Chapter 19
Four positive pregnancy tests.... Sebastian finds it a little difficult to hold back the tears, before he's rushing over to the toilet to throw up.
He never wanted to get pregnant again just yet. He and Chris planned to have another when Sabrina's at least two, not when she's barely a year old. This wasn't supposed to happen.
Luckily though, he knows for certain that Chris will be happy to hear the news, but Sebastian isn't exactly feeling very joyful about it. Sure he wants to keep the baby, he can't really picture himself going to get an abortion, but he's still not very joyful about this. Not when he's gotten pregnant ahead of when he and Chris had intended.
Slowly getting up from the ground, he flushes the toilet, before cleaning himself up. He feels terrible right now, not as bad as he did earlier this morning, but it's close, and he just wants to go lay down.
Though, he's got to figure out how he's going to tell Chris that he's pregnant again. He doesn't want to disrupt him from his work. That will probably cause Chris to come straight back home, and even though Sebastian would love for Chris to be him with him right now, Chris has to work to make money for them.
Curling up on the bed, Sebastian wraps his arms round his stomach, and just stares at the wall. He's got a very bad feeling that this pregnancy may take it's toll on him, judging by this bout of nausea, and he certainly isn't looking forward to that, especially not when his past three pregnancies went by smoothly.
Though, he does very much hope that it's a boy this time round, and not another girl. Which isn't to say that he won't be happy with another girl because he would be very much happy about that, just with a little bit of disappointment.
He just really wants a boy this time, and so does Chris. They're out numbered by girls in this house (not counting the cats), and at least one boy would be perfect. If it is another girl though, that just adds onto the joke that they only seem to be able to make girls....
Sighing a little as his phone goes off, he grabs it to find Chris calling him on video chat, which causes him to sit up slowly. He most certainly wants to hear and see Chris, and how convenient that he calls right when he's not feeling too good.
"Hey, Chris." Sebastian says, as soon as he presses the answer button and Chris's face pops up onto the screen. "How's work?"
"Hey, Seb." Chris says. "Work is good. Fucking cold here right now though. Stupid rain.... I thought the weather is meant to be getting warmer?"
Sebastian laughs a little at that. "It's not bad here." He says, before frowning. "I miss you."
"I miss you too, Seb, and the girls." Chris says back, frowning.
"They miss you too." Sebastian says, before laying back down on the bed, propping his phone up against one of the pillows. "Laura is downstairs watching them for me."
As a cramp runs through him, he lets out a small distressed whimper at the pain, wrapping an arm round his stomach. He has no doubt that he'd probably be running to the bathroom to throw up again soon.
"Are you okay, Seb? You don't look too good." Chris asks, concern evident in his voice as he only just manages to hear his omega letting out a small whimper in distress.
Sebastian looks away at that. He knows that he should tell Chris about the pregnancy, but he doesn't want it to cause Chris to come home from work early, as much as he'd love for him to do so. Besides, he's going to tell Chris about it as soon as he returns home.
"I'm okay." He lies. "Just a little nauseas. Must've been something I ate."
"Sebastian...." Chris starts, sounding a little unsure about whether or not Sebastian is telling the truth. "Is there something that you're not telling me?"
He shakes his head at that. "I'm fine, Chris. I promise. If there was something wrong then I'd tell you, you know that." He assures him, though he notices that Chris still looks a little unsure.
"Well, if you say so then." He says, not quite sounding sure whether or not Sebastian is telling the truth. "Anyway, I thought I'd just call and see how you are."
Sebastian smiles at that. "I promise I'm fine, Chris." He says. "Just a little tired."
Well, it's not necessarily wrong, he is rather tired right now, and he is fine, just got bad morning sickness from the pregnancy, but other than that, he's absolutely fine. Especially now that Chris is on video chat right now. Though, Chris being here in person would be much nicer.
"If you want, I can call back later and you can get some rest?" Chris suggests.
Sebastian shakes his head at that. "No, please stay." He says. "For a little while longer at least."
He doesn't want Chris to go just yet, even though he may risk telling him about the pregnancy, but he just wants to hear his alpha's voice. Chris's voice definitely brings him comfort, especially in times where he's feeling like utter crap.
"Alright." Chris says. "What do you want to talk about?"
"Anything." Sebastian shrugs. "I really don't care, just as long as I get to hear your voice." He says.
Sebastian really doesn't care what they talk about, just as long as it has nothing to do with pregnancy, and how he's feeling right now. Anything other than those, he's good with right now.
He listens as Chris rambles on about work, and he doesn't care that he barely even understands what Chris is trying to explain to him. He does try to understand, but really, Sebastian knows little to nothing about Chris's line of work, so it's not that easy for him. He suspects that Chris is aware that he has no idea of what he's talking about, but it doesn't appear to bother him.
They loose track of time while they talk about their days apart, and Sebastian thankfully begins to feel a lot better. Chris always makes him feel better, and right now is no exception.
This time though, Chris doesn't know that Sebastian isn't feeling too good. Well, he knows that there's something wrong, but he's not sure what, and understands that whatever it is, Sebastian doesn't seem to want to share it just yet.
"Hey, I've gotta go meet up with Steve now." Chris says, apologetically. "I'll call you tomorrow if I can, alright?"
Sebastian can't help but feel a pang of disappointment at that, he'd very much like to keep talking, but he understands that Chris has to go meet with his boss. He's not about to stop him from doing so, as much as he'd prefer Chris to just stay and chat.
Besides, his phone is going flat, and he should probably go put it on charge.
"Alright." Sebastian nods, sitting up. "My phone's going flat anyway, and I should really go put it on charge." He says, just as his phone buzzes with a notification that it's going flat.
"You go do that." Chris smiles a little. "I'll talk to you later, bye!"
"Bye, I love you, and don't work too hard." Sebastian says.
Chris laughs a little at that. "I won't." He says. "Love you too!"
With that, he's hanging up, which causes Sebastian to sigh in disappointment, before he's getting up slowly to put his phone on charge.
Now that he doesn't have Chris to talk to, Sebastian is back to feeling like crap. Thankfully there's not the feeling of needing to throw up just yet though, but the nauseas feeling is still there, and will probably stay there for awhile yet.
He looks down at his stomach, pulling up his shirt as he places a hand on his abdomen. The soft pudginess causes him to frown a little. Somuchfortryingtogetbackinshape....
Luckily he's not showing just yet, so he can pass off as not being pregnant for awhile till he's ready to tell everyone, but he knows it won't be very long until he gets bigger. Then everyone will definitely be able to tell, and he can't just say that he's been eating too much.
"You weren't supposed to happen yet." He whispers, screwing his eyes shut. "But that's okay, because mommy and daddy will love you no matter what." He says, opening his eyes. "Just... promise me you'll be a boy?"
Even though baby number four wasn't planned just yet, it's not going to stop him from loving them, nor will it stop Chris from loving them. Sabrina wasn't planned, well she was but not exactly at the time she was conceived, and that hasn't stopped them from loving her.
Though, he feels stupid for thinking it, but he's afraid that baby number four will be another girl. This time, just this once, he wants a boy, but will still be happy with another girl.
He's not totally sure what the chances are on this baby being a boy, as with three girls already, he's not too sure if it's exactly a fifty-fifty chance. It probably is still a fifty-fifty chance, but personally he doesn't feel as though it is, for himself and Chris at least. He feels that for them it's more of a one in four chance.
Sighing, he pulls his shirt back down, before heading off downstairs to go get something to eat. He is feeling a little hungry right now, and he just hopes that he can keep whatever food that he chooses to eat down....
******
"You sure you don't mind coming back around tomorrow?" Sebastian asks, as he walks Laura to the door. "You don't have to if you don't want to."
He had asked Laura earlier if she minds coming back round tomorrow to help watch the girls if she's not busy. She had said that she doesn't mind coming back tomorrow, but Sebastian does feel bad for how often he'll more than likely be asking her to come round to watch the girls over the coming weeks and months. He doesn't want her to cancel any plans that she might have just to come round and watch the girls for him.
"I'm sure, Sebastian. I really don't mind." She says. "They're great girls. I love watching them for you and Chris." She assures him.
Sebastian nods. The girls love it when Laura is around to babysit them, and he's definitely glad about that, but he knows that Laura can't come round every single day to watch them. She does have another part time job at the bookstore in town, and she has friends that she needs to go hang out with. Sebastian can't ask her to stop doing that, just to watch the girls for him.
"I know, but I can't ask you to be around every day." He says. "I don't want you neglecting any other stuff in your life just to watch the girls for me."
She laughs a little at that. "You're beginning to sound like my mother, and you're only a couple years older than me." She teases. "But seriously, I really don't mind watching them for you." She says, as Sebastian walks her to her car. "I'll see you tomorrow, Seb."
Sebastian nods. "Alright." He says. "Drive safely!" He waves her off as she drives out of the driveway, and down the road back home.
Shivering a little, he heads on back inside the house. Despite the weather supposedly getting warmer, it still gets quite cold during the evening, and Sebastian is just glad that it's not snowing anymore. The snow is definitely not something that he wants to deal with at all right now.
Walking into the living room, he finds the girls watching My Little Pony right where he left them. Though, Sabrina appears to be almost falling asleep on the couch, so he's going to have to put hero bed soon, much like how Taissa and Emma need to head off to bed soon as it's nearing their bedtime soon. He just hopes that he can actually get them to go to bed.
"Girls, it's bedtime after this episode, alright?" He informs them.
"Okay." Taissa yawns, stretching out on the floor as she stares at the TV.
Emma also voices her agreement, yawning much like her older sister as she does so.
Well... he wasn't expecting it to be that easy, but he's not about to complain. They're cooperating, and that's exactly what he was hoping for. He doesn't feel well enough to deal with their protests of staying up late.
Sitting down on the couch next to Sabrina, he leans back on it, and closes his eyes. He thinks that he might as well go to sleep early too tonight, despite it only being nearly seven. With the way he's feeling right now, he doesn't feel as though he can stay up any later than this tonight.
All he wants to do is sleep, and hopefully he gets a good night's sleep. Unless one of the cats decide on waking him up during the middle of the night demanding more food. More than likely that'll be either Nala or Muffy.
Sooty doesn't come inside very often, as he's more of an outdoor cat, so Sebastian knows that he won't come running up and down the hallways meowing and demanding more food. That's what Nala does, almost every single night, while Muffy just makes his presence known by batting you in the face with his paw till you wake up and give him more food.
For now though, Sebastian is just going to sit and rest on the couch as he waits for the girls' show to finish, before he gets them to bed. Then finally, he can get into bed himself. Just hopefully he can get some sleep tonight....