The Nightmare

You and Bucky were trying to figure out how your wedding was going to look and function in your room when you both heard someone enter the apartment with rushed footsteps. A smaller pair of feet followed. Steve and Peggy must be home.

After Steve and Peggy were finished with their date you decide to take Steve with you to go wedding dress shopping. When you got there he helped so much making sure you were comfy and happy. After trying on many dresses and none of them being the one, you gave up but Steve didn’t. He went dress diving for the perfect one and emerged with beautiful dress. It was white with black and red beads going down from stomach to the bottom. The top of it was lace. Steve must know you and Bucky better than you knew each other and he instantly knew both would love this dress. It fit perfectly. When you walked out Steve was speechless, he knew Bucky would be too. You started to pay for it but Steve stole your wallet and paid, you wanted to hit him. That was the second person to buy something you could pay for.

When you got back Tony was talking to Bucky and Bucky looked absolutely furious. Tony had found out that the two of you were engaged. “Oh come on Bucky just tell everyone already if the rock on her finger isn’t hint enough then you need to tell them flat out!”

Bucky was enraged, he somehow had managed to get a knife and was ready to stab Tony. You ran in to calm him down and carefully take the knife. You threw a death glare at Tony and calmed Bucky down more and told him to go lay down. Bucky had to get out one last comment first. “Why do you think you and Pepper are taking a break? Huh? Because you're too damn selfish to think about her. From the very second I saw y/n I knew that she was the one I was going to marry. Which one of your filthy ass bimbos are you going to marry Stark?”

Tony yelled back, “That’s bullshit and you know it. You hated her at first, you thought she was going to take Steve away from you. All this happened because of that one single night when you were going to knock her out and leave her somewhere but instead you fell in love.”

Before you knew it you were beating the shit out of Tony for the remark he made and Nat had to pin you down. She dragged you back into your room where Bucky followed. “Was he right Bucky, were you going to knock me out and leave me somewhere?”

Bucky chose his wording carefully while hugging you, “Of course not doll what I said was true. I knew I was going to marry you.”

Nat butted in for a second “So the rumors are true you two are engaged.”

You both shot her a death glare and she took the hint as he hugged you to try and calm you some while looking at your swollen and bruised knuckles. He got up to get an ice pack for your knuckles and when he came back he began to tell you what actually happened. “Y/n, Tony was right. I did hate you at first but that night in the kitchen I realized how perfect you were and how much I needed you in my life.” You saw he had a tear in his eye and you wanted him on top of you again. But as a sign of forgiveness you kissed his neck and chest. A happy groan came from the back of his throat. He got up and decided to go take a shower to try and relax a little.

Thirty or forty minutes later he came back into the room to find you asleep on the floor. He carefully picked you up and placed you on the bed then put sweats on to go train.

A few hours later you woke up on your stomach and Bucky was nowhere in sight. Turns out Nat and him went out to go look at tuxedos. Tony was outside your room wanting to apologize but you just ignore him when you went to go find Steve and Peggy. They were talking to Fury about what had happened and decided to make you apart of the team after seeing what you did in Russia. You were part of the military one of the best snipers and best at hand to hand combat. Steve didn’t want to tell you until Bucky knew.

When Bucky got home he was distraught. Steve talked to him on the side then he looked at you with a worried expression. He soon picked you up and brought you into the room to talk. “Why didn’t you tell me you were in the military y/n?”

You were shocked that he somehow knew. Nobody should know of this. You replied, “How did you find out that was a long time ago the only way some could have found was is if….” you trailed off and ran to find a computer. Bucky followed thinking you were trying to get away from him, and you sped up because you were. Once you were on an entirely different floor and had lost him, you found a computer and started hacking SHIELD files. You found something that made your heart freeze: A mission assigned to the Winter Soldier a week before Bucky had asked you out. He had been ordered to spy on you and kidnap you and bring you to Hydra “at the right time.” Now in tears you ran away to hide from everyone in the building. Everyone was looking for you as you hugged your knees crying on the roof behind an air duct.

Finally Vision found you in tears in your hiding spot. “Y/N, what is the matter? Can I be of any help to you?”

Wanda was not too far behind him. Wanda stated “Y/n Bucky is tearing the building apart looking for you. He’s extremely concerned about you.”

“Please don’t tell him I’m here.” You begged.

Vision went to look for Bucky anyway to tell him about your whereabouts. Bucky sprinted up to your hiding spot and held you close and tight. You were scared of him now and that he would bring you to Hydra like he should be. You pushed him away and made your way to the bottom floor and ran for as long as you could before collapsing on the ground. Nat and Clint had followed you and took you to their room. There you slept on their couch.

The next morning Nat had told you Bucky went out looking for you, and he hasn’t come back. A week past before he gave up and came back. He was covered in cuts and bruises. He saw you go in the the bathroom back on your floor and ran in after you picking you up swiftly. You weren’t smiling. He quickly set you down. “Bucky, are you actually in love with me. Or am I just a stupid mission that went wrong?”

He seemed hurt, “Y/n,” he couldn't find the right words.

“What Bucky? Was I just a mission or not?”

He lowered his head and took a deep breath. "Y/n yes at first. My other employer wanted me to watch you carefully and eventually bring you to him. But later I forgot I even had those orders. I really did fall in love with you. And I swear I'll stop the missions and retire entirely just to be with you. Y/n everything I said is true I love you."

"Bullshit!” Your outburst made him take a step back. “You're supposed to be gathering intel on me, I read your damn mission files." You stormed out, taking the ring off and throwing it at him.

He ran after you pleading. "I need you in my life, I haven't been this happy for ages," he could feel tears stinging at his eyes. "Y/n please I'll give up the missions I'll retire just please don't leave me, I need you!" His small tears turned in rivers

"If you need me so bad why don't you finish your goddamn mission, soldier?!" You quickly left before he could see the tears forming in your eyes.