7
When morning hit, she couldn’t believe it. Jade stayed up all night with Buck until both of them passed out from exhaustion. Her whole body ached in a way she was beginning to love. Buck kissed all over her face as they both got ready for the day. They both knew this was getting out of hand. The strings were already attached and neither of them wanted to end. But despite the fear of losing each other, they didn’t stop. Buck kissed her nose as he escorted her to the dining room. Once both of them entered they acted as if everything was fine. Even with the dull ache in her chest. Fear was in here. She couldn’t lose Buck, she wouldn’t survive. Feelings she never understood were coming over her. Feelings she should have already experienced. Jade felt as if she was being watched. She was in a room full of people that should be normal but it was so intense. As if someone was in her head.
Wanda had her head down as she rummaged through the young girls thoughts. Tears pricked her eyes. Wiping the tears before they fell, she got out of her head. But she didn’t pick herself up. Jade’s questioning gaze was on her. Vision held her hand as they murmured quietly.
The rest of the team talked to themselves, then Steve walked in. He was still in his pajamas, his blonde hair scattered amongst his head. He looked tired. As if he went back and fought World War ll all over again. His hands were shaking as he held up a emerald necklace.
“Guys I don’t know what this is. Or how it got in my room..” He stopped, lost for words. Thor sat in the back, his eyes lighting up. The God shook his head as he closed his mouth.
“Does anyone know what this is? Or who it belongs to?”
No answer.
Wanda ran her thumb other the green orb, “It radiates power. Seiðr to be percices. It’s not from our realm. It’s from Asgard.”
All eyes were now on Thor.
“I couldn’t give you an explanation my friends. I can tell you it was made by Loki. No doubt. When mother was teaching him magic, it was one of the first spells he managed to conquer. Of course he put his own trick into it. The one he gave mother had a memory of the two of them in it...back when we were just boys..back when mother was still alive…”
“So there is a message in...that thing?” Peter looked at everyone.
“Yes. It can either be revealed with magic, our own of course, or some sort of emotion. Loki planned his tricks very precisely. When you wear the object you would have to feel a certain way. Thus summoning the message. Mothers was when she was baking. It always gave her great joy to work with the ladies.”
“Can you do Asgardian magic?” Tony said bluntly.
“One spell. But it takes so much out of me. I’d be wiped out for the rest of the day. Asgardians are three times more powerful than we are and it’s only a basic spell.”
“Do you think you can handle that?”
“Do we really want to know?” Nat called out. Her voice was laced with annoyance. She just got back from a mission. All she wanted was a calm morning. The pounding headache didn’t help either. “What if it’s something sick? Like Thor said, Loki was in a very dark state of mind. None of us really know just how dark he went. Only Jade would and she doesn’t talk about it. Let’s just give it to Thor so he can take it back where it belongs.” Her sweaty palms pressed into her hairline.
“But what if it’s about the attack? What if it’s why he did it?” Steve tried to reason. “What if these are the rest of the answers we need? Maybe some of us still need closure.” He caste a sympathetic glance to Tony and Jade. He knew that Tony was haunted by something. He can see the paranoia in him. The advancements, the upgrades. Tony was getting ready for something.
“If this is some sort of confession, we need Fury. If I get him here. Wanda, can you open the stupid message?” Nat took two more ibuprofen. She was gonna need it.
“Yes I can. But we need to do it quick. I only want to waste one day in bed not two.”
Buck followed Jade back to her room. He could hear her heart racing, her hands were shaking. The minute the door closed his arms were around her. “Sh, sh, darlin. Calm down.” Buck placed his hand over her heart. His lips pressing into her cheek. “Darlin, everythin is alright. Ya just gotta breathe.” Jade relaxed. Letting out a shaky breathe one after another. “You’re safe. You’re fine. We are gonna listen to that message and bury the hatchet. Maybe this is what ya need to move on doll.” Jade fought off a panic attack. Taking in his words. After a few moments her body relaxed. “Thanks Buck. Let’s do this and move on. After today, I don’t want to think about him again. Say his name, nothing. I want him out of my head and out of my life.”
“After today, I promise he is just a shadow of your past. I’ll always protect you, I told you once and I’ll tell you forever.”
Jade and Bucky walked together to the team. Fury sat in one of the leather chairs, a beer in his hand. Clad in his usual leather he gave Jade a smile. Seeing her always made him smile. Even though he saw Tony in her, she still made him smile.
“I must say your reports recently have been outstanding. They are easy to read and in so much detail. Thank you for lending us a hand.”
Jade smiled. He was like the step dad dick. Protective and caring but a dick. “No problem. I like doing work for you. It keeps me thinking.”
As the room filled up Natasha closed the blinds. She had a feeling she had some sort of concussion, her headache hasn’t gone away yet. Her legs even hurt. Bouncing back wasn’t anything like this. She always bounced back like nothing. Maybe that Italian Gang really pulled one on her. Looking over her shoulder, she caught sight of Buck. She admired his long hair and dark jeans. They clung to those thighs in all the right ways. Those thighs that drove her crazy and that metal arm. Good God he knew how to use it. Taking her seat she tried to fight back those thoughts. That was over. It was over. He wasn’t the soldier.
Then she saw it.
The way his eyes looked at her. The way he bite his lips as she bent over. The way he smiled at her. And the way she looked back at him. There was a passion she had never seen before. Not even as her soldier. Her heart cracked slightly. He was after Jade. She knew this would happen. Ever since that little witch put her hands on him. But Natasha had an advantage. She knows everything that happens in this tower.
Wanda stood in front of the room. A couple books surrounding her, two dead roses, a strand of Thor’s hair, and a tear from a human. Don’t ask how she got it, she doesn’t know. She just hopes it’s a tear. “Now before I get started. I need to explain.” Wanda looked at all her friends. Nat’s negative thoughts running through her head. Her brows furrowed in confusion. Her dear friend dragging herself down into a hole. “N-Now this spell is basic for Asgardian’s. But extremely complex for us. I need complete silence. It won’t take very long. But when the message appears please remain calm. No matter how difficult it may be. Any slight change in the environment will make it disappear. On top of that I will speak Old Norse. I am not fluent. But we just need the words to come out of my mouth. This spell is older than Thor. I’ve study their magic ever since I got my own. Please trust me and whatever happens do not worry.” She surveyed the room. Fury and Tony were drinking. Not a bad idea. Peter, Jade and Bucky were on the couch. Steve stood behind Nat who was in a recliner. Thor was eating his poptarts. Sam and Clint were still on missions. Perfect. This should go swell. Natasha was starting to come down. Everything should go fine.
Taking a deep breathe, she started. First she threw in a strand of Thor’s hair, a teardrop of a human, then she crushed the dead roses. “Husk meg, jeg husker deg. Elsker meg, jeg elsker deg.” Next she closed her eyes, the emerald in her hands. Suddenly a beautiful green emerged from the gem. The message finally for everyone to see.
Loki sat in an empty room. He was beat to high hell. Blood was dripping down his face. Cuts were all over his bare chest. “If you were to turn into a snake tomorrow and begin devouring humans….and from the same mouth you started devouring humans, you cried out to me 'I love you,' would I still be able to say "I love you" the same way I do today?” He raised a shaky hand to his lips. His fist pooling blood, his knuckles torn apart. His shaky voice making him feel weak. But this wasn’t about him. “I am sorry. I broke my promise. I left you alone. I left you here...all alone...forgive me my dear. You are my rose, on this realm of thorns.” Suddenly shouting was heard in the background. The sound of footsteps, so many of them. Loki gave a sad glance. His eyes that beautiful green shade. “The Wicked King with the Cheshire Grin..will fall in the ashes. You my dear will not fall anytime soon.”
Then he was gone.
Buck sat there dumbfounded. That was Loki. He was nothing like he pictured in his mind. If anything he wasn’t that bad looking. Not nearly as handsome as him of course. But honestly..Loki seemed so small. If he was meant to be a God he didn’t understand it. Looking over he held Jade’s hand. That message was for her no doubt. He could see it in her eyes. They looked haunted, far away. Jade felt her eyes prick with tears. Memories attacking her all at once. She squeezed Buck’s hand as she heard Wanda fall to the ground.
“Yes but you see my dear. I am the Wicked King with a silver tongue and lies to the heavens. I am a bad man. You my sweet maiden, will be devoured. You have nothing to face me.” He stalked around her. His long golden horns shined in the moonlight.
“Looks can be deceiving. People can turn into snakes when the moment comes. When that bad day turns into a nightmare. People are monsters. If you want to burn the world down, please do it. Before we do it ourselves.” His cat like grin spread on his handsome face.
“You will be a beautiful Queen.” She took his hand.
Jade put her hands onto her forehead. Buck rubbed her back, concern written all over his face. Vision held Wanda in his arms, taking her to their room. “I have no idea what that was. Or who he was talking to. I have no clue. If anything it only raised more questions.” Tony grabbed another beer.
“I told you to just let Thor take it. Look what it did! It caused more hurt. More agony.” Nat bitched as she crossed her arms. Her emotions all hitting her at once. She was calm for the message but she was done.
“Now hold on. What he was saying was in code. It was in a way that only one person could understand. Maybe to that one person it gave them some sort of closure.” Steve jumped in. He truly believed this did good. His heart ached of course, it seems as if Loki spilled his heart out. It looked as if that was the most emotion he had ever shown.
Jade held her head down. She could feel a heated glare on her. A glare that bubbled up her insides. “If you wanna fuckin say something say it. Say it to my fuckin face and get it out of your system.” Suddenly the room was ice cold. The only thing to fear with that little girl was the devil she had in her, that temper.
“Why don’t you just tell us? Instead of running and crying to your room, just tell us. Tell us what the hell he meant.”
“I don’t think you want to.”
“Don’t pull that bullshit on me. We have all been tortured. One way or another. For fucks sake the winter soldier is right next to you! Whatever your 16 year old ass went through wasn’t shit for anyone."
“Fine, Natasha. I’ll fucking tell you what’s up.” Jade stood up straight pissed. Buck and Peter followed behind, Buck wrapped an arm around her waist as Peter grabbed a hold on her arm. “Back when Loki first found me, he told me this poem. He just murdered nearly three hundred people into my living room and he told me a fuckin poem. The Wicked King. So I played with him. It was our banter..” Jade shut her mouth, really thinking this through. But Natasha’s pissed off look made her not care. She just wanted to smash her face in. “It got so twisted whenever he was cutting into me he would tell me his thoughts in riddles. The night he cut into my pelvis he told me about the Golden Palace of Asgard. He cut into me so deep...I can’t have children. But he didn’t stop there….I don’t know why he did what he did. Or why he decided to cut me up. Fuck I don’t even know why he took over Earth. All I have are memories and his fucking riddles. His Goddamn games.”
Jade pushed both men away from her, “Fuck you and your salty ass.”
“You’re a smart girl. You dodged my question with some small bullshit story. But all of us in here heard about some promise. We heard his confession Jade. Stop telling me bullshit. Tell me what really happened.”
Buck let her go. Betrayal in his eyes. Why would she defend Loki? What’s going on?”
“He just promised to take me to Asgard if shit fell apart. Which it did but guess what I’m still fuckin here.” Jade sighed running her hands through her hair. She was getting worked up. “That was the only fuckin thing he ever told me that I listened to. Just drop it. I hate talking about the past.”
Of course she didn’t.
“You’re hiding something from us. Did you love him? Did you care about him? Did he pop your fuckin cherry?”
“Shut the fuck up and drop it!”
“Why? You’re never gonna tell us what happened! You’ve probably been lying to the fucking therapist too. But fine fuck you, go cry to your goddamn hero.”
“Oh you mean my goddamn soldier.”
That was the last straw.
Nat jumped from her seat. In two strides she was in Jade’s face. But she didn’t back down, she yelled right back. Face to face, screams to scream. Fury watched sipping on his drink as the rest of the team grabbed the two women.
“Do something. Fucking do something, you heart broken little bitch. Come the fuck at me.”
Buck had his arms around her chest, without hesitation he picked her up and tossed her over his shoulder. Jade screamed and squirmed into his grasp. “Put me the fuck down. I’m gonna get that loud mouthed bitch.” Natasha hit against Tony and Steve. Both of them had their arms around her. Peter had his arms around her waist as Tony had her arms. Thor sat with Fury, sipping on shitty Midgurdian ale. He had seen women fight, but never with so much words. So much hate. He knew Jade was lying, because he lied about her too. Jade wasn’t from Germany. But his friends weren’t ready for that. She wasn’t either.
Buck was about to take her out when Nat threw a beer bottle in their direction. The glass shattered behind him. “Yesli vy ne ostanovites' pryamo seychas, vy uvidite ad, kotorogo vy nikogda ne khoteli.” (If you don’t stop right now, you’ll see a hell you never wanted to.) Buck’s words made her stop in her tracks. She backed down, suddenly feeling embarrassed. Jade still mumbling, he hauled her off to her room. A very pissed off Bucky hauled her to her room. Nat looked at the rest of the team. Then at Fury. Her boss. She just lost her shit in front of her boss.
Fuck you James Barnes.
Fuck you too Jade Evans.
Jade bitched her way until she was thrown on her bed. She moved to get right back up and punch Nat for coming at her, but Buck held her down. His strong hands held her small wrist. The look in his eyes made her stop. She caught her breath as he looked down at her. She has never seen him angry before, ever. It was horrifying.
“That was not right for you to say that. That was not your place.”
“I..I was mad Buck.”
“Yeah so was I. But I don’t go throw around other peoples past bullshit. Natalia and I were just fine. After tonight I can’t say that. You brought up a lot of the past people don’t know. On top of that you’ve pulled attention to both of us. You said I was yours. Do you have any idea what look Fury was giving me? I’m suprised he didn’t fuckin shoot me.”
Jade looked away from his gaze. Nothing she has ever said when she was mad has ever affected anyone. She didn’t have anyone. But now she has. Buck held her arms together with his metal arm, his flesh hand making her look at him. Green eyes looked into steal blue. “Tomorrow you are going to fix your bullshit. No running away to drugs, nothing. But tonight you are going to take punishment for your actions.” Her brows furrowed as he got off her. “Do as I say and it will be over fast.” Buck pulled his shirt over his head. Stepping out of his shoes he looked over at her. “Strip.” Jade shrugged out of her clothes until she lay in her underwear. “No bra again? I like that.” With a click he took off his belt. Once again he climbed on top of her, tying her hands together with his belt.
“Sit still.”
With his metal hand he moved down her body. Starting at her rib cage, he dragged the freezing digits down her side. Popping his neck, he ripped off her grey underwear. She twitched and looked up at him with doll eyes. Like ten minutes ago she wasn’t going to murder someone. Putting his metal hand on her again, he spread her legs. “Keep your legs spread, they start to close I’ll make them stay open.” He couldn’t help but grin. She was getting off on her punishment. Just like he wanted. He shoved a digit into her opening, quickly adding another one. Jade squirmed beneath him. “Stay still, I don’t repeat myself.” Her tight walls squeezed around his finger. He sat still for just a moment. Taking her in. Cheeks stained pink, body flushed, and needy. He fuckin loved it. Pulling his fingers back he shoved them right back in. He was going fast and hard. The sound of her slick opening filled the room. His fingers hooked to drag against her walls, finding that spot and hitting it. Over and over, harder and harder. Jade moaned loudly, gripping onto the belt tightly. She tried her hardest not to move. Not to squirm and buck into his fingers. She couldn’t put the feeling into words. It was as if she was so high in the sky, she wasn’t on Earth. She came on his hand, the hardest she had ever came in her life.
Buck pulled her fingers out, licking at the metal before he ripped the rest of his clothes off. His thick hard cock making her bit her lip. He moved so he was in her face. His lips just barely away from hers. “Do you want to be fucked darlin?” Buck rubbed the tip against her sensitive folds. She wrapped her legs around his waist. Looking into his eyes, “Yes. I want it so bad. Fill me up Bucky. Please.” Pushing his cock in, he took hold of her hips. He was going to need a grip for this. Jade watched his muscles flex and his eyes rolled back. Never gets old. His hips didn’t just snap, they slammed. The bed frame crashed into the wall as Buck let himself go. His hands gripped onto her tightly. His hips smashing into hers in a beautiful bruising pleasure. Buck moaned with her. She was so much tighter right now. He buried his cock into her, stuffing her to the hilt and slamming right back in. The frame cracked beneath them. It didn’t take her long to tighten around him. Despite his own needs he pulled out of her. Right when she was on the edge. Buck caught his breath as he looked down at her.
“Buck. Buck. Please. Don’t do this please, fuck me.”
Getting up from the bed he reached into her drawer. Taking out a vibrator, with a button on the top, he rubbed it against her opening. “This is your punishment darlin.” Gently he pushed the toy into her core. But he didn’t turn it on. “Get the toy to come on and you can come. If not you might be here for awhile.” Jade cried into displeasure. She squirmed her bruised hips to try and get the button on. Her wrist tugging at the belt around her wrist. Her little whines and whimpers made his cock ache even more. Again Buck forced himself away from her, walking into the bathroom for a shower.
Steve watched on his laptop. He watched the whole thing. At first it was to make sure Buck didn’t lose his temper. And well he did, on her hips. Steve felt as if his mind was completely blown. He did so many things he didn’t understand. Why did he leave her like that? Wasn’t the goal to come? Isn’t that why you had sex? Despite his confusion he never felt so hard before in his life. He knew what he was doing was wrong. He tried going back to porn it just didn’t work. It didn’t turn him on like this. Luckily his best friend was a soon to be sex addict. All last night they fucked like rabbits. But nothing like what he just watched. Last night was more casual sex. Way more casual. This he would think as abuse. Steve watched as Jade cried and squirmed onto her bed. Her back arched, he could see the bruises on her hips. He couldn’t look away. He knew ten minutes or so passed of her laying there waiting for Buck. Finally he watched Buck walk into frame. He had never been so prepared to watch something in his entire life.
Buck whistled at the sight in front of him. His cock still rock solid he crawled between her legs. Wiggling the toy out of her, he replaced it with his cock. “Thank God. Oh fuck James. Fuck me. Let me cum.” Buck groaned, taking a hold of her thighs. He loved to watch her take him. Her pussy stretching so good around him. His cock hit against that spot. A couple hard thrust later, she came on his cock. Her eyes rolled back as she squirted onto him. Buck kissed her nose as he emptied inside her. String after string of his come coated her walls. “That’s a good girl. My sweet girl.”
This was Steve’s favourite part. The way he treated her after. Buck cleaned her up, kissed her bruises and dressed her in clothes. Then he would lay next to her and hold her until she fell asleep. He was so good to her. One time he put lotion all over her, to help the soreness. Steve always smiled as his best friend fell asleep.
He really hoped this would work out.
The couple stayed behind closed doors for hours. Buck made sure to tell everyone she was fine, they would be out for dinner. But neither of them were ready to face them. Jade just got called out on her bullshit and she didn’t blame them. Her little story was true. Loki always made riddles and poems with her. The promise was true as well.She wasn’t mad at Natasha either. The mission she came back from was brutal. Steve was supposed to go with her but she felt as if she could do it on her own. She almost didn’t. Jade looked up at the TV, her arms around Bucky’s waist as she laid on his chest. She could feel him thinking. She could smell his insecurity.
“What do you want to know?”
“The truth.”
“Would you believe me?”
“Of course."
“Would you go to the team?”
“No.”
“Fine.” She crawled in his lap. “The reason I have the problems I do. Depression, anxiety, PTSD, all that bullshit. Is because what I remember….isn’t Loki. I remember the bad. All of the bad. The abuse, the hateful words, the cruel things he would do. Because of the tesseract, the thing that was controlling him. But...I remember him..before.” Buck looked up at her confused. “I remember the way to the waterfall from the castle. The way he would look at his mother. I even remember the tunnels to the other realms..but I don’t know why. I don’t know where I came from. Who my parents are. Where my parents are. I don’t even know how old I am. I’m just here…with these bad memories..and these urges for death. I don’t know Buck.”
Buck held her hand. He knew what that was like. Waking up and not knowing who you are. It was a horrible feeling. It was a terrible thing. He kissed her hand.
“I’ll take care of you. No matter what.”
He just wished he could keep that promise.