Lighthouse [Alice in Borderland x Reader]

“I like you so much.” a bubbly girl together with equally bubbly kid skipped over the path of flat stones that leads to the terrifyingly high lighthouse near the shore.

“Same here. You're like my best best best friend.” the cheerful kid hugged the girl
What is wrong with you?

“My dada said that lighthouse means hope and security. I feel safe with you, does that mean that you're a lighthouse? But you're not like,” the girl stretched her arms. “like this tall.”

“Well I dunno. My papa isn't tall like that big tower too.” the kid gasped. “Does that mean that I'm adopted?”

“No way. Your mother's favorite color is the same as yours. No waaaay.” the girl giggled. “Pinky promise that we'll only like each other?”

Pinky promise, huh.

Reminiscing is the only thing you can do. You're unhappy with how things turned out. Every day that went on, Yuzuha strayed and strayed away from you. It was much more preferable when she was with you. Only with you. Not with that troublemaker man.

It was because of him. It was his fault, that she went away from your little bubble. It was his fault that she desired for someone else. What other things does she want anyway?

You were there, at all times. You were her friend that remained. You listened to her. You cared for her. You cherished her. You never made her do something drastic. You never—

What's wrong with you?

Your friend is happy, and you should be too. But what's so great with that guy? He's nothi— Who are you kidding, there's nothing wrong with the guy, in fact, the guy was kind to you and certainly more than just kind to Yuzuha.

Of course she will like him. Despite being anxious, he was still brave and courageous. No matter how scared he was, he tries to find ways to safely finish the game with no sacrifices. How can you bring yourself to hate a considerate person like him?

Perhaps because you were the opposite of him? You are ‘selfish’, as others would call you when you do every means you can to survive unscathed. Maybe if you were as purely kind, she would look at you how she gazed at Arisu.

The kind Alice and his confident bunny guide, against all odds and danger. Hopping through challenges and difficulties, together, not leaving either one out. But you are lost as well. Is it bad to ask for someone to help you take the path of this wretched place?

And besides, you met her before he did.

You stayed with her before he did.

You loved her before he did.

After the last game, the Ten of Heart's, you thought that the guy would leave her already, but it just turns out that they developed their feelings for each other more.

That damned Ryouhei Arisu.

“Are you fine with just that? Won't you be thirsty?” even now that you're blatantly glaring at him, the man still managed to be asking for your well-being.

“...Yes.” you didn't look away, as if challenging him to a staring contest.

“If you get thirsty, there are bottles of water by the right. You can get those there, I'm just not sure if you like the brand?” he hasn''t caught up with your intent, and looked away, pointing the water with his left index finger.

You walked away from him, not responding to what he said. You took your things , uninterested in staying here longer than you already did. If Yuzuha likes him very much, you'll leave to let her enjoy each other's company. You didn't want to see them acting all lovey-dovey.

“[Surname]! Where are you going?!” you trudged the path that takes you to a new and an unknown journey. Perhaps this way, you'll find yourself and not be dependent on Yuzuha anymore.

She became independently happy without you, while you still held on to that feeling that only she, can give you. So for your heart to not be in pain anymore, you will just leave and forget about her.

“[Name]!” don't look back and ignore it. Don't try to prolong this. You need to get away. Were you being dramatic? Maybe. However, you've made your mind.

She saw you as her best friend, you saw her as your romantic beloved.

You provided and needed different kinds of love. You knew that you're going to be selfish to indulge in her care, deluding it as romantic intimacy.

“[Name]. Where are you going?” you stared at her.

“I want to explore this place,” she lit up. “Alone.” She deflated.

“But—” she sighed. “Take care. I'll miss you a lot.” you nodded, leaving her and her companions.

“[Surname]! Wait!” he handed you a bag of supplies. “You need to be prepared for anything. Stay safe out there.” he smiled. He goddamned smiled at you.

“Thanks.” you accepted it and continued with your journey. As much as you want to throw the bag away, you didn't. You really need necessities.

After that day, they never saw you anymore.