Forward or Backward
Chris came back to his room. He and Sebastian made eye contact. Chris shook his head, his face disappointed. Sebastian sighed and hitched his mouth to one side as a gesture of sympathy.
You were awake now, but groggy. My God, that one really sapped your energy. Nat was sitting against the headboard, holding your hand near your shoulder on the bed, Sebastian was still holding you. You had taken the pain relievers and it would be a while before they worked. You hoped the headache would subside before then. At least it was a bit milder now.
Chris came around the bed to Nat's side and looked down at her. He cocked and eye brow, "You're in my spot."
Nat grinned slyly, "You might have to fight me for it, Evans."
Sebastian chuckled and you smiled, but Chris only feigned a smile, hitching his head in the direction away from her, "Come on, please." He wasn't really in a joking mood. He put out a hand to help her up.
She took his hand and got up, giving his arm a reassuring double pat, "I'll go let everyone know that (Y/N)'s doing okay."
Chris sat down next to you as Nat had been and took your hand that she had been holding. You looked up at him. "Seb told me what was happening with Sharon. I'm so sorry, Chris. It's my fault."
Sebastian shook his head in disagreement and Chris spoke looking down at you, "No, sweetheart, it's not. Anyone who can't accept that I'll be there for you when you need me in times like this isn't right for me."
You smiled a little. You felt badly that it happened because of you. "Though I'm really sorry that it happened, I have to admit I'm glad to have you back. I've really missed the way it used to be."
"Me too.", Chris nodded, letting go of your hand and stroking your hair.
Sebastian looked down, thinking, 'The way it used to be? Before Sharon? But, we've gotten closer since then. Does she not want that anymore?... The way it used to be. She wants to go back. She wants Chris around as much as me again... Just friends. Still.'
'I'll give her some time. Maybe she'll get there if she can go at her own pace. Maybe it's just too much for her right now. I don't want to make things difficult for her by bringing it up and giving her more to worry about.'. He looked at your angelic face, your eyes closed now. 'Whatever she needs. I'll be whatever she needs.'
You and the guys got up after about 5 minutes of silence. Things felt strange with both of them now. You hoped it would pass... And soon. You wanted your boys back, like it used to be.
Chris helped you up to make sure you were steady and walked you to the back of the house with a hand under your elbow and an arm around your shoulders. You all went back outside, everyone smiled in your direction and Thor asked, "How are you, (Y/N)?"
You smiled, "I'm okay now, thank you."
Sebastian got you a chair to sit in in front of the fire and crouched down in front of you. "You need anything, doll?", he was smiling slightly, but he looked upset underneath it all. No surprise though, it had been a chaotic night for everyone.
"A water would be nice.", you replied. He nodded as you continued, "And can you sit with me?"
"Of course, babe." He stood and turned when you grabbed his hand.
"Seb-"
He crouched back down, looking at you expectantly, "Yeah?"
"Thank you for being my rock."
He gave you a tight lipped smile, like he was holding something back, but it was a genuine smile. He placed a hand against your cheek, "Whatever you need." He stood and disappeared into the house for your water.
The party had significantly mellowed since your episode, but everyone was still enjoying each other's company.
People left gradually before it got too late and once they'd all left, you asked the guys if they would sleep in your bed with you. You needed them both now. They agreed, but damn it, things still felt weird. Maybe sleeping all together and that contact would have you all back to yourselves by the morning.
Sebastian was in the bathroom downstairs brushing his teeth when Chris came in to climb in the bed with you in the dark, a hint of moonlight barely illuminating the room through your window blinds. When he got in, you were on your back and he pulled you to him, his forehead coming to rest on your temple. He whispered, "I really missed you, (Y/N)."
You took a deep breath and whispered back, "I missed you too, Chris. Goodnight."
He smiled in the dim light and kissed your temple, then put his forehead back against it, "Nite, sweetheart."
He really did like Sharon and he was still upset about how things had gone. But you were more to him and he was so happy to be near you again.
Sebastian came in and rounded the foot of the bed to go to your other side. He got in and pulled the covers over himself. Chris was kind of hogging you, his arm already wrapped around your waist. Seb wasn't sure where he could fit and he felt like he shouldn't be there, so he just sidled his front up against your side, feeling awkward, but he wanted to be with you, especially after what had happened to you that night. You caught him off guard when you turned into him, Chris just shifted a little closer to you and his hand was still at your waist, his face near the back of your head now.
You postioned yourself at just the right level so that your forehead could rest against Sebastian's lips, your soft breath caressing his neck. You tucked your arms into your chest and he wrapped his arm around your arm and back. He could see now that you still wanted him near and he started to feel better; like he felt before. Before was good. He reminded himself to just give it time and live in the moment, because this moment was perfect. "Nite, Sebby.", you whispered.
He pressed a kiss to your forehead effortlessly, since your forehead was already there. As far as he was concerned, that's right where it belonged, "Goodnight, baby doll."
Yes. He was feeling much better.