It was a calm night, everyone was staying in the temple of the OCS for a meeting, because they always were extended, Mother Superion offered them to stay whenever they had these types of meetings, that night was one of those nights.
"Shit", said Lilith, looking at her shaking hands, her nails longer than usual; she had a nightmare, again, and she can't help but panic, the nightmares were more and more frequent now, which at first she couldn't understand, Adriel was gone, the OCS were trying their best to forgive her, and things seemed to get a little better, so she couldn't understand why she had so many nightmares now; she eventually realized that she had them because her mind had more time to think about what happened, what could've happened. And she can't help but be scared.
She's scared of everything, of everyone, of herself; suddenly, she felt some liquid on her arms, she looked over to see fresh wounds and blood, but she didn't mind, knowing she would heal in a few moments. The blood brought flashbacks, flashbacks she couldn't stop seeing; she could hear screams and see blood and feel pain, it was like she was living those moments again; if she wasn't panicking already, she definitely was panicking now, her breathing was quick, no matter how much she tried she couldn't calm down, she couldn't breathe at all; before she could stop herself, she was crying, her whole body now shaking.
She got up from the bed and walked until she was outside of the headquarters of the Cat's Cradle, it wasn't easy, her whole body felt weak, but she knew she had to get away from the Sisters, which she didn't managed to do, her body gave up when she was next to the statue; without much of a choice, she sat on the floor, resting her back on the base of the statue. She looked up to see the starts, she found it somehow relaxing, also, looking up helped her not to cry, but it didn't work, more tears appearing on her eyes, rolling down her cheeks; her breathing fast again, her body shaking even more than before. Lilith decided to curl into a ball, it was something that brought her comfort; she stayed like that until she heard some footsteps coming her way, she quickly looked up, just to see Camila walking towards her.
The taller girl immediately sat up, not wanting to be close to anyone, Camila noticed this even though her eyes were half-closed, so she stopped walking, looking at Lilith a little worried. "Lil?", asked the short girl, worry could be heard in her voice, the demon girl couldn't hold back the tears at the nickname and the soft tone in Camila's voice, she broke right there and then; she started to sob, tears rolling down her cheeks, her whole body shaking even more, her nails longer than before. Once again, the taller girl curls into a ball, hiding her face, Camila quickly sits next to her, resting a hand softly on the other girl's arm, without notice, Lilith hugs Camila quickly, hiding her face on the crook of the short girl's neck. Camila doesn't say anything, simply hugging her back.
They stay like that a few moments, Lilith clinging to the other girl, not wanting to let go of her, finally, Camila takes the courage to talk, "What happened? It's okay if you don't wanna talk about it, just, you know, you can tell me". The taller girl pulls away and looks right into her friend's eyes, thinking whether or not it was a good idea to talk about it. She slowly nods and looks at her hands, which are still shaking, the short haired girl smiles softly and takes both of the demon girl hands, holding them gently; Lilith swallows up hard, her breathing still quick and unsteady, she takes a deep breathe and closes her eyes. "I don't like this, being this.. monster", said Lilith, she looked back to Camila, expecting her to be mad, or disappointed, or something, but instead, she met eyes filled with love and a gentle smile; the short girl slowly rested her hand on the older girl's cheek, caressing it lovingly; Lilith simply stared at her, crying even more, she once again hugged Camila, this time even more tight than before, if that was even possible.
"You're like the space" said Camila softly, gently rubbing her friend's back; "What does that mean?", asked Lilith, some of her words were muffled by Camila's clothes, but it was still understandable, the short girl pulled away slowly, sitting with her back against the base of the statue, the crying woman sat next to her, gently resting her head on the short haired girl's shoulder; Camila pointed to the sky, where a bunch of starts could be seen. "When you think about it, the space is beautiful, but it's also dangerous, and sometimes scary, but it's always beautiful. And I like the space, and I still like you", she said, giving her friend a soft smile, full of love, Lilith smiled softly, no more tears on her eyes, she wasn't shaking anymore, and she could breathe properly.
The young women kept looking at the starts some more minutes, until they saw Mary walking towards them, Mary had disappeared not too long after the meeting ended; she sat next to Lilith and also looked up to see the stars, "Everything fine?", Mary asked, not looking to the girls, she saw that Lilith's eyes were kind of red, even without light, she could sense something had happened; "We just wanted to see the stars" answered Lilith, slowly closing her eyes, completely relaxing on Camila's shoulder. The young women stayed outside, watching the starts in complete silence, for about 15 more minutes, until Mary pointed at Lilith, who was slowly falling asleep, Camila wakes up Lilith gently, once Lilith is half up, the three of them walk inside the Cat's Cradle, Lilith and Camila hold hands the whole way, Mary goes to her room while Camila and Lilith walk to Lilith's room; they both get in the bed, the short girl knowing Lilith would need her for a little more.
Lilith lays her head on Camila's chest, and Camila simply plays with her hair gently, feeling Lilith relax again; it doesn't take long before both girls are sleeping deeply. The next morning, Mother Superion and Mary are inside Lilith's room, seeing both women cuddling, holding each other, Mary can't help but chuckle a little while taking a photo of the scene, they decide to let the girls sleep some more, leaving the room and closing the door quietly.