum and who she stayed with. A list of your friends, ranked was next. Stars by who Tatum had stayed with and ex’s with who not. You closed that file and saw the others had names on them. A file for you, Tatum, Loki, Bucky, Sam and Felicity. You moved the Sam, Bucky and Felicity ones aside not wanting to read them.
“{Y/N}?”
“I don’t want to know about them two or you. Nothing I need to know, that I don’t already.” Tony moved the files away to the end of the table and you opened the Loki folder. Reading about your relationship made your heart hurts and your stomach turn in knots. Sliding the folder away you ignored the others.
“I still don’t understand where Bucky plays in all of this?” Bucky grabbed your hand, and Steve cleared his throat.
“You don’t have to, I’ll explain.” Bucky urged.
“It’s killing you inside, Buck, I’ll do it.”
“Bucky was positioned across the hall from you for protection and security.”
“But he got too close and fell in love with you.” You pushed away from him and felt yourself starting to cry. Bucky tried to move closer to you but you backed away more.
“Bucky I need to talk to you, outside.” You wiped away your tears, but more kept coming.
“{Y/N}, Do you need me?” Shaking your head you chewed the inside of your mouth and stepped outside of the room with Bucky. You stood against the solid wall and felt Bucky’s hand scrape your own. Jerking away from him you stood in front of him. Your eyes stinging with tears, you thought about what to say.
“Was this all a trick? To what? Get me to sleep with you? Or just so you could have a closer watch on me…” Your voice breaking, you didn’t want to be right.
“I wanted to tell you. But I couldn’t jeopardize your safety, let alone the mission.”
“So that’s all I am to you know...is a mission? Well congrats you conquered me.”
“Baby, I…”
“Don’t call me that. I can’t believe I was so stupid. I let you near Tatum. She loves you Bucky and how am I supposed to break that to her.”
“You don’t have to...I’ll still be there.”
“No! Bucky I slept with you, I love you. Why do I always pick the ones that have something more important going on?”
“I’ll be by to disable the cameras later.”
“No! You stay away from me and from Tatum. She deserves a better man to call Daddy, than you.” Bucky’s face broke and he started tearing up a bit too. You walked back into the conference room where everyone was and stood in the doorway looking at everyone’s faces.
“Tony and Steve can you drive me home and take all the cameras down?”
“Can I go?” Felicity stood up and she hugged your shoulders.
“Sam? Do you mind making sure he stays here till Felicity gives you the okay to let him come back home?” Sam nodded and Felicity took your hand. Tony took one of his cars and made sure Steve was okay to come along. They all left leaving Bucky and Sam at the tower.
“We need to go get Tatum…” Tony drove to the friend’s house you left her at and you took her home with you. Letting Tony and Steve come into your apartment they began disabling and taking down the cameras. You had set Tatum down for a nap before going back to the main room.
“Thank you for doing this guys.” Felicity walked you to your room and your broke in her arms.
“Tony...she’s hurting.” Tony was focused on the camera he wa working on and motioned Steve toward your bedroom. Knocking on the wall you cleaned your face off the best you could and he motioned for Felicity.
“Let me talk to her.”
“Why should I?” Felicity being her defense self when it came to you.
“I know how she is feeling I can feel it.”
“Steve, no offense but you are best friend with Bucky. It could make her feel worse?”
“I’ll leave if I sense anything.” Felicity moved, but kept herself at the doorway. You turned your face away from Steve and brushed your hair back behind your ear.
“{Y/N}? Can I talk to you?”
“If you are here to defend Bucky I honestly don’t need that right now.”
“Bucky was doing it to protect you. He loves you and Tatum.”
“Then why? I understand it was for my protection but part of me wishes he had just told me.”
“He wanted to. It was like every week we had to convince him not to, for your own protection.” You wiped some remaining tears and fixed your shirt.
“Just give it some thought. Please.” Steve tapped the mattress and helped Tony with the remaining cameras. Felicity came back into your room. Hugging her tightly you just cried.
“{Y/N.}? We are done with the cameras. Felicity do you want a ride back?”
“Go ahead, Thanks guys….” Felicity hugged you one last time before leaving your apartment with Steve and Tony. Getting up you locked the door behind them and cuddled up on the couch.
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It was almost one in the morning and you heard a quiet knock on your door. Looking out of the peep hole you saw Bucky standing with his hand against the door. His face was red and covered in tears.
“{Y/N}, please? Just talk to me.” Pressing your back against the door you sighed.
“Go away..please..just go.” You felt yourself about to cry again but you held them back.
“I’m sorry.” But said as he turned back into his apartment shutting the door behind him.
“I’m sorry too….”