Feelings
Alex walked to the back of the cafe and climbed up the stairs to the second floor and found the door with the number 5 on it, his friend trailing behind him like a lost puppy as usual.
Alex opened the door and walked in as if he owned the place and sat on the table where the sunlight shined through the window, the light shining on him made him glow. He quite liked the scenery in this room as it was comforting when the sun sometimes acted like a companion to him whenever he comes here by himself.
His friend who was trailing behind him sat in front of him and smiled brightly. Alex groaned at how bright his smile was in the morning, he found it endearing sometimes but right now he hated how bright it was.
It's too early for this shit and he just wants to go home and sleep. Alex sat up straighter and pulled out some papers from his bag and put it in the middle of the table, where they both can see it.
"I will go straight to business as I'm tired and just want to sleep. I already have permission to show you the details of the mission as long as it benefits us to finish the mission and you might find this one interesting."
Alex resisted the urge to smirk knowing that the puppy like boy hates his family. Maybe minus his little brother, Damian and older brother.
He remembers how his friend, Felix, bragged about how smart his little brother is and how proud he is of him. It wasn't much but Alex liked listening to Felix ranting, even though it was for hours and not even about his (Alex) own siblings.
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New Character Unlocked!!
INTRODUCTION!
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(Imagine him shorter/younger)
Name : Felix Desmond
Age : 9
Mother : Alivr
Father : Alive
Occupation : Spy
Code Name : ???
More Information : Felix realized at a young age that his father never and ever cared about them as he considers them as strangers. Felix did his best as a brother and he became a spy when he was 7-8 when he met Alex. Dyed his hair as he hates looking like his father. Had a crush(???) on Alex the moment he met him.
The man now known as Felix quickly switched moods from happy-go lucky persona to a serious and moody person. He took the papers and looked over them quickly but attentively.
The goal of the mission is to maintain peaceful relations between Westalis and Ostania. Over ten years after the end of the war, a Westalian diplomat is killed alongside his driver in a car accident in Ostania.
This incident awakened a new conflict between the two countries, and Westalian Intelligence believed Donovan Desmond and his party were the main suspects and were attempting to instigate a war.
To prevent this, they created Operation Strix. At the moment, Demetrius and Felix are the only Desmond who has not been designated as a target by either Twilight or WISE since Felix is Alex partner in crime sometimes.
Alex can roughly guess that some of the plans will involve getting closer to the Desmond family which means using Anya to get closer with the youngest son, Damian.
Alex knows that Anya will fuck everything up since she will probably consider this mission as a play thing. If things go to south and Anya is unable to do her parts (Since she can read mind), he will have Felix as a back up with another back up that he will form later on in the future with his mother.
He plans on making an alliance with a certain organization to help them with the mission and he will need his mother for this. Since they both have the same goal, he is sure that it will work if they (organization) want to succeed as well.
Alex really thought ahead on in many steps as he thinks that having a lot of allies is both good and beneficial. After he finished reading, Felix looked up from the papers and smirked at Alex, finally finding a good opportunity to get rid of his father completely since he was trash anyway. Considering his own children as strangers and only has his eyes on his oldest son, Demetrius.
"This one is indeed an interesting one. I'm definitely in as long as we're getting rid of Donovan Desmond." An evil smile that betrays all innocence that was present few minutes ago.
This guy really was a two faced bastard who wouldn't give a fuck about shitty people. Alex chuckled and ate a chocolate snack that he kept in his pockets and decided that it was time to leave.
He was about to stand up when Felix put his hand on top of Alex hand that was on the table, unoccupied making him freeze at the small action.
Alex was fully aware of the younger ones feelings towards him but he choose to ignore them. He tried multiple times to tell Felix that he has his eyes on someone else however, he couldn't get the chance.
They were always interrupted by someone or something making him unable to say it all this time so he just decided to give up.
Felix hand were both soft and rough, it was cold making Alex shiver at the coldness of it. Alex thoughts ran wild, thousands of them on how to get out of this situation, which he deemed as awkward.
He couldn't do anything about the younger ones feelings as he knows no matter what he says, he will not give up on him which Alex sometimes thought of it as troublesome.
Felix can't help it as Alex was the third person to ever show him affection in his whole life. His mom and older brother may have but it's different when it's not your family.
He felt warm and happy for the first time when Alex saved him when he was 7-8 years old. His father, who couldn't give two fucks about him, didn't do or react much when he found out that his son was almost kidnapped.
It was at that time Felix wanted to get rid of his father that he hates to the core. He was suppose to love him and care about him, Felix is his son but seems that it doesn't matter.
Felix did everything in his power and begged Alex to train him as a spy, mainly to stay close to Alex and hang out with him. It took Felix about 2 months till Alex agreed, seeing as he doesn't want to deal with children nor train them.
He had more important things to deal with than deal with a child who was starved for love and affection. Alex didn't have time for that thus why it took Felix about 2-3 months for him to agree.
Back to present, Felix seemed like he didn't wanna back out and looked Alex dead serious in the eye. Felix doesn't know whether Alex knows about his feelings or not, and frankly doesn't care as the only important thing right now is that he wants Alex all to himself.
He hated seeing other people talking to him, especially when Alex looks like his having fun. It's that trait of possessiveness that made Felix chances go down.
Alex hates when people who have feelings for him be possessive of him when they aren't even dating/together and what right do they have to tell him that he can't talk to people just because they are jealous.
Alex decided that he will Felix about his thoughts but right now he's to tired to deal with this shit. Alex tried to pull his hand back, which he was unsuccessful.
He groaned in frustration. "Felix. Let go of my hand this instant" Alex demanded him while glaring at him, telling him not to cross the line.
Felix clenched his jaw, not wanting to let go. "Why..?" Alex heard him mumble, and just pretended that he didn't hear it. "What why? Speak louder so I can hear you" Felix suddenly stood up, with Alex still in his hold and hugged him tightly, almost making him suffocate.
"Why won't you give me a chance!? Am I not good enough!? Just what in the world do I lack!?" Felix feelings kept pouring out as he cried.
Why won't Alex allow him to at least have a piece of him? He has no idea what he's lacking. He can't take it anymore. He has been so obvious for about two years and Alex still hasn't acknowledged his feelings for him making Felix frustrated and hurt.
It would've been better if Alex had rejected him or at least creating a clear line that he wasn't interested in him from the beginning but what he didn't know is he just didn't wanna give up and pressured Alex.
He can't help it. He loved Alex so much that he will do anything for him but maybe after this, Alex wouldn't even wanna see his face. Felix ignored Alex protest of letting him go.
"I won't let you go until I get my answer!" Felix yelled as he is sure his voice reached outside the door. That's how loud his voice was.
"Felix, I've had enough! I've been clear about my boundaries, but you keep pushing. I can't be with someone who doesn't respect my feelings and let alone not allow me to talk to other people. It's time for us to to put a clear and straight line. I hope you can understand and respect that."
Alex yelled at him slightly and made sure his thoughts were delivered clearly. Alex put boundaries the moment he accepted to train Felix but he clearly didn't listen and caught feelings to which he thought was love.
Alex doesn't know whether what Felix is feeling is really love or he is someone that is love starved for love and affection. But there is one thing that he clearly knows. He doesn't love Felix that way, he never did.
It might've been his fault for not making it even more obvious and clearer however, this is where the final line is drawn.
Alex answer made Felix pause, making him finally loosen the hug and Alex immediately retracted away. "Let's hope the next time we meet, this doesn't happen again"
Alex wanted to end this in more calm and collected way but Felix didn't allow him that. It made Alex lose his temper and the fact that Alex knew he was harsh with his answer, Felix needed to hear that.
"Goodbye then" Alex bid him farewell and left the room immediately after making sure that he has all of his things. Leaving a heartbroken Felix behind and quickly left the cafe after saying his goodbye to his beloved disciple.
Feelings are complicated. Alex's heart was filled with frustration and exhaustion. Alex couldn't deny feeling a mix of guilt and uncertainty, unsure if the way he handled the situation was the right way. Nevertheless, Alex knew deep down that his feelings didn't extend beyond friendship, and it was time to firmly draw the line.