Talk To Him
Wade walked Peter home after their house party. Things had gone quiet for a while after their kiss but Wade had brought the conversation back. They ended up talking and drinking longer then they'd both anticipated. Deadpool demanded they walked back together when he noticed how the younger swayed where he stood. He gave the college student props. Sure Wade had been the one to drink most of the beer but Peter managed to keep sober enough. They stood closer now. Hands sometimes awkwardly touching, unsure if they should clasp together. They kept giving each other glances. Giddy chuckles shared between them.
"Is this it this time? No more meet ups," Peter asked a small pout on his lips that drove Wade insane.
"We should," the merc murmured looking around the crowded street wondering if there was anyone watching them now.
"We're really bad at keeping space," Peter laughed. "Isn't this like the third time we've said this?"
Wade laughed too, "maybe we can meet up sometimes? I'll send you an address and time. We'll have to sneak around and be extra cautious. I won't be able to wear my mask..."
Peter's eyes were shimmering, wide with glee as he listened to him. "We can eat lunch together again?" Wade nodded timidly. "I can sneak around," the student said bouncing on the balls of his feet.
Wade grew serious, staring down at those doe eyes. "Okay. But we have to keep it a secret. Just in case they find me."
"I can do that," he smirked taking one scarred hand into his. "Anything so we can hang out again."
Wade's stomach flipped. He was still so scared that at any moment Peter would admit his face was just too disturbing. "Are you sure?" The student nodded smiling up him. "Okay."
Peter grinned lifting up his pinky. Deadpool chuckled locking his own with the smaller man. "I can walk home from here. It's just a few more blocks."
"You sure?"
"As positive as a proton."
Wade snorted, "I can't believe you just said that, you giant nerd."
Peter laughed, looking down at their still locked fingers. "I'll see you around."
The merc smiled down at him, "yeah."
They separated hands. "Take care of yourself."
"You too." They both stepped apart but neither of them made a move to leave. Wade was unsure of what to do. Hug? Kiss? Shake hands? It's been too long since he got involved with this kind of stuff! He had no idea what to do. Thankfully Peter did.
He rose up to his toes to plant a warm kiss on Wade's cheek. "Text me," he said before walking down the sidewalk disappearing into the crowd of people. The merc was standing there for a solid minute before a grin split his face. He seemed to float back to the safe house. He got a text from Peter saying he'd made it home safely. When Wade got home he fell back into the couch. A grin still on his face. It was chased away only minutes later with more nightmares.
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Wade was staring down the dark alley not really staring at anything. He was zoned out. He'd been standing there for a while now. People moved around him, keeping their eyes off the mask, armed man. The cool had begun to seep through his suit. Snow had fallen making the roads and sidewalks icy. He wanted to go home. To his apartment, where there was at least some kind of heating. SHIELD agents had been posted there, waiting for Weapon X and whoever stopped them.
Wade now had three different groups after him. All of them seated around the building looking out for him. It was problematic. He wore civilian clothing over his suit and tried to avoid main streets. It was getting hard to patrol when there was someone waiting at every corner. He wondered how long he could go until he was caught.
"Deadpool."
Wade turned to whoever called him. Startled to find Spiderman, clad in a scarf and heavy boots with a red beanie on his head. The merc cheered throwing his arms around the smaller man. He stumbled a bit but managed to hold onto him, patting Wade's back gently. "I'm so glad you're back," Deadpool sighed.
"Sorry I was gone so long," the hero chuckled. "How have things been?"
"Fucking horrible," Wade pulled away. "I've got half the city after me."
Spiderman put his hands on his hips, "What'd you do now?"
"Hey I've been on my best behavior!" The hero chuckled gesturing for them to walk. "It's the cops and SHIELD and Weapon X," he listed counting of on his fingers. "It's been a messy couple of weeks."
"Still haven't got any new leads?"
"I have a name but I don't know how good it is. I haven't found anything on him yet," he sighed. "What about you? How was the mission?"
"Pretty tame," Spiderman shrugged. "I was babied most of the time."
"So are you gonna be a big time Avenger now?"
"And leave you out here on the streets all alone," the hero sassed. "I don't think so." Wade swallowed down a squeal. It was exactly what Wade needed to hear. All the bitterness he felt for the last few weeks was erased with just those few words.
"Spiderman and Deadpool," Wade said lifting up his fist.
"Deadpool and Spiderman," Spiderman said bumping his fist to Wade's. They began their patrol with a robbery. Or stopping one. It carried on through most of the night. The hero had to move them around frequently due to the police who seemed abundant in the streets. He gave a few muttered curses asking where they were earlier, sure they couldn't be around to stop crime but they could post around to keep an eye out for Deadpool.
It went on for hours. It was nearly three in the morning when they decided to call it a night. They stopped by a small shop to get some churros and hot chocolate. Deciding to stay huddled in the corner to try and warm up. "How've you been Deadpool? Outside of work," Spiderman asked taking a sip from the wax paper cup.
Deadpool became uncharacteristically bashful looking down at his cup. "Nothing I didn't already tell you," he mumbled.
"Oh?"
The merc twisted the cup in circles where it was on the table. "I met someone."
"Someone new?"
"No, I told you about him. He's a college student at NYU. He's super smart, like crazy smart. But he's humble about it. He's kind and funny and cute," Wade murmured stopping the twirling of the cup. "He doesn't care about my face." Spiderman swallowed looking down at his own cup. "I...I really like him Spidey. And I really don't want to hurt him." Deadpool sighed reaching up to hold onto his head. He was now regretting the promise to meet up with him again. It would pose so much danger for the civilian. "He can't be with me. He'd never be safe. If it's not Hydra or Weapon X it's SHIELD. It's another mercenary. It's one of my enemies. I...I could never be good enough for him."
"Do you want to be with him?"
Wade looked up at the hero who seemed serious now. "Yes."
"If there's anything I know about you Deadpool it's that you know how to make things work. It might be messy and things won't always end up the way you wanted but if you really like him, and he really likes you, then things will be okay."
"I used to think that too," Wade murmured.
"Have some faith. You can't just end things before even starting them."
"He wouldn't be the first. I've...people have died because of me. They've been experimented on, changed. Because they got involved with me. I couldn't do that to Peter." Wade was sending himself into a downward spiral. The longer he went without seeing Peter the more time he had to think. That was a bad thing for the mercenary.
Spiderman let out a deep sigh picking up the churro. "Have you asked him how he felt about it?"
"I don't need to. No one would want that much trouble." And now he was depressed. He knew he shouldn't have let it drag on as long as he had. He knew it would be harder for him to break things off with Peter.
"Did you ask him," the hero asked again around a bite.
"No."
"Then how would you know what he wanted?" Wade stared at him while he dipped the churro in the hot chocolate. "Talk to him Deadpool."
Wade nibbled at his scarred lips. "What if he says he doesn't want to?"
"Then it wasn't meant to be."
Deadpool rubbed at his face, "I'm scared Spidey. I can take rejection but I...I don't want him to leave." He tried to be careful but before he knew it he was attached to the student. Those doe eyes boring their way into his heart.
Spiderman set his food aside and reached over the small table to rest a hand on Wade's forearm. "Then don't push him away." The merc looked up at him, "you only live once right?"
"You did not just YOLO me." Spiderman laughed pulling his hand away. Wade let the words sink in. While he still didn't fully believe them he knew the hero was right. He had to at least ask Peter how he felt. With a deep breath he straighten up determined to get back to his usual up beat mood. "Hey, how do you feel about doing a meet-and-greet with an awesome family I know?"