Buck Buck?
My eyes flicker open, and I immediately shut them again, a groan echoing in my throat. I shift my body and I wince when I feel a tube going up my nose and down my throat.
“Ugh shit” I grunt, and I hear a door open and quick footsteps walking towards me.
“Buck?”
“Stevie?”
I open my eyes and I see an overjoyed Steve standing next to my bed, his hands running nervously through his blond air as he looks down at me.
“Stevie, where am I?” I grunt, leaning back against the soft pillows as I gingerly test all my limbs by tensing them and attempting to gently move them as I wait for Steve to speak.
“Buck, you’re in a medical room”
My mouth falls open as I look around the room for the first time since I woke up, looking at the white walls that surrounded me, and then my gaze falls to a large block of ice that was sitting on a bedside table near me, and in it was a perfectly preserved red rose. The ice suddenly brought back memories, of Y/n straddling me with a smile on her face before her eyes grew large with horror as her ice powers blew up, blowing her off the bed, and then everything after that was black.
“Steve, where’s Y/n?” My eyes narrow at Steve as he avoids my gaze.
“Steve” I say warningly, and he coughs.
“Buck, she left and is holed up in a containment unit in SHEILD” Steve admits, and I sigh, gingerly rubbing my face with my hand.
“ I thought so” When Steve looks at me questioningly, I wave my hands wildly. “That’s what she was planning this morning, she was going to hold a meeting to tell everyone that she was leaving, and then her powers got out of control, and everything after that is a blank” I frown when Steve looks at me with a strange look on his face.
“Why are you looking at me like that”
“You’ve been unconscious for a month”
My mouth drops, looking at Steve unbelievingly as I shake his head.
“No, that’s not – how?”
“Um, she injured you when her powers got out of control” I roll my eyes as I gesture for Steve to continue. “ It left you unconscious with three large icicles embedded in your body, your body was practically frozen too”
As I try to register this information, I focus on my body and I realise that there were three cold spots embedded deep in my skin, one in my stomach, one in my chest and another in the upper area of my flesh arm.
“Well, being frozen is nothing new” Steve smiles grimly at my joke, then his head whips around towards the door.
“I can get Bruce for you if you want. I mean, the rest of the team all know your awake now”
“Um, sure Stevie” I shrug, and he nods before he turns on the spot and quickly walks out of the room. Sighing, I look back at the ice block with the rose in it, and I gaze at it for a moment before my eyes flicker down to my phone. I stare at it for a moment before I tenderly reach out my hand and I grab my phone, holding it in my hands.
“She’s sent you a video every day since she left” Tony’s voice breaks the silence, and I look up to see Tony leaning against the doorframe, staring sadly at the phone in my hands.
“She promised” I whispered before I turn on the phone and I see Y/n’s face beaming up at me. She had insisted that we take a selfie and I couldn’t help but love it, so I kept it as my lock screen. In the picture, her eyes were bright as her plump lips pulled back into a cheesy grin, her hand running through her hair.
“Frosty, tell me what my daughter was planning when she called that meeting that morning” Tony’s voice cracked as he rolled his neck, walking forward and spinning a chair around so he when he sat done his chest was pressed against the back of the chair.
“When she left with Coulson to talk in private, I heard what she was talking about, her rules I suppose. And when I heard that she wanted 24 hours to say goodbye, I got so sad, and so angry, but I understood why she was running. I did the same thing with Steve. I ran because I didn’t want to hurt him or anyone” I admit to Tony.
“I know her rules. She recorded a video for the team and sent it to us after she left. You know, even though she has uncontrollable blasts of powers, she had incredible control. You know, she pinned me and Cap to the wall when she left so we couldn’t stop her” I can’t help but smirk at Tony’s expression which was a mix of pride and bitterness.
“Anyway, I’ll leave you to watch the videos, no one else could access them” Tony shakes his head. “ hard headed git” he mutters to himself as he turns arounds and walks away, letting the door close behind him.
I shake my head, a small smile on my face as I open my phone and I look at the list of videos that Y/n had sent me, and I tap the first one.
*start of video 1*
“Bucky, I’m so sorry” Y/n sobs as she records herself, the frame shaking, making it evident that she was jogging. Tears were streaming down her face as she gasps for air.
“I don’t know when you’ll see this, or if you’ll ever see this” she bites back a sob. “I didn’t mean to Bucky, I didn’t mean to hurt you, God I never wanted to hurt you”
“I can’t face the rest of the team Buck. So I’m getting Coulson to pick me up earlier than planned. I’m sorry that I’m leaving you, and according to my rules I won’t be able to check on you in person.” Y/n’s face completely moves out of frame and her leather notebook is waved into frame, a stuttering nervous laugh accompanying the gesture.
“But I have my book, Buck. I’ll have you with me, and with the rose I left you, I will always be with you”
*End of video 1*
I choke back a sob as the video ends, my left hand clenched in the bedsheets by my side.
“Oh Doll, you never have to be sorry, never with me” I whisper as I press for the second video to start.
*start of video 2*
“Hey Buck, it’s me” Y/n states, her pale, tear streaked face in frame.
“I – um, I made it to SHIELD” she chuckles a humourless laugh, her hand rubbing over her face.
“I managed to sneak away from the tower and Coulson picked me up. You know, if you ever meet him, know that he is extremely bad at small talk, and eternally worshipful of Steve, like man, he wouldn’t stop yammering about him or asking me what hair conditioner he uses”
>I can’t help but laugh at the way that she was describing this Coulson fella<
Y/n looks up into the camera, her eyes roving over the screen.
“I’m currently in some stupid holding cell while Coulson checks something or other. Some medical officer wanted to take some of my blood but I said ‘hell no’ to that one. They tried to convince me, then they started to argue and stopped short of threatening me. I’m pretty sure that they stopped when they saw my eyes flash” Y/n laughs, a genuine smile gracing her beautiful lips.
“I love you Bucky, don’t forget that”
*end of video 2*
“I love you too sweetheart, I love you too” I breathe out, wiping away the tears from my cheek, and I hesitate before I tap the third video.
*start of video 3*
“Hey Buck Buck. Hehe, I’ve decided to call you that now” Y/n giggles to herself as she rubs her neck.
“Well, Coulson finally got me to my new home! It’s a bit like Bruce’s containment unit, but it’s a lot bigger” Y/n turns the camera room to reveal an open plan white room that was remarkably empty, which had a section that was obviously a workout space with a punching bag and a set of weights. Another section was the kitchen, with a large fridge, a walk-in pantry and a kitchen counter. The rest of the space was empty, with one chair and a small bookshelf. And along the far wall was a floor to ceiling one way mirror window, so people on the outside could see in, but anyone on the inside couldn’t see out.
“Now, before you say anything, I asked for it to be like this. Not so many distractions, the simple life you could say” the camera turns around again and Y/n’s face comes into view, a small smirk on her face as she looks into the camera.
“I love you Buck Buck. I hope you’re okay. I’m sorry”
*end of video 3*
“Buck Buck? That’s a new one” Natasha’s voice is gently teasing as she strolls into the room, her smile gentle as she stops by my side. I sigh, running my hand through my hair and I tug it gently, thinking as I stare at my phone and the 26 other videos that were left.
“It’s good to see you awake, you know. We didn’t know how long you would be under” Natasha admits, her eyes focused on my face.
“But, when you’re ready, call out and we can get Bruce, to get you unhooked” Nat reminds me as she turns away and walks away from me and out the door.
*start of video 4*
“Hey Buck Buck, it’s only been four days and I think U have made some progress I’m not entirely sure” Y/n’s greeting is recorded as she sets the phone on a table and props it up so the bare space in the living room is in the frame, and she steps back so her whole body is in frame.
She takes a deep breath, then closes her eyes as she stands up straight.
“You almost killed Bucky, you could have killed the rest of the team, you – you have no control of the powers that HYDRA forced onto you” Y/n mutters quietly to herself, and she whimpers before her eyes fly open, her pupils neon blue and blue veins writhing underneath her eyes. She lets out a scream as ice blasts out of her skin in a ice bomb, narrowly missing the phone with a sharp icicle. She falls to her knees, loud gasps falling out of her mouth.
“Shit. Damn that hurts” She murmurs before she looks up and straight into the camera, a shy smile on her face.
“I don’t got this” She laughs as she stands up and brushes herself off, then walks towards the phone and picks it up.
“Love you Buck Buck. I hope you’re okay”
*end of video 4*
I bite my lip as I turn off the phone and I set it back on the bedside table next to the rose ice block, and I start to slide the needles out of my body, wincing slightly at the tight pressure in my skin.
“Whoa, hey hey, slow down there!” Bruce shouts as he rushes in and grabs my hand and stops me from pulling out the needles.
“Bruce, I want to see her” I say angrily, but Steve rushes in and places his hands on my shoulders, pinning me down to the bed.
“Buck, calm down. You’ve been in a coma for a month, and you are still weak even with the super serum in your system” Steve says firmly in his Captain America voice, and I scowl as I let him push me back down onto the bed.
“God damn it Steve, get me out of this” I snark as I looks at the wires and needles, and I poke at the tube going up my nose. Steve sighs and turns to Bruce.
“Bruce? What do you think?”
Bruce looks over the heart monitor and the computer screen that was on the wall next to my bed.
“Well, his heartbeat is steady, all organs are full functioning, you are physically fine but you may be a bit weak from no physical exercise and only having liquid nutrients pumped into your digestive system, but you should be fine in a couple of hours” I snort at Bruce’s words and I tiredly gesture at Bruce for him to unhook me from the machines. Gently, he slides the needles out of my skin and peels off the adhesive tape that attaches the wires to my bare chest
“Alright, this may be a little bit unpleasant” Bruce warns me as he gently pulls the tube out of my nose, and I grunt as I feel it slide up the back of my throat and out my nose.
“Oh God” I grunt as I rub at my nose, glaring at Bruce who chuckles but backs away from me with his hands up.
“Wait, Bruce” I look down at my crotch before I look up back at Bruce, my eyes narrowing with suspicion.
“ What happens when I need to go to the bathroom?”
“Well, that was taken care of” Bruce says carefully as he takes a step forward again. I groan and I let my head fall back onto the pillow before I look over at Steve.
“Well, are you just gonna stand there Stevie or do you want to see my naked, lower half?” I smirk when Steve turns red and quickly walks out the door.