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The hot water steamed up the mirror. A cloudy misty haze filled the large bathroom. Smoke filled out of my mouth, floating up into the air. I leaned back in the sweet water, placing the blunt on the side of the bathtub. The hot water warmed up my insides. With a cloudy mind I took the cold glass of my new toy. Slowly rubbing the tip on my hot bundle of nerves. I closed my eyes thinking of him doing it. I did this often, about every night. I smoked a fat blunt and let my fantasies lose. I felt my body burn hot, hotter than the water I'm soaking in. My small hand grasped the glass as i pushed it into my hot center. I let my mouth drop open and my eyes roll back. My small frame twitched delicately. I pressed into the toy stretching me, grinding into my g spot. 'Bucky..'I whimpered in my head. I bit my lip and moved my wrist, moving my hands quick and hard, hitting that spot over and over. I arched my back, my eye twitched in a way. I panted as I pounded into myself. The water adding more pressure. I squirmed and whimpered, a silent scream of pleasure. I let the toy out and slammed back in, over and over. I bit down on my lip hard as I went over the edge. My body limped as I leaned back against the tub. I took out the glass toy and gently laid it on the rug. I was high as a kite and freshly fucked.
"Fuck you bitch." I looked into the mirror, my middle finger higher than my ass.
Bright light filled my windows, reflecting off the dark wooden floor and giving me a pounding headache. I rolled over in my large bed and lit another blunt. My limbs ached in pain. I had way to much fun last night, yet my legs still felt slick. I rubbed my head with my other hand. Today was going to be a long day. The first thing I did was close the dam blinds, I didn't give a shit if it smelled like weed. Stark can kiss my ass. I sat back on my bed fully clothed. A pair of dark skinny jeans and a hoodie, my hair in a messy bun. I really just don't give a shit. I took one last hit and threw out my blunt.
The kitchen buzzed with people as usual. Steve and Buck talked with a cup of coffee. Vision and Tony ate breakfast over a game of chess. Nat and Wanda giggled together about recent drama. Even Banner was in there this morning. I mentally groaned as I pulled up my hoodie. I tried to act as invisible as possible, not only cause I was high as fuck, but because I hate human interaction. I took my favorite mug and filled it with the hot liquid. "Morning." I heard Vision say kindly. He was placing everyone's dishes in the sink. I mumbled a morning to him and tried to run out of there as fast as possible. "Now hold on there, kiddo." I looked back a Stark, everyone's eyes were now on me. Even Peter walked in and joined the show. Anxiety bubbled in my chest, but the weed calmed it down slightly. The high slowly starting to intensify. "We need the reports on the amplifier. Fury is on my ass and threatening to come down here. What the hell is going on? You are never late on your reports."
I sighed loudly. The hot mug in my hands. "Its literally due at midnight tonight. Besides that I'm already done with it. The amplifier wouldn't have been such a little bitch if you left it alone." His face contorted with rage. "You're 20 act like it-" I snorted. "I'm 22. I'll turn the report in to Fury. Get off my ass." I turned around to walk, but Steve's large body blocked my way. I could feel Buck staring at me. "Hey look, I know you're going through something, but we are trying to help. We all care about you and you're well being, we are just worried."
I bit my lip and looked up at him. Sadness in his eyes. "If you want to help me then let me the fuck out of this tower." And with that I left. I went straight to Peter's room and climbed on his desk. The small little box I hid there months ago in plain sight. I took out a couple pills and didn't hesitate to take them. 'Fuckin dicks.' I mumbled under my breath. The large bedroom, I was "gifted", reeked off weed and sex. I rolled my eyes at the thought of fucking anyone else other than myself. I was all I had now. I laid on the messy bed and waited for the pills to kick in. I fought off the urge to cry and suddenly fell back asleep. I hate when I do that. It waste pills.