Chapter 6
"Sam lost the element of surprise, and he doesn't want to take you on outnumbered, so he's not gonna come out at you head on. He's got the place surrounded and he'll wait for his opportunity. " Brock says to some of the family members. They all agreed that Bucky shouldn't learn of this. He is after all depressed enough. "He won't get through without a fight." Thor says. Brock nods agreeing with the big tall blonde. "No fights. We won't be the ones breaking the treaty." Joseph says. "The treaty is nothing in Sam's mind." Brock says. "Not in ours." Sarah says.
"Joseph, no one hunted in weaks." Thor says reminding Joseph. "We will make do." Sarah says for the sake of Bucky. "You done us a great service Brock thank you." Joseph says. Brock sits down. "How is Buck?" Brock asks. Sarah sighs. "He is having a hard time. With everyone always fighting in front of him and Steve refusing to look at him, he is not doing good." Sarah says. "Shouldn't someone hit Steve on the back of the head and tell him to wise up?" Brock asks. The others chuckle. "Well." Joseph says and stands up. "I need to do a check up on Bucky anyway." He says and leaves the room.
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I sigh and wait for Joseph to finish up. I was honestly surprised that Steve decided to be there as well. I had to hide the spike of pain in my heart from Steve still refusing to look at me. I don't know why he as to put me through this. Why doesn't he want the child? Seems like I am the only one that wants it. Maybe after I give birth, I can run. Take my baby with me and get out of there. I refuse to let the child grow up with a family that never wanted it. That will put me and my kid through depression.
"Your rib is cracked. But there are no splinters, haven't punctured anything." Joseph says. "Yet." Steve mutters. "Steve!" I snap causing him to shut up. "Steve don't." Joseph says. "Dad it's killing him. Bucky, it's crushing you from the inside out. Dad tell him what you told me." Steve snaps. I rolled my eyes but bit my tounge. Joseph sighs and gave me a apologetic look. "Just tell me." I say quietly and look down. "It's too strong. It won't allow you to have the proper nutritions you need, it's starving you by the hour. I can't stop it and I'm sorry but at this rate your heart will give out before you deliver." Joseph says.
"Then I will hold on as long as I can." I say firmly. Joseph sighs and smiles. He walks out and I look down. "I can't lose you." Steve says. You already have. I was tempted to say that but I hold back. "I'm sorry. But it will need you, it was a part of me." I say. Steve laughs bitterly ad shakes his head. "Do you honestly think that I love that thing in you if it kills you." Steve snarls. "I don't see it that way." I say with my voice cracking. "Bucky we are supposed to be partners, remember? But you decide this on your own. You decide to leave me." Steve says. My anger finally took over. "Fuck you Steve. You pushed me away. You refuse to look at me or even touch me. When you say that you can't lose me, well you pratically lost me already. If you truly loved me then you would be loving this baby like me. Or spending as much time as possible with me." I snap. Steve stays silent.
After a few seconds past tears fell. "That's what I thought. Get out." I say and cover my mouth wth my hand to stiffle my sob and look away. I hear his footsteps walk out and the door close. I cried so hard for at least an hour before Jane came in. How dare him? To talk about how he can't lose me when I haven't heard him say I love you in a month. No touch, no kiss, not even a look in the eye. I sniffle and I feel her place her hand onto my shoulder. "Come on, let's get you washed up." She whispers and I nod. I walk with her into the bathroom and I take my clothes off and grab the robe and put it on.
When the tub was full I stand up and look in the mirror. I lower my robe a little bit to see my cheeks hallow and my shoulder blades sticking out. I look up to see Steve and Jane closes the door. She helps me in the tub and washes my hair softly and gently. I close my eyes and lean into her touch. "You became touch starved." Jane observes. I stay silent and she lowers her other hand to keep it on my neck the whole time. I sigh feeling a whole lot better now. "I'm sorry this is happening to you." She whispers. I shake my head and touch my stomach. "I bet he or she will be beautiful." Jane says. I smile at her. "Thank you." I say softly. She stops. "For what?" She asks. "For staying by my side. Helping me through this whole situation." I say. She smiles and stands up and grabs a towel. "I'm sorry for being rude to you this whole time." She says. "It's okay." I say and she wraps the towel around my body.
She helps me to the couh and I shiver but ignore everyone. "Are you cold?" Steve asks. I look at him with wide eyes. I was shocked, he actually talked to me. "Yeah." I say roughly filled by so many emotions. "I got it." Brock says and moves over and tuches my leg. I instantly felt warm. "Thank you." I say. Brock nods and smiles. "Do we know yet?" He asks. I shake my head while everyone else looked at us confused. "It decided to be a surprised." I say. She nods. I squeeze my eyes shut. Steve grabs the trash can.
I gasp and breath heavily but nothing comes up. "We need to find a way to get food into your system." Joseph says. Steve all of a sudden looks at Brock. "You may have a point. Brock came up wuth a idea." Steve says. "Well it wasn't a idea, it was more of a snide comment. I said it might be hungry." Brock says. I smile and look down at my swollen stomach. "It's hungry." I say. Joseph gets up and walks into the kitchen. "Hold up." Steve says and walks into the kitchen with Joseph.
Steve walks up and hands me a strofoam cup with a straw. "Just so you can take it easier." Steve says. I smile and take it. "I think I'm going to be sick." Brock says and moves to the other side of the couch making me cold and miss the warmth instantly. I take a deep breah and take a sip. The taste was well, different then I expected. It was actaully pretty good. Werid, I thought it was going to taste disgusting and the worst thing I ever tasted in my whole life. The others look waiting for my comment. "It tastes good." I say and they were relieved I could tell.
I take a extra, longer sip. I close my eyes and I feel so, so much better. Joseph puts his fingers on my wrist looking for the pulse. "Your pulse is already getting stronger." Joseph says and everyone was smiling. Steve looked so sad. Everyone noticed and left the room so it was only us two. Steve sits down beside me. "Bucky, I am so, so sorry. I didn't realize I was hurting you until you snapped at me. I felt so gulity ever since." He says and tears fell down his face. I frown and cup his cheek. "Hey it's okay. You were scared. You thought I was going to die." I say. Steve shakes his head and holds me close to him.
"No you don't understand Buck. We go married and I was supposed to fully support you on your decision but instead I completely rejected you. I failed you. You have no idea how sorry I am, I do really love you." Steve says. I was on the verge of tears thanks to fucking pregnancy hormones but I felt happy. "You are here now. That is what matters and I love you too Stevie." I say. "Thats a new nickname. Only you can call me that." Steve says making me giggle. "Yoy are the best thing that ever happento me and now that we have a chance with the baby. Oh god I am so sorry for calling it a thing." He says. "Hey, you were scared. You didn't know if it even was a baby." I say making him smile and chuckle. "I promise you that from now on I will be right by your side." Steve says and touches my cheek that I instantly nuzzle into.
"Touch-starved. I'm sorry." He whispers. "It's fine." I whisper and pull him into a kiss. God I miss kissing him. "I love you." He says rather pathetically and I smile at him. "I love you too." I whisper and he kisses me again.