Stitches

He was on his knees waiting to turn into dust like everyone else. But his luck prevented him from turning into dust like everyone else. His luck is always bad. Now he is blaming his luck and he knows that the mistake was that he could not prevent Thanos.
this was his failure
He's a murderer.
Now there is no Peter ... no life for him to live. Because of him the wizard gave the stone of time. He was a waste of time. He hates himself so much.

"Together we can win"
"If we lose?"
"So we will lose together"

He smiled and wiped his tears from his cheeks.
How could he think of Steve at this time?
Oh, he always thinks of Steve. what's new ?
He sighed and stood.
"We have to go, I do not think this place will hold up any more!" The Titan said.
"I am Nebula" the girl introduced herself and he nodded to her .
"Tony" answered her by giving her his name and she started working on a spaceship and he went to help her.
Is it possible that Steve is still alive?
What about the other avengers ?
He did not see any of them after what happened in Siberia.
Now he needs to feel the presence of at least one of them To tell him that this is not his fault and that they will find a solution, but they should not give up.
He missed Steve . His smile, His early morning routine, even when he fights with Tony and tells him he is not strong and he is not a hero.
He missed Natasha. She was trying to prove to everyone that her heart was made of stone,
But she always worried about them all. He really missed her and her violent behavior.
And Clint? Clint was humoristic at the time of Fun and earnest at the serious times . But his heart was always clean.
Wanda was like a kid and all he was trying to do was protect her but something happened.
Sam was not in agreement with him that’s true but he was sometimes nice with Tony.
Even Bucky if the time had returned , he will make sure he does not try to kill him.

It was true that he felt jealous of Buckey and he was thinking Steve was in love with Buckey but what happened in Siberia assured him that. Steve had already loved Bucky .
This is also true he likes Steve.He always loved him but could not tell him for fear that Steve would reject him. He has always learned to hide his feelings.

His father taught him well to conceal his feelings through a sense of humor and laughter.
His childhood was not so good. He was abused by everyone.
His father always told him he was a loser .
When he grew a little older, his mother began to call him a loser too .
When he grew older, his friend kidnapped him and he managed to escape from him.
Then Steve came and did not make any difference whether he fell in love with this man who reminded him of his father when he told him you are a loser .

Yet he did not collapse in front anyone.
Now he is working on his return and to see what he caused from his loss. What happened because of him in the first place.

Thor was a good friend to him and he was ready to collapse in front of him because he did not judge anyone and this is what distinguishes him from everyone.

"Are you alright ?" The voice of Nebula brought him out of his thoughts, and he smiled to her . What happens to him ? Why he’s so kind and good with her ?
Maybe because of the loss?
Or because he lost everyone and no one left for him?

"Yes, I'm fine, thank you," he replied as she nodded, but there was doubt in her eyes as he ignored it and returned to work.

“It’s working!Go inside quickly! "Nebula ordered him and Yes, they have finished repairing one of the spaceships and now they will be back to the earth .

The trip was quiet and it’s took a long time to get back.
He couldn’t close his eyes or relax because he was thinking of Peter .
everytime he close his eyes Peter shows up begging him not to leave him alone .
Peter's death was because of him. The death of everyone because of him .
His thoughts were lost when they landed. He had no idea where they were, but it’s looked like the desert of Afghanistan, like the place where he was tortured.

He did not notice that Nebula was holding his shoulder and she was talking but he could not hear her.
"Tony, breathe, you're safe here, no one can touch you." Nebula was trying to calm him down, He smiled to her .
They heard a sound of a car approaching and Tony turned back and when they came out of the car. He couldn’t help his eyes landing on Steve.
He was ... He was taller than before. He was prettier than before. His manly beard that Tony wanted to touch. And his blue eyes ...
But he remember what happened in Siberia and lowered his head to the ground and then looked again to find Natasha and Thor and ... Raccoon?!

He wanted to go to Thor and that means he had to pass from Steve's side and what he passed him
Steve pulled his wrist to stop him .
Tony tried to get his hand free from Steve but Steve hugged him.
Tony froze in his place. do not Cry ! You are not weak! do not Cry !
He was trying to control himself and he pushed Steve from him .
He looked at Steve in his eyes
Tony tried to stay on as his feet but he couldn’t stop the headache or prevent his body from shaking .
Steve tried to catch him again but Tony distanced himself.

"Stop! Do not try to touch me again!" Tony felt dizzy again but this time Thor reached him before he could fall andTony was very grateful.
"Bring me home to Thor" Tony leaned on Thor who did not say anything and took Tony to the car.
Tony put his head on Thor's shoulder and closed his eyes and this time he didn’t prevent himself from falling sleep.
•••••••••••••
When he woke up from a nightmare, his body was full of bandages. Tony came out and thought everyone was asleep but he was surprised to find them all sitting .

"Tony?" Steve stood and Tony sat on the couch next to Thor .
"What's the plan?" He asked because he didn’t want to go deeper with Steve and did not want to be hurt again.

Indeed, Steve had put his plan and Tony's role was only to stand in the back because he was injured.
Tony rolled his eyes but chose to shut up.
But Tony was surprised when he saw that Natasha was avoiding him very much . she doesn’t know what happened in Siberia?

Bruce and Thor didn’t help either. They were pressing on Tony to apologize to Steve and he didn’t tell them what happened in Siberia.
••••••••••••••••••
Once Thanos returned as Steve expected, the plan began.
Tony could not stay in the back I was making and Thanos was grinning with amusement as he saw Tony.
Tony would be a liar if he didn’t admit that he felt a little scared.
"Stark? I'm happy to see you again .. Tell me .. How do you feel after losing this annoying child?" When Thanos mentioned Peter, Tony felt the blood boil inside him. He could not stop himself from attacking Thanos. He can hear Steve tell him to back down.

When Thanos wanted to rip off Tony's arc reactor Steve stepped in and saved Tony andThanos threw Steve away from a far distance.
Tony and the others took advantage of the opportunity and were able to kill Thanos finally.
They smiled at each other because they had finally won together.

When they all turned around they didn’t find Steve with them . Looking down at the ground to find him unconscious.
They went to make sure that he was breathing and yes he was breathing but with difficulty.
They took him to the hospital and were waiting outside.

He has saved his life but in return now he is on the bed. He's supposed to be on the bed and not Steve. Why does this always happen with him? Why didn’t Steve leave him to die ?
The doctor came out after a while and they were looking at him waiting him to speak.
"I apologize ... but he went into a coma and it’s hard to get out from this coma "

The doctor left them and Tony could not believe this.
Why ? Steve must wake up! He did not have the opportunity to admits his love for him.
He lost everything. At least he could forgive Steve and return friends. Damn him and his delight!
Tony can’t face the world alone! He can not do anything without Steve next to him.

"all this is because of you !" Tony looked at Natasha, who came forward and slapped him.
"He told you to stay in the back line because there is a plan ! Why you are always trying to be a hero, you are not a hero! You could never be a hero . You’re a criminal Tony ..” Natasha left him looking at the ground.
Yes she was right .