Missed It
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You started the popcorn and watched the bag puff up through the window of the microwave that was mounted above the stove top. Sebastian had gone to use the restroom and you had gotten lost in replaying in your mind what had just happened.
That was probably the most intense and arousing kiss you'd ever had; that man knew what he was doing. You hoped for more than just a kiss in the future and for that kiss to be the first of many, though you didn't really know yet what it meant to him. The start of something more between you or just to satisfy his curiosity about it?
When he appeared out of the bathroom, he went to you and stood close behind you, wrapping an arm snuggly around your middle. His other hand swept your hair to one side, exposing your neck and then joined his other arm around your ribs. You held his arms against you as he placed a tender kiss on your neck and it made your stomach flutter as he spoke softly, "I've been wanting for so long to kiss you,", you were wearing a tank top, so he kissed your bare shoulder next, "to be like this with you."
You had butterflies and the corners of your mouth pulled up as you turned to face him, still in his arms. You blinked slowly as you looked into his soft eyes, he was smiling slightly as you spoke, "I'm so glad you did; it was amazing." You needed more already.
You got up on your toes and put your arms around his neck and pressed your lips to his when he moved his head downward to meet you. You kissed him slowly, slower than before and he followed your lead. He pulled you into him tighter and he hummed. Your lips left his mouth went to his neck, softly grazing it before you kissed it. He sucked in a breath and grunted softly. His sounds made the heat between your legs return.
'Dear God. I already want her so badly and what she's doing isn't helping.' He didn't want to rush this. He wanted to two of you to savor every milestone, no matter how small. He wanted to do things right with you. The microwave beeped. 'Saved by the bell!'
He pulled back, his face cheerful, "I'll get that."
You smiled up at him as he gave your sides a playful squeeze with his hands. You couldn't help but giggle and jerk away slightly as it tickled. You stepped out of his way. This situation was starting to feel really exciting... And really right.
He walked around you, grabbed the popcorn out of the microwave and dumped it in a big bowl. He then grabbed the beers, placed them between his forearm and ribs, he then put the popcorn bowl in the same hand. He gave you a quick kiss on the lips as he took your hand and started for the stairs, "Come on, babe. Let's go finish our movie."
While watching the movie, Sebastian wasn't really paying it much attention, his thoughts were on you. When you had started playing the movie again, you sat right next to him, holding the popcorn in your lap and put your legs over his. He looked down in his lap and licked his lips, 'Mm. Those beautiful legs... I could tell her what I think about them now. No need to hide it.'
He started lightly dragging his fingertips slowly up your leg, starting at the ankle, as he leaned toward you, "You know,", he looked at you and you looked at him once he touched you and spoke. His gaze returned to what he was doing, "I've always loved these legs." He reached your knee as he looked at your face again.
Your chin was tilted down and you bit your lip fora second. God that felt so good.
He stared at your mouth as he leaned closer, "And this perfect mouth...", he touched your bottom lip with his thumb, his others fingers curled under your chin. He kissed your lips softly as his other hand nearly reached the hem of your shorts, before moving down to the back of your thigh. His touch stayed there and rubbed softly. His mind wandered to what it might feel like to have that beautiful mouth of yours on his-- He mentally shook his head in attempt to clear the thought, but it wouldn't leave, causing him to deepen the kiss. Your breath was getting slightly labored and you felt yourself getting a little wet down below. It didn't appear to take very much from him to get you prepared for more. You moaned into his mouth quietly then he thought, 'Jesus, this is all too much;' Your soft skin under his hand, that mouth... That thought... 'But I can't stop touching her.'
He managed to break the kiss and grinned at you as he sat back again. He continued to tickle your leg, below the knee, to keep himself in check.
"Thank you.", you said, "that really feels nice."
He took your hand and kissed it, "The pleasure's all mine, doll."
The two of you managed to finish the rest of the movie while just cuddling; you pressed against his side, his arm around you, his head resting atop yours, which laid on his shoulder. But it was different now... The intentions behind it all had changed... It all felt new, even things you have done many times before were now charged with a much different energy. You wanted to be his and you wanted him to be yours.
Once the movie was over, he sat up at the edge of the seat cushion, removing his arm from your shoulders. He rested an elbow on one of his knees, his other forearm coming to rest on your thigh, his fingers tickling the inner side of your knee. You rubbed his back gently with a flat hand. He pressed his lips together as he looked over his shoulder at you in the glow of the TV, "Bed?"
You turned your head slightly and cocked an eyebrow.
He laughed, "Sorry, sleep."
You chuckled, "Yeah."
He switched off the TV and stood. There was a faint glow of stand by lights on the devices that were hooked up to the TV. He gave you a hand to help you up, then he quickly pulled up the waist of his pajama pants a little. As he did so, you started to walk along the couch away from him. He quickly bent towards you and grabbed your waist, "Uhn-uhn, c'mere." He pulled you to him and scooped you up in his arms as you giggled.
He turned and started for his bedroom and your put arm around his neck, your other hand resting against his chest as he gave you peck on the lips, "Your forehead, cheeks and head might not get the attention they're used to for a while now that I have these." He gave you another quick kiss. He set you down to lay on his bed and turned on the dim bedside lamp.
"I thought we were going to sleep.", you looked at the lamp and gave it nod.
He crawled onto the bed and hunched over you, "We will... And then there's these.", he kissed your shoulder. Your hands went under his arms to his upper back as he continued, "And... This.", he kissed your neck using his tongue as well.
Your breath hitched and you sighed, "Seb?"
He continued giving your neck the attention he's wanted to for so long, "Mm?", he hummed against your skin.
"I'm really, really loving this. But I'm sorry, I have to pee."
He rolled from over you to flop down onto his side in the bed as he chuckled, "Of course. Hurry back, doll."
You grunted as you sat up, then you started out the doorway, "I know, I have the worst timing."
You came back and the room was dark, a touch of moonlight coming through the window blinds. You crawled back into the bed as Sebastian held the blankets up for you to get under. You cuddled up to his chest and noticed it was bare; he had taken his shirt off. He always slept with a t-shirt on. "Oh. Hello skin.", you giggled as he wrapped his arms around you and you asked, "Are you still wearing pants?"
Sebastian laughed, "Yes. I just want to be comfortable and even closer to you now." He paused and then sighed, "You know we're going to have to talk to Chris about us."
You sighed sadly as well, "Yeah. I'm not looking forward to that."
"Me neither.", he replied.
After a few moments, he gently tilted your head up so that he could give you one more long, soft and slow kiss. He then kissed the tip of your nose lightly and held you closer, his cheek against the top of you head, "My baby... I can't tell you how happy I am to finally call you that. Mine."
Your heart swelled and you spoke softly against him, "How long have you been waiting for that?"
"Mmmm, ever since I met you, really. But, you never really seemed interested in that way. Plus, you dated, I dated; it just never felt like the right time. It became really strong about the time that Chris started dating Sharon and we got closer. To be honest though, anytime amount of time I had to wait to be with you, no matter how short, still would've been too long."
"Why did you pull away when we got close?"
"You told Chris you missed the way things used to be, so I went back to how it used to be."
"So you still wanted to be with me then?"
"Absolutely. I just did what I thought you wanted... And what you needed. I didn't want to make things more stressful for you by being needy and bringing it up. You had just had a panic attack that day."
You suddenly felt awful, "Oh, Seb. I'm so sorry." You got up on your knees and bent over him, holding his face in your hands and kissing his mouth repeatedly as his hands went to your back, "I never wanted to hurt you."
"Doll,", he managed between kisses. You gave him one more then stopped to listen, "look, as much as I love you kissing the crap out of me,", you laughed, he chortled and continued, "it's okay. We're here now and that's all I care about. I couldn't be happier. What happened in the past doesn't matter to me. Right now is where I'm at- Well except for all the tasty moments between us since we first kissed. I like to revisit those."
You replied enthusiastically, "Mm-hm! Me too."
You both chuckled and you laid back down, resting your head on his chest and listening to his heartbeat. You felt like you were exactly where you were meant to be. You breathed him in and sighed, "God, I love how you smell."
He gave you a squeeze, "Right back 'atcha, sweets.", then he kissed your head.
"Nite, my Sebby."
He hummed with contentment, "G'nite my baby doll."
The next morning you and Sebastian made breakfast together and touched and kissed a lot. You both went out on the back deck to drink coffee and enjoy the warm morning sun. You sat in his lap and played with his hair as you both talked... And sometimes you were quiet, just enjoying each other or even nervously anticipating telling Chris about the two of you.
Sebastian told you, "Listen, when Chris gets home, I can do the talking."
You just nodded.
A few minutes later, you heard the front door open and close through the open sunroom window behind you. You both looked at each other and Sebastian raised his eyebrows as if to say 'Here we go.' You both stood and headed inside, meeting Chris in the kitchen, who was pouring himself some coffee, still wearing his sunglasses.
You and Sebastian just stood there, waiting for him to turn. When he did, he greeted you both groggily, "Morning."
Your heart was pounding. This is it.
Sebastian spoke, "Chris, we need to talk."
Chris sipped his coffee, took off his sunglasses and dropped them on the island as he passed it, wiped a hand over his face and started for the table, "Can it wait? I feel like hammered dog snot." He gently gripped the back of your neck and kissed your forehead as he passed you and sat at the table. He rubbed his forehead and took another sip.
You looked at Sebastian, his eyebrows were pulled even tighter together, "I don't think it can."
Chris looked between you both, his face looked suspicious. 'Is this it? Are they together now? Or have they already been together behind my back? Oh my God, is she pregnant?' He tried to just clear his mind, "Okay."
Sebastian started, "(Y/N) and I are together now.", he paused, "Since last night."
Chris's face looked hurt even though he tried to hide it. He nodded slowly and tried so hard to smile, but you and Seb could tell it was fake, "That's awesome guys. I kinda always knew you two would end up together." 'Fuck, I gave the perfect opportunity for this to happen by leaving last night. Well, no chance for me now.' He stood up, leaving his coffee right where it was. He went to you and stroked the side of your face with a closed hand once and spoke softly, "I'm gonna miss you, sweetheart."
You felt tears welling up in your eyes.
He stepped to Sebastian and put his hands on Seb's arms and gave one a single pat, "I'm happy for you, Seb."
With that, he turned, started to the island, grabbed his sunglasses and keys as he passed it and headed for the front door.
"Chris!", Sebastian called after him.
Chris didn't respond and soon you both heard the front door slam.
The tears fell quickly from your eyes, but you managed to hold back sobs. You both hurt him and you felt like shit for it.
You looked at Sebastian and his face was twisted up in regret, guilt and his own hurt for wondering if he just lost his best friend since middle school. He had tears barely hanging on in his own eyes.
He gathered you into his arms and spoke softly, his voice strained, "I'm so sorry, baby."