Gods & Monsters

When I woke up the following morning Loki was gone. He'd never been gone all night before and it worried me. What the hell was he doing? Or more, who was he doing? I couldn't help but think that way even know I knew it was probably stupid. But how many men disappeared in the middle of the night that wasn't cheating. Was he? Did I not sate him last night? So many questions and theories ran through my mind, none of which made me feel any better. I decided to just stay in and wait on him-I really didn't feel like going out right now anyway. I showered and ate what little I could of some breakfast, and then mindlessly watched the TV.

A couple of hours later, Loki walked through the door. I vaguely remembered Loki getting dressed last night and what he was wearing today-wasn't it. 

"Oh, your up." He smiled, leaning in to kiss me but I looked away.

"Where were you?" I couldn't hide the anger in my tone, or the anger I was feeling. Why was he wearing different clothes?

"Out." Loki tensed up. "What is wrong with you?"

I snap my head towards him. "What is wrong with me? You were gone all damn night, and why are you wearing different clothes!" I wasn't sure when I stood up, or started yelling. 

"I changed. I was taking care of some business." Loki snapped. "What do you think I was out doing?"

"Your new fucking whore, that's what!" I shout, shaking with anger. "Why did you have to change? To get the stench of sex off your clothes? I'm not fucking stupid, Loki!" 

Loki chuckled a dark laugh. "You are out of your mind, do you know that?" 

"FUCK YOU!" 

Loki clenched his fists and sighed heavily. "If you would allow me to explain-"

"Explain what? That you cheated on me!"

"I did NO such thing! Where are you getting this from?" Loki actually sounded hurt. "I couldn't very well walk around with blood all over my clothing, now could I? You wanted to stay here for a while, so I changed attire to remain unnoticed." he growled. "This may be Amsterdam, but I'm fairly certain walking the streets covered in blood would raise some suspicions."

Did he just say....blood? 
My face dropped. "Why would there be blood on your clothes?"

"It happens when you disassemble a body." he answered casually, approaching me slowly. "I may have...acted on impulse."

"What did you do?" I ask, barely over a whisper. 

"I was teaching those who touch my things a lesson." He replied darkly. "He will not be missed. I checked."

"The guy from last night, you killed him?" Loki killed him-for me?

"It wasn't the plan at first, but....accidents happen." 

I sat there with my mouth gaped open. I couldn't believe it. Loki killed that sleazebag for me? I could tell Loki had no idea what I was thinking at that moment. He looked tense, worried, and I could tell he was fidgeting with his fingers even though they were now cupped behind his back.

"You...you killed for me?" 

"I...I just-" 

Before Loki could get another word out I jumped him, kissing him with such passion and desire that I didn't even know where it all came from. I wasn't even sure why, or how I was even okay with this. Most girlfriends wouldn't be okay that their boyfriend went out and pretty much murdered some guy, but I never said I was sane. This is when I actually realized just how screwed up I really was. But who was normal really? What was considered normal these days? 

I never was one to go with the crowd.

After Loki and I finally left our hotel room after a few hours of hot, passionate sex we headed to a coffee shop where I indulged in more space cake. Loki seemed amused by how excited I was that I could eat/drink/smoke all the weed I wanted without anyone taking me to jail. 

"I love Amsterdam." I take a drag of my joint and hand it to Loki. "I don't ever want to leave."

Loki chuckled, taking a hit. He spoke as he exhaled, the smoke still coming out of his mouth. "We don't have to leave, pet. We can stay here. Thor can't find us. I made sure of that." He took another drag and handed it back to me. "Heimdall, I'm sure is having a fit."

"Do you know how creepy it is knowing you're being watched all the time?" I laugh. "Oh god...does he watch you masturbating or anything creepy like that?"

Loki's face dropped and turned sour. "Gods, I hope not." he shuddered. "Why, why would you put that in my head!" I could tell he wanted to be angry, but it wasn't happening. The weed was too good. We ended up laughing uncontrollably at the thought of Heimdall watching things he really shouldn't be seeing.

"Surely, he isn't a pervert." 

"How well do you really know Heimdall, are you sure about that?" I snort.

"STOP!" Loki laughed. "Please, I don't want to see....think about this anymore."

"Don't worry. I'm sure he watches other people tug their noodle too, besides you."

This really made Loki lose it. Damn, I really needed to take some of this shit back to the hotel with us. 

"Wow, you're high." 

"Yes, I believe so." he snorted. "I need more. Gimme." I hand what was left of the joint back to him and he finished it off. "We should get more."

"Agreed. What should we do now?"

"Something fun." He shrugged. "Museum?"

"Only you would think that would be fun." I snort out a laugh. "But sure, let's go look at things."

 "Thor, it's been a month, are you sure they are even still on Earth?" Tony took another drink. He was already notorious for drinking, but since Lily had been taken he found himself staring at the bottom of a bottle more often. "Do you think she's even still alive?"

"Tony, you mustn't do this to yourself." Thor frowned. "I don't know why Loki has been so quiet. I tracked them all the way to Australia before they vanished. I even went to Heimdall and he cannot find them either." Where the hell was Loki? "The girl was still alive the one time I did see them, but that was in Japan-two months ago."

"Did she seem okay?"

"She was alive, as for her current state I couldn't be sure. I only saw Loki grab her before he teleported away." Thor wasn't so sure if Lily had really been kidnapped at all. She had smiled at him before they vanished, but Thor wasn't going to tell Tony that.

There was a chance he could be wrong. 

Tony sighed, rubbing his temple. "It's my fault he took her. If I would have just kept my fucking mouth shut..." He took another drink. "But no, I had to taunt the fucking Devil. He only took her because he knows I love her. He doesn't care about her..." 

"Whatever motives Loki has...or had...I'm not so sure they are the same motives."

"How so?"

"He was pretty adamant about taunting me, having me chase him around and leaving a mess for me to clean up in every city." Gods, that was fucking annoying. "But since he's gone quiet, it leads me to believe Loki is changing tactics."

"Which is?"

"I do not know. But he's up to something, I just know it. Loki cannot stay quiet for long. He'll come out of hiding before too long."

"Yeah, and by then it'll probably be too late." Tony realized. "If he's changing his plan, it must involve her."

What was Loki doing to Lily, and what the hell did he want with her?