The Nightmare

Bucky had been gone for about a week now. You spent most of your time alone. The worst time was at night. You had been having nightmares again, the same ones as before. The one causing you and Bucky to meet and the one where you saw your friend beg for their life. You hadn't been able to go on missions lately. They have all been about Hydra. You had a bunch of pent up emotions and took care of them the best way you knew how, beating the shit out of something. You changed into leggings and one of Bucky's shirts. As you were kicking and punching the dummies you could feel yourself about to break but you continued anyways. Not very much later you began screaming, crying, and throwing everything. You slumped down in a corner with your knees to your chest and your hands holding your head. Everyone hearing the screaming came running in to find the training room destroyed and you curled up in a corner slowly rocking your self back and forth. After Nat calmed you down you walked out and went into the living room to lay down on the massive couch. You slowly fell asleep. Nat walked in looking for you so you talk to Bucky. He had made a video call to he could say hi to everyone. She noticed you were asleep so she quietly switched the camera around so he could see you sleeping. After the call ended Nat had Steve carry you into Buckys room for the night. A few days later you Nat and Steve were helping Fury move stuff when suddenly Nat pulled you to the side.

“Here you go honey you might want to check soon.” she handed you a pregnancy test.

Another week had passed. Bucky was supposed to get back today but he didn’t. A few more days passed without him returning. You sat around all day in the living room waiting for him to walk through those doors. You began to read a book and fall asleep slightly. When you woke he still wasn’t home so you decided to go take a bath. It was about seven at night and you were relaxing in a bubble bath when you heard the door open and soft foot steps. You looked up and saw a badly bruised Bucky holding a bouquet of roses. He slowly walked over kneeled down next to the tub. “ Y/N-” you quickly cut him off with a deep passionate kiss to the lips.

You slowly pulled away and looked at him. “You’re late.”

“I know baby it took a couple more days than expected but it worked babe. Everything Hydra put into my head, it’s all gone. I don’t have to worry about it anymore.” he smiled and stood up. “Can I join?”

“No you can’t. Of course you can babe you always can.”

He put the bouquet of roses down on the counter as he started to undress and got in kissing you. You notices he was wincing in pain and he slowly got in the warm water. He pulled away and leaned back against the wall so you could lean your head against his bare chest. With him undressed you couldn’t help but notice how badly he was actually injured. He was littered in cuts and bruises and something that looked like a knife wound on his side.

“What happened why do you look like you went through hell?”

“It’s nothing babe, don’t worry about it.” He began to rub the top of your back, neck, and shoulders.

“Are you sure baby? Did something bad happen?” you couldn’t help but be nosey and push it out of him.

He hesitated, “Hydra broke into the medical ward. One of them had the book, and started saying, you know….” he stopped rubbing your shoulders to use air quotes, ‘the words.’ But someone grabbed it before they could finish and guess who got to beat the shit outta em.” he sat up a little bit and squared his shoulders to mock Steve’s famous ‘I’m a hero fuck yeah’ pose. “Me that's who. Told you it was nothing to worry about.”

You couldn’t but glare at him and poke some of the bruises and knife wound, “From the looks of it the guy almost beat you. Are you sure you're ok? I’m gonna treat and clean all of it just in case.”

“Only if you promise that you’ll make me some of the plum cobbler from our honeymoon. And pay attention to me constantly ‘because I'm like a puppy now babe, I'm hurt so I need extra attention and extra love.”

“Don't I always pay attention to you?”

He tried to change the subject as quickly as possible, “So the baby situation.”

“Not yet babe but soon hopefully.” you kissed the bottom of his chin. He rubbed your stomach and kissed your neck.

“I'm so happy to be back home with my hot ass wife.” He kept rubbing your stomach while you finished your time in the bathtub. After a while you were ready to get out but it took some time because Bucky was clearly more damaged than he claimed. It took him forever to stand up and he limped all the way to the room.

While you got dress he got dressed and laid down on the bed. “Babe, I think I’m stuck here now.” he said

“And why is that?”

“I’m too sore to move.”

Once you were dressed you asked him “Will you be alright there for a short while?”

“What Babe where are you going? Don’t leave me alone.” He added a sad face at the end.

“Making some plum cobbler of course.”

He stopped being sad instantly. “Oh, yeah, that’s important. Ok I'll be right here sweetie!”

“That’s what I thought.” You gave him a forehead kiss and made your way down to the kitchen.

It only took you about 20 minutes to make the cobbler with help from Vision. He said he wanted to learn to cook for Wanda so he was watching you and helping when he could.

Just to spite your injured husband you came back to the room and sat on the foot of the bed eating the cobbler.

“Wheres mine babe?”

“In the kitchen.”

“Aw come on babe. Seriously where’s mine?”

“I told you, in the kitchen next to the cobbler.” All of a sudden Vision phased through the floor holding a plate full of plum cobbler. Vision casually handed the massive plate of plum cobbler to the brunette and left by slowly sinking through the floor.

“At least Vision loves me enough to bring me cobbler.”

You rolled your eyes and put your plate down. “Is Vision gonna have your baby eventually? Will he surprise you with a present tomorrow? I think not.”

“Wait what. You got me something as a surprise?”

“I was going to in the morning but maybe I won’t now.”

“Woah now let’s not do something that we’ll regret later doll.” he set his plate down and pulled you down on to the bed and into his bare chest. “I love you Y\N and you know that. You’re the only one who puts up with my shit and it’s awesome.”

“I know.” you kissed his neck and laid your head on his chest. “I spoil you too much.” with that the two of you watched movies and went to bed.

It was about six in the morning when Nat busted through your door to wake you up. “Y\N! Get up we’re going shopping today! Oh hi Buck.” She dragged you out of bed and threw a pair of jeans and a t shirt at you. “Come on all that girly shit ain’t waiting. Hurry up. You can have private time with Bucky later but right now it’s girl time. Let’s go.”

All of a sudden you heard Steve yelling, “Come on Buck up and outta bed!!”

You groaned and got dressed. Kissing Bucky before leaving with Nat. You knew what one stop was, Bucky’s surprise. Nat saved that stop for last. After what felt like hours upon hours it was finally time for your last stop. Suddenly you could hare Steve.

“So that’s all you told her? If she broke her promise about going on Hydra missions she would have found out Buck you gotta get rid of that thing and tell her the truth.”

“I know I just don’t want to mess up especially since we’re trying for another baby and stuff.”

You followed their voices and found them, “Tell me the truth about what?”

“About my addiction to parrots. Obviously Y\N. Jeez always so nosey.” you couldn’t help but kick Steve in the shin.

Nat finally caught up to the three of you “Hey we’re almost done we just need one more store, do you guys want to hang out while Y\N tries on some clothes?”

“Uhh Nat the last stop was for that ‘thing’.

“Oh that’s right. So why don’t the guys just hang around out here while we go into the store?”

“Sounds like a plan then Nat.”

The guy’s stayed in the courtyard at the mall while you and Nat went into a lingerie store. You had picked out a red bra and matching underwear with gray lace with traces of silver thread. You asked Nat if she could go get a couple more options. She gave you couple different kinds but the first one you tried on stood out the most so you bought that one.

“Jesus Christ babe did you get lost in there or something?” Bucky was waiting not too far from the store. He was casually trying to see what was in the bag you were holding.

“Uh, no, this isn’t for you. Yet.” You have to swing the bag away.

“Yet?”

“Y/N come on let’s go!” Nat was calling you from across the hall.

“I’ll see you later babe. You and Steve have fun. Why are you guys here anyway?”

Bucky just stared and said “Umm, you know, guy stuff.”

“Ok you have fun with that and I’ll see you at home.” You gave him a quick kiss and ran off with Nat before he could sneak another attempt for a look in the bag.

As soon as you and Nat got back to the tower, you had a slight idea what the guys were doing when you walked in on Tony yelling “Where’s my damn credit card?!”

You and Nat just shook your heads and you went to carefully hide what you bought at the store. That would have to wait until later.

You and Nat had a couple hours to waste so why not spar together. After an hour or two you guys were done and walked out to Steve and bucky setting something up in the living room.

“What are you setting up babe?”

“Dinner. Steve and I just bought it with Tony’s card.” he smiled like he had jost won the lottery. “Oh and I bought some stuff for you too. But you have to wait until after dinner.”

“That’s fine but you might want to give me my surprise first, I have a feeling that once you see what i got you you won’t want to do anything.” you grinned

“It’s that awesome of a present then huh?”

“You have no idea babe.” with that you pecked his cheek and sat down to eat.

A few minutes passed and everyone was sitting down now so you all began to fill your plates with the various chinese foods.

The curiosity in Tony was killing him. “So Y/N, do you know if there's a baby on the way?”

Bucky kicked his foot underneath the table. “I’m not sure yet I haven't gone in awhile seeing as though Bucky hasn’t been here.”

“Well I hope there is. The two of you deserve to be happy and have family.”

Everyone looked at Tony like he was sick. Rhodes even went as far to go grab a thermometer to check his temperature. “You feeling alright Tony? You”re not running a fever so that’s good.”

Tony threw his hands up in the air and said “I’m just pointing out the obvious.”

“You know what I’ll check later and tell you all in the morning.” You said. Nearly everyone groaned with your answer.

Tony frowned at you and started gathering more food onto his plate. As he was getting seconds he paused and started looking around the table full of Chinese food. “Where did you guys get all of this? And how?”

No one answered but Steve and Bucky had to fight to hold back laughter.

“You know what. I don’t even care. I would like my credit card to be returned to my desk exactly how it was found or else I’m blasting porn on the loudspeakers.”

This got everyone’s attention and complete silence. You gave Bucky a look which he avoided by glancing nervously at Steve.

“Hey are we watching a movie or what?” Nat called out.

“Buck might be too tired he did get back last night, jet lags a bitch he could still be adjusting.” steve said winking at his brunette friend.

About thirty minutes after everyone finished bucky excused himself and you followed closely behind him.

“Babe do you really think I could be pregnant again?”

“I hope you aren’t just so i can love on you all i want when I want baby. But if you are thats awesome I can't wait to see my wife holding my child.” he kissed the top of your head before going into his room and emerging back into the hall soon. He handed you a small black velvet box.

‘What’s this babe?”

“Your present. I wanted to get you something for being so open about the hydra thing.”

You slowly opened the small box. Inside was a small heart necklace surrounded by diamonds. “Babe its beautiful.”

He carefully took it out and gently put it around your neck. “Now, onto my surprise.” he pulled you closer to him when exactly do i get what was in that bag?”

“Hmmm, I’d say in a few minutes.” you went to your room to grab the bag that contained the lingerie and headed back to Bucky’s room. “Now you can’t look other wise the surprise will be ruined.”

“Fine, I won’t look.”

After he turned around you began to take your cloths off to put on the lingerie. You tried to be quiet and kept your eye on Bucky to assure he wasn't looking. You quickly went to examine yourself in the mirror of his dresser even though you knew he would be fine with you anyway. You turned around and went to stand in the middle of the room. “Alright. You can look.”

He slowly turned around and when he saw you he whistled and slowly walked over. “I’m loving my new lingerie. How did you know that lingerie was my favorite to wear?” he chuckled he pulled you into him and kissed you. He slowly sat down on the bed and pulled you into his lap. “You look good babe.” he began kissing your neck and slowly working his way down.

“Nat helped me pick it out.” you smiled and tilted your head back to give him more access to your neck.

“It suits you perfectly.” He accepted the greater access to your neck and you grabbed onto his hair. He moved his kisses to your chest while you pulled yourself further onto his lap, making him scoot back onto the bed. As he kissed your neck his hands moved down to your waist and he carefully examined all of the lingerie. Once his hands reached your thighs you pushed him backwards until he lay flat on the bed and you sat firmly on his lap. You ever so slightly rocked your hips causing a groan to come from Bucky. “I missed you so much baby.” you bent down to kiss him deeply. Suddenly Bucky remembered what he and Steve had talked about. He pulled away. “Babe before get going I need to tell you what actually happened and why I’m so beat up.” He moved you back a little bit and sat up. “It’s about what took me so long to come back and why i was a few days late.”

“O-ok.”

“We were in the middle of one of the procedures when Hydra got in and killed the scientists and tried to change me again. They were successful.”

It took you a moment to realise what he was talking about. “You lied to me about saying you got rid of them!” You scrambled to your feet and threw your clothes on.

He quickly grabbed your hand and pulled you back onto the bed “Until Wanda showed up and undid it. But I fought Clint, Scott and Thor and hurt them pretty badly.”

“How do i know that you didn't kill any citizens or any scientists when you went all crazy?! You still got rid of the book right?”

“Not exactly,” he dug through his bag and pulled out the small red book that had the power to control him.

“Why wouldn’t you get rid of it babe?! We need to get rid of it ASAP, especially before the baby is born if I’m even pregnant again!” Tears slowly appeared at the corners of your eyes as you stood up.

“I know babe but i brought it back for Fury. He wants it for something.”

“Why the hell does Fury need it? So he can control you at will too?”

“Baby, I don’t know why he wants it just come lay back down with me.” he patted the area next to him.

“Not until i find out why Fury wants that stupid little nightmare inducing book.” you took the book and left to go find anyone who would tell you why Fury wanted that book.

Bucky quickly got dressed and raced after you. “Babe, calm down just come lay down with me we can ask him and Coulson tomorrow, please baby?”

“Promise?”

“Promise. Now let's go back to the room so I can get a better look at that surprise.” he grinned when you grabbed his hand.

“Fine.” you followed him back into his room and he quickly undressed himself and you again and brought you over to the bed.

“Come here beautiful.” he kissed you deeply and hovered over your body while your arms went around the back of his neck and your hands went in his hair. You could feel him smile against your lips as he slowly pulled away. He brought himself back up to hover over you to admire the sight. He smiled, but then it was a smirk. “Babe, it’s gorgeous and you look wonderful, but i think this is in the way.”

He snapped the clip from the back of your bra and quickly tore it off you so he could better attack your chest. It would be better for another time. You went to help remove the bottom part of your outfit but Bucky grabbed your hands and pinned them above your head while saying “Not too fast now.” He was still working on your chest and stomach but you did not fight. It took him minutes but he worked down to release the few clips and remove your bottoms. “Better.”

“You’re not fully undressed yet babe what’s taking you so long?” You asked with your attitude.

“Just hold on I like taking my time and you are very impatient.” he replied quickly. You groaned and he finally sped up a tiny bit, removing his boxers and pulling himself closer to you. He starting kissing up and down your neck and chest again, giggling at every soft moan. You jumped when you felt his cold metal hand start caressing your thigh. You tried to relax from that but gasped when he bit down and started sucking on one nipple. Your hands latched onto his hair. You didn’t even realise it when he quickly entered you below. “Patience is a virtue.” He growled.

“Shut up.” You hissed.

His thrusts started slow and torturous his favorite. It always worked on both of you. He continued littering the top of you with kisses and an occasional nibble. While still holding his hair you were able to land some kisses on his neck before he started getting rougher. His thrusts were getting rougher and you were already losing strength. You threw your head back on the pillow but still held on to him by his back. You didn’t realise you were scratching him with your nails hard enough to draw blood, but he didn’t care at all. He brought his lips back to your neck with his next thrust and your strength was almost all taken from you. You let your hands fall to grab his wrists that were next to your waist. You suddenly realised he was slowing down.

“Bucky, wha-” He brought his lips over yours before you could finish and kissed you deeply. He was going slower but harder. You tried calling out that you were close but you couldn’t break the kiss. With his panting and rushed breathing you knew he was close too. It only took one more thrust before you lost control with him. You finally screamed out and you were both gone, him falling on top of you. After a few minutes he slowly pulled out and laid next to your sucking on your neck creating a few hickeys. “Buck, I love you.”

“Love you too baby. What time is it? Like ten or something?”

“Yeah it’s ten thirty. Why?”

“Just wondering baby.” He went back to your neck smiling.

“Babe let me see your back, I want to see how badly I scratched your back.”

“It’s fine babe if anything it’s just a couple scratches. No big deal.”

“Babe pleaaaaase. I just wanna check.”

“Fine.” he groaned and rolled over onto his stomach while you sat up.

“Oh shit. Babe I made you bleed.” you got up to get something to clean his wounds with. “I’m gonna clean them plus this knife wound on your side.” You began to clean the wounds. After a couple minutes you finished his back and he laid on his back looking up at you. “God whoever stitched you up did a shity job. I’m going to redo your stitches baby.”

“Whatever you want to do baby.” he smiled and grabbed your hand kissing it. He watched you concentrate on getting his stitches out and getting the right supplies to stitch him back up properly. “You know one of us won’t make it one day right babe?”

“I know, but that doesn’t stop either of us from going on missions. It definitely won’t affect how much I love you or how badly I want to have a baby.”

He smiled. “You almost done? Can you look at my ribs baby? They kinda hurt.”

“Do you think you broke a few?”

“Maybe.” he watched you as you finished stitching him up and bandaging up the area. You moved onto his ribs gently pressing on each rib and carefully watching his facial expressions for any alterations. “Your ribs seem fine except for a little bruising baby.”

“Perfect.” he smiled and jumped on top of you kissing you. “You seem a little tired baby. Want to watch some tv?”

“Sure why not.” you smiled and kissed his neck sucking a little causing a hickey. You heard a soft groan. “Did that feel good or something baby?” you couldn’t help but smile when he laid his forehead on your shoulder.

“I love the things you do to me baby.” he kissed your shoulder moving to your neck slowly lowering himself next to you.

“I love the things you do to me.” you sucked on his neck more causing a deep purple hickey. You laid your head on his shoulder and slowly drifted off to sleep.

“I must have really tired her out.” he smiled and shifted to where he was on his side and your head was resting on his bicep. You instantly curled up. He put his metal arm over your waist and pulled you closer while pulling the blankets up and falling asleep himself.