Chapter 8
Bucky watches has Steve plays with Justin in the back yard. Brock would have never played with him, instead he just wanted to hurt the boy but Bucky stopped him every time. Natasha was standing beside him watching Justin catching the ball and trying his best to throw it and Steve laughing cheerfully. She hears Bucky sniffle and she looks over. Bucky looked miserable. There was a tear falling down his cheek and he wiped it away angrily.
He looks over to see Natasha watching him. "Fucking pregnancy hormones." He lies smoothly and walks over to the couch. The tears keep on coming and he is just fucking done crying all the damn time. He needs to stop being weak. "Damn it Barnes. Be strong." He mutters to himself and Natasha gently lays her hand onto his back. "A penny for your thoughts?" She asks. "Am I a good mother?" Bucky asks. She looked shocked the smiles. "Yes, you are." She says gently. They didn't reliaze that Steve and Justin came inside the house and were now listening to the conversation.
"I don't know, I believe I am. I protect him, I take the beatens. He doesn't have to suffer, but I am just so tired of everything. Of crying, of being afraid, of being hit, insluted, force to do things that I, myself don't want to do." Bucky says feeling exhausted. "I just want a good life for Justin and the girl. I do not want them making the same mistakes that I did." Bucky says softly then just sighs. "I'm going to bed. I am suddenly feeling exhausted. " Bucky says and walks to the guest room and closes the door behind him.
Justin went to follow his mother when Natasha stopped him. "Let him have some space." She whispers. "But my mother doesn't understand. He taught me to be nice. My momma gave me a good life. I won't become like dad. No, I want mom to be happy. It has been so long since I saw him truly laughing and smiling. I remember when one time daddy was nice to my momma. To see him smiling and laughing, but the the next day he became mean to momma all over again and I never seen him smile and laugh again." Justin says on the verge of tears. Natsha hugs the boy and she blinks her own tears away. "It's okay Justin. He will be happy once again. I promise you." She says softly and this time tears did fall down the boy's cheeks. Steve walks over and Justin sees him and smiles.
"Mr. Rogers?" He asks. Steve squats down to Justin's height. "What is it kiddo?" Steve asks. "You qlways make momma smile. Can you talk to him? It's not his fault. He always blames himself." He says miserably. Steve nods. "I talk to him, for you." He says and looks at Natasha. She nods and he nods back and slowly walks to the guest room where Bucky is. Steve knocks softly on the door. "Buck? May I come in?" He asks and he hears sniffling and the bed squeaking signaling tat he is getting up. Bucky opens the door a crack and looks at him with red eyes. "What do you want?" He asks in a rough voice. "May I talk to you. Your son is worred about you." He says and Bucky looks down and opens the door more.
Steve walks insde and Bucky closes the door. "Justin is worried? About me? Why?" He asks. Steve sits down on the bed and Bucky sits down beside him. "Justin told s a few things. You gave him a good life. He is happy when you are." Steve starts. Bucky puts his hand onto his four month, slightly swollen stomach and his breath hitches. "Steve I-"
"No, he hates that you blame yourself for everything and wants to see you turly laugh and smile, I want to see it too. You are amazing and strong." He continues.
Bucky looks at him and Steve rests his hand against Bucky's cheek. Bucky rests his hand on top of Steve's. "Steve, I'm not strong. I am so weak." Bucky says. "No, but once my mother told me that when you are at rock bottom, the only way to go is up." Steve whispers and Bucky closes his eyes. "Tell me that everything is going to be alright, please." Bucky whimpers out. Steve smiles and stares at Bucky with this look in his eyes. Love. "Everything is going to be alright." He whispers. Bucky squeezes his eyes shut has he breathes out. "Thank you." He whispers. Bucky looks up and looks at Steve.
They stare just like that and slowly starts to lean close. Bucky's eyes flutter shut and Steve's lips presses to his. Steve's lips were soft and warm. He had passes this feeling into Bucky. Safety. Bucky loves this feeling and he feels Steve wrap his arms around Bucky and Bucky puts his arms around his neck and presses his lips harder against his. But soon Steve pulls away and they rest there foreheads aginst each other's and they breath heavily. "I'm sorry." Steve says and Bucky shakes his head. "Don't be." Bucky says and quickly kisses him again. "Come on." Steve says and grabs his hand. Bucky smiles and walks with him. Steve opens the door and Justin walks quickly to his mother and hugs him. "Hey sweetie. Don't be worried about me. I will be alright. He says kindly and Justin looks up at his mother. "I love you mom." He says. "Aw I love you too baby." Bucky says and kisses his son's forehead.
"Momma? Can we go to the park?" He asks. Bucky smiles. "Well, it is a beautiful warm day. Lets go." Bucky says and Justin smiles. Justin rushes to put on his shoes and coat. "Slow down sweetie. Jesus, I need to take my time." Bucky says and laughs has Justin pouts. "Do you guys want to come?" He asks. Steve nods. Natasha smiles. "Actuall sure, why not?" She says and everyone throws on there shoes and walks out of the door.
Bucky watches Justin has he runs ahead and gets curious about everything. Steve smiles at Bucky and looks at Justin. "You know, Justin is lucky to ave a mothrr like you." He sas out of no where and Bucky looks over. "Yeah?" He says and Steve nods. Bucky smiles and looks at Justin. Natasha was talking to a man with dirty blond hair in the distance. "You two are a cute couple and a beautiful boy. Be lucky you two have each other." Says an Alpha and walks off. Bucky blushes and Steve rubs the back of his neck and chuckles nervously.
"Did that just really happen?" Natasha asks. Bucky and Steve nods and the three bursts into laughter. Justin stops and smiles at his mother. His mother was finally laughing. He still remembers that day where his dad, or well Brock has his mother keeps meeting him was nice and made them both laugh and smile.
Justin was only seven years old and was helping his mother making a birthday cake for his dad. "Good job honey." Bucky says and ruffles his son's hair making him giggle. Bucky smiles andit drops has Brock walks in and stops. "Happy birthday Brock." Bucky says nervously. Bucky wasn't sure if he will be happy or not with this, he never tried it before. Brock walks over to him. Bucky looks down afraid. Justin watches, he has already seen Brock insult him and smack him. Bucky squeaks has all of a sudden he was dipped down and kissed.
Bucky was not expecting this. This was a total surprise.
Brock brings him back up. "Thanks sexy." He husks and Bucky actually smiles. Bucky was proud of himself, he finally didn't do something wrong and get hit or anything. Brock smiles at Justin. "How are yo doing kiddo?" He asks. "I uh got the highest marks in class." Justin says shyly. "Oh sweetheart I'm so proud of you." Bucky says and picks him up making Justin giggle and hug his mother. "I'm proud of you son." Brock says and Bucky smiles in Justin's hair.
Brock wraps an arm around Bucky's waist and brings them close. "I am in a good mood today." He says and smiles. Bucky bites his bottom lip and he feels Justin nuzzling closer to him and he wraps his arm tighter around his son and without Brock noticing he brings Justin away from him. Brock pulls away and smiles at them. It was creepy, seeing Brock all nice when he has been abusive to him for so long. Brock kisses Bucky again and tockles him making Bucky jump and laugh. "Don't tickle me. You know how much I hate being tickled." Bucky says and puts Justin down.
"Oh you do eh?" He says and tackles Bucky with tickles. "No, please stop." Bucky says and laughs. Brock picks Bucky up and spins him around making the Omega laugh harder. Justin smiles seeing this. Brock puts him down and kisses him again. "I love you baby." He husks. Bucky smiles. He was afraid, he really hated him but he knew that if he says the wrong thing he might make Brock mean all over again. This was a nice break. He was acting like the man he first met, being nice and kind to him. "I love you too." He whispers. Justin knew his mother was lying. Bucky's eyes weren't bright and when Brock looks away his smile falls and he was fixed with a heart broken expression.
Justin looks at his mpther and sees him smiling at him. Justin runs over and hugs him. "I love you mom." He says. "I love you too baby." Bucky says.