I don't want to hurt my family
My body was trembling when Bucky sat me down on the medical gurney, and my nose flared and my eyes widened when Tony started to attach wires to my skin.
“No, no,no” I whisper to myself, my hand clenching into fists as Tony picked up a hypodermic needle.
“Doll, it’s alright, I’m here” Bucky interrupted my thoughts, his flesh hand sliding into mine, and he gasps in surprise and pain when I squeeze his hand in a death grip. His eyes study my face and he think of how I’m reacting to needles and the fact that it was HYDRA that kidnapped me and his eyes widen.
“Y/N, what did you get injected with?” Bucky cups my face and turns my head so I look at him. I choke back a hysterical sob as I lean into his touch.
“Blue liquid. Set of 5 needles. It burned Bucky, God it burned” I push back tears but when Tony came close to me with a needle my hand flared up with flames. Tony had to jump back and he looked at me with shocked and sad eyes.
“I- i- I’m sorry Tony, but I can’t do needles right now.” I explain, and he nods, his eyes flicking up to Bucky’s face behind me. I turn back around and I look into Bucky’s eyes as his face turned pale.
“Bucky?”
“I’m okay Doll I just have to go to talk to Steve for a second. I’ll be right back, I promise” Bucky says in a soothing voice and he quickly walks out of the room, stopping just out outside of the door.
“Oh wow, I can hear” I murmur to myself, and when I focus on my hearing, I can hear Bucky and Steve.
“God damnit Steve Pierce injected her with the super soldier serum!”
“Oh Buck”
“I don’t know how It’s going to affect her Steve, it’s probably very different from the stuff we were injected with!”
“Bucky it will be okay. She is a strong girl she has control”
“I love her Steve, I don’t want to lose her”
“Well, go in and be with her, jerk”
“Punk”
Bucky reenters the room with a small smile on his face, and he instantly walks to my side, grabbing my hand and cupping my cheek.
“God I was gone for two weeks at least” I murmur to myself, and when I hear Bucky grunt in confusion I look up.
“That’s what Pierce told me. Two weeks of torture and hoping you would come”
“What? No sweetheart it’s been three days” Bucky’s hand cups my face, and I sigh, my eyes closing
“They tortured me Buck, with electricity and the sound of your voice” I choke, Tony silently leaving the room to give us some privacy. Bucky’s metal hand slipped from my face and fell down to the medical bed railing, gripping it so tightly that he warped the metal, leaving fingerprints in the metal.
I whimper in the back of my throat and that snaps Bucky out of his daze, his eyes softening as he sits on the bed and pulls me into his lap, his arms wrapping around my waist.
“Oh Doll, it’s okay, Im not mad at you sweetheart I promise” Bucky whispers into my hair as I slowly relax against him, my hand grabbing his knee to convince myself that he was real. I slowly became aware that the room temperature was dropping and that the veins in my hands were glowing blue.
“Buck please, you need to leave. My powers” I struggle out of Bucky’s grip and I push him off the bed, but he stands next to me, shaking his head.
“Im not letting you get hurt again”
“Buck, I have no control over it. I don’t want to hurt the people around me. Please” I gasp, tears falling down my cheeks. He looks down at me uncertainly and I nod. With a grim look on his face, he slowly walks out of the room and closes the door, to my relief.
“JARVIS, please video record this and send it to someone we trust in SHIELD, with a message. ‘come get me’”
“Of course”
So, with a scream, my powers flood out of my body and it’s like a bomb went off, but a bomb made out of ice. Everything was shattered, there were sharp icicles everywhere and the concrete walls were cracked.
I groan, flexing my hands as Bucky rushes in, his footsteps silent as he rushes to my side.
“Doll, are you alright?”
“I’m tired of this Bucky! I just want to go home” I cry out, jumping off the gurney, and I grab it, flipping it into a wall. I yell out an inarticulate cry as I spin around and punch the wall, making it crumble.
“Doll, please!”
I turn around, my eyes glowing as I look at Bucky, my whole body trembling, as tears fall down my face.
“What’s happening to me Bucky!”
“Y/N, it’s the serum. It’s increased your powers and your strength. Believe me, I know. It happened to me and to Stevie” Bucky pleads, grabbing my hands in his and pressing a desperate kiss to my lips, which I desperately return, my hands threading in his hair. I pull back, my breath heaving as I lean my forehead against his.
“Bucky, I love you so fuckin much, but I might have to go away for a while. I need to learn to control my powers and I’m sorry but I don’t want to hurt you or Tony or anyone el – “ Bucky cuts me off with a kiss, making me moan in confusion.
“Doll, I get it. I understand, hell, I did the same thing” Bucky reassures me, and I cringe when I hear heavy footsteps coming down the hallway.
“Bucky, whatever happens now, know that it was me who did it, and I did it because I love you. Remember that” I say urgently, and Bucky nods in confusion, and he goes to ask something when the door opens, and a man walks in, with Tony on his heels.
“Hi there, I’m Phil Coulson, from SHIELD” Phil walks up to me and holds his hand out for a handshake. I glance over at Bucky and I take a small step forward, smiling gently when Bucky’s metal fingertips remain on the small of my back, grounding me.
“Y/N Stark, nice to meetcha” I shake Phil’s hand, and I smirk when Tony straightens up when I call myself Y/N Stark.
“I received your video. Do you still want me to obey your message?” Phil’s eyebrows rise.
“Y/N, what is he talking about?” Tony nearly shouts, and I send a glance his way before I turn back to Phil.
“I will go willingly and peacefully, but I would like to negotiate the terms, if you wouldn’t mind” Phil nods and I go to follow him out of the room, but two hands grab both my arms, turning me back around.
“Y/N, what the hell are you doing?” Tony yells, a furious look on his face. I ignore him and I look at Bucky, who has an angry look on his face but understanding in his eyes.
“I’m protecting my family Tony, the people I love. You have to respect that please” I beg, and Tony’s mouth opens and closes, staring at me. I look back at Bucky, and hesitantly I lean in and press my lips to his lips. I pull back and I look into his sad eyes, and with a sniff I walk out the door, following Phil into a nearby room.
“So, Coulson, you watch the whole thing?” I comment as we both sit down at a table, facing each other. He nods, and stares at his hands before looking up at me.
“Why would you send us that video. Why do you want us to keep you in containment?”
“Because any strong emotion triggers my powers like a bomb, and I cant control it. Not yet. If you lock me up in containment, alone, then I can concentrate on controlling it” Phil is nodding at my words, his eyes studying my face.
“And what were these conditions you wanted to negotiate?”
I stare down at my hands in thought for a couple of minutes before I look up again.
“Firstly, I’m guessing you’ve seen the Hulk containment unit? Yeah?” Well, I would like something like that, bigger of course, and with just a few basics, a cot, separate bathroom and preferably a punching bag”
“I’m sure we can manage that. Anything else?”
“This condition is one that I definitely want you to keep” I wait for him to nod before I continue.
“Everyone is welcome to come see me, But I don’t want any contact with them. I don’t want to see them, or talk to them. They can see me, but I can’t see them. Got it?” Phil looks slightly shocked but nods.
“And third?”
“Third, I get 24 hours to say goodbye”
Just after I saw that, the door bursts open and Bucky comes storming in, heading straight towards me as he pulls me up and presses my body into his as he presses his lips hard against mine, his hand on the back of my neck so I can’t pull away. When he finally pulls away I’m panting, my face bright red as I look over at Phil, who is stoically staring at the table.
“Doll, I have you for 24 hours, I am going to fucking use it” Bucky growls as he kisses me again and I squeak, my hands running through his hair. Phil coughs and stands up.
“Well, I’ll leave you too it. Y/N, I’ll see you in 24 hours”