Chapter 4
Bucky woke up feeling a heavey weight inside his chest. Bucky groans when he sits up. Bucky looked over to see Justin whimpering inside of his dreams. Bucky pulls his son closer to him. "It's okay, your safe. No one will ever hurt you again, I promise." Bucky whispers into his son's ear and Justin finally settles down. Bucky hums Your my Sunshine and cuddles into his son. Bucky felt safe for once. Bucky sighs. it is just him, Justin and his unborn child. Bucky felt his heart break. Bucky needs to find out if his child is a boy or a girl. Bucky sighs and all of a sudden starts to feel sick. Okay Bucky needs to find a bathroom and quick. Bucky sits up and there are two doors side by side with another door on the other side of the room. Bucky opens the first one to find a closet. Bucky stiff opens another door. Bucky felt relieved that it was a bathroom and suddenly finds himself heaving into the toliet.
Bucky was gasping for breath before another round starts when he feels a hand rubbing up and down his back. Bucky didn't know who it was but felt grateful for the touch. Bucky coughs and starts to heave once again only to be dry heaving. Bucky's body was shakeing like crazy when he finally leans back and flushes the toliet. Bucky looks up to see that it was Steve who had comforted him. "Is Justin okay?" Bucky asks. Steve smiles. "Yeah, he got me when he woke up hearing you inside the washroom being sick again."
"Oh, sorry?" Bucky says confused. Steve chuckles. "You don't need to say sorry, it's part of life." Steve says. Bucky sniffles. "I- yeah life. ummm I should have tr-tried har-harder." And Bucky groans and hides his face into his hands. Steve shushes him. "Don't talk about yourself like that. You tried to escape the pain only for him to hold you down and abused you." Steve whispers. Bucky shakes his head and stands up. "I don't want Justin to be scared." Bucky breaths out and walks out of the washroom like nothing happened. It looks so perfectional that Steve wonders how many times Bucky had broken down and then acted like nothing happened, just so he won't scare his son. Bucky had courage and was so brave that Steve feels so proud of him.
Bucky clears his throat and quickly looks inside the mirror and walks out into the kitchen. Bucky smiled and petted his son's head. "Baby, how are you feeling this morning?" Bucky asks as he sits down beside Justin and Sam. Justin looks up at his mother and smiles. "I am feeling happy this morning. Safe." Justin whispered the last word that Bucky was the only one who heard Justin say it. Bucky breathes out. "I know honey, but we will get through this and we will only be stronger. " Bucky says and Justin smiled. "I love you mom." Justin whispered. Bucky smiles. "I love you too." Bucky says. Steve comes in. "Is it okay if I take your son to school?" Steve asks looking nervous. Bucky grins. "Of course." Bucky says.
Bucky grabs Justin's back pack and helps put it onto his son's back. Justin kisses his mother's cheek. "I love you momma, take care of yourself." Justin says. Justin says those words everyday before he goes to school. "Of course. Have a good day at school." Bucky says sweetly. Justin smiles and grabs Steve's hand. "I take care of him." Steve says. Bucky's mouth twitches up. "Please don't let anything hurt my baby." Bucky squeaks out. Steve nods.