Bend The Definition Of Fate

When May arrived at the apartment building her ears were ringing.

Peter basically cried the whole way from the tower to the apartment and May didn’t know if she was hearing things or not but she swore that as they got further and further away Peter was actually crying louder.

Once she parked the car, May got out of the car and took a breath before opening the back door to get Peter out of his car seat.

May still couldn’t believe that she was actually doing this. The last time she pulled Peter out of a car seat was so long ago she couldn’t even remember.

Now here she was pulling a screaming Peter into her arms as Peter cried for someone that he couldn’t have.

May felt horrible for pulling Peter away from Tony. She felt that Peter was always crying for someone that he couldn’t have. Even when he was younger he would cry for mommy and daddy but he was too young to understand that he could never see them again.

Now here Peter was crying again for someone that he couldn’t have. But this was May’s doing. She was the one that was keeping Peter away from Tony. May was really starting to regret taking Peter away from Tony because it was obvious how much Peter wanted Tony right now.

May pushed her regret aside and managed to get a screaming Peter into her arms and the other arm holding the bag with all of Peter’s baby stuff in there.

Peter screamed the whole way up to their apartment and May felt extremely bad for the neighbours.

Inside the apartment May placed Peter on the couch and sat down next to him with the bag on the floor. Peter immediately tried to get off the couch and he managed to do so because May was way too tired to try and stop him.

Peter stopped crying a bit as he walked around the apartment seeming to look for something or someone. May could hear Peter running behind her on the floor with his tiny shoes. She couldn’t see him but she could hear Peter rounding the side of the couch and look at May.,

“Whe’e ‘Ony?” Peter asked with red eyes and tears rolling down his cheeks. Peter looked up at May with his big brown eyes.

May sighed “He’s not here, baby”

Peter started crying again “Why? I wan’ ‘Ony!”

May didn’t know what to do. She hadn’t been apart of Peter’s life really at this age. She was an expert at four years old and up but not this. This was too young and she didn’t know if she should talk to Peter like a fifteen year old child or a two year old toddler.

Peter looked around sadly and it broke May’s heart. She leaned down to pick Peter up but Peter squirmed away from her.

“No! Wan’ ‘Ony!” Peter cried out but this time he was moving to stand behind the table as he squeezed his way in so May couldn’t get him.

“I know, Peter, but I’m gonna be taking care of you now” May tried to explain which just made Peter cry harder.

By the time May had stood up and moved to go and grab Peter he had already been trying to get away from her as if she was going to hurt him. May didn’t understand why Peter was acting like this but it was getting exhausting.

“Peter, please stop” May tried as she moved closer to Peter.

Peter had definitely played himself because once he was behind the table where he was there was no way of getting out without May being able to grab him and Peter seemed to notice that because he started screaming even louder as May got closer.

“No! No! Wan’ ‘Ony!” Peter cried out again. He had fat tears rolling down his cheeks and he looked like he had completely given up because he just stood there as May approached him.

When he was in arms reach, May bent down and picked up a screaming and kicking Peter holding him around the stomach with his back to her chest as she carried him into her bedroom.

Peter was wiggling and kicking to try and get away from May but it wasn’t working because Peter was an actual two year old while May was a full grown woman so Peter was no match and May could tell that Peter was very frustrated by this because he was using his full baby strength to try and get free.

May dropped Peter on to her bed and quickly went back to the living room to get the bag so she could change Peter into some comfy clothes to get him down for a nap.

When May came back into the bedroom she arrived just in time to watch as Peter fell right off the bed and hit his head on the floor which resulted in Peter being silent for a few seconds that felt like time froze before he started screaming even louder if that was possible than before.

May immediately dropped the bag and went to pick Peter up. When she had him in her arms he didn’t fight her at least but he was crying even louder and was holding his head as he looked at her with wide terrified eyes.

“I wan’ ‘Ony” Peter said sadly and May wouldn’t admit it but it hurt her that Peter still wanted Tony instead of her.

May ignored what Peter said and sat on her bed with Peter in her arms as she gently shushed him and rocked him back and forth. After about twenty minutes Peter finally calmed down enough for May to pull Peter away from herself and look at him.

No matter what happened, Peter will always be the same Peter and wants comfort from almost about anyone he can get comfort from. No matter how old he was Peter wouldn’t miss an opportunity to climb into May’s bed and sleep with her after a bad dream or even whenever he was feeling lonely and May was always there to give the comfort that he wanted.

May looked at Peter’s face, he had red eyes and tear stains on his face. He wasn’t crying anymore but he was hiccuping. May gently rubbed Peter’s back and then felt that Peter needed a diaper change because she could feel the full diaper on her lap. May went to go check Peter’s diaper and Peter stuck his thumb in his mouth as he leaned back against May’s chest.

May lifted up his shirt and pulled his pants out to reveal his diaper so she could check if it needed a change and May was right. She stood up with Peter still in her arms ignoring the whine that Peter let out around his thumb.

May held Peter with one arm as she picked up the bag off the floor placing it on the bed and then gently placing Peter on her bed. She lied Peter down so he was on his back and Peter thankfully lied there.

He was sucking on his thumb lying on his back watching May as if he wasn’t just screaming his lungs out a few minutes ago. May wasn’t complaining now because she was thankful for the peace and quiet.

Once May took out a diaper Peter looked at it, his face scrunching up as if he was slowly putting together what was gonna happen next.

May then moved her hands to start undoing the buttons on Peter’s pants to take them off but Peter started screaming again. He kicked his legs and tried to roll over into his stomach and crawl away but May grabbed his legs and pulled him back down.

May really didn’t understand what was going on. It was like Peter didn’t want her to see him naked but May was the only person in the world who had actually seen Peter naked multiple times, now Tony as well but May still ranked way up there on the list. She didn’t understand where this was coming from.

“Peter, just stop” May couldn’t do this anymore. She had only just taken Peter from Tony and now she already felt like she couldn’t do it.

Peter tried to crawl away again but May grabbed his ankles again and pulled him back towards her. She wrestled with him and managed to take off Peter’s pants but when she moved to undo the diaper straps Peter actually screamed, not like the crying screaming that he had been doing but more like an actual high pitch baby scream that made May immediately back away because she thought that she had hurt Peter.

Peter stopped crying and crawled quickly away to the top of the bed where the pillows were and he looked at May scared when he pushed his way under the bed. May watched a little lump form under the bed until it stopped and she just walked away. She couldn’t deal with this right now.

May sat on the couch in the living room debating if she should call Tony or not. She didn’t want to because she wanted to be able to do this by herself but she couldn’t. She knew she needed his help.

Before May knew it she was picking up the phone and was dialing Tony’s number.

Tony picked up on the second ring “Hey May. Everything okay with Peter?”

May sighed and put her head in her hands as she spoke into the phone “No. He won’t stop crying for you. I have to change his diaper but he’s acting like I’m gonna hurt him every time I go to try and take it off”

“What is he doing right now?” Tony asked. Worry in his voice.

May stood up and started making her way into her bedroom “He’s crawled under my blankets and won’t come out”

“Can I talk to him?” Tony asked and May could tell that he was scared to ask that.

“Sure, one sec” May put the phone down on the side table and went towards the lump in the bed “Peter, Tony wants to talk to you”

May watched as the lump started moving a bit until it was making its way back towards the pillows and then a messy brown headed baby popped out looking around with wide eyes.

“Ony?” Peter asked looking around.

May picked the phone up and held it out to Peter “He’s on the phone, baby”

Peter looked at May confused and she saw his face scrunch up until Tony spoke “Hey Peter! I hear you’re giving your Aunt a hard time”

Peter grabbed the phone from May and held it in his hands confused as he looked at it.

“Talk to him, Pete” May explained but Peter looked at her as if she was stupid.

“May, let me FaceTime him” Tony said through the phone and then a FaceTime call was coming in so May answered it.

Tony’s face appeared on the screen and Peter’s face lit up. Peter was holding the camera close to his face so all Tony could probably see was his eyes and his nose as Peter looked like he was trying to eat Tony through the screen it looked like.

“Don’t eat him” May joked. She was happy to see Peter so happy but it kinda hurt because Tony was the reason behind that smile.

“Ony! When come ba’k?” Peter asked as he moved the phone down so he could see Tony Bette now and Tony could now see him better.

“Your Aunt is gonna take care of you until you’re big now, bud” Tony explained with a sad voice.

May popped into the screen “I’m gonna let you guys talk. Tony can you get him to let me change him”

“Sure thing” Tony said and then May left.

Peter seemed to have set the phone down on a pillow or something because Tony could see him a lot better. Peter put his thumb in his mouth as he stared at Tony.

“Pete, buddy. You gotta let your Aunt change your diaper because otherwise it’s gonna start to hurt and you’ll get a rash” Tony explained. He just wanted to be there with Peter right now.

Peter shook his head with his thumb still in his mouth “Wan’ you to cha’ge me”

“I can’t hear you, bud” Tony said “Take your thumb out of your mouth”

Peter didn’t listen to Tony as he continued to suck his thumb and stare at Tony. Tony found it kinda cute but it was heartbreaking to see Peter.

“When you comin’ to ge’ me?” Peter asked sadly around his thumb “I miss ‘Ony”

Tony felt his heart sink. If only it was up to him “I miss you too, bud. So much”

“‘Hen com’ ge’ me” Peter said around his thumb and Tony had a hard time understanding him.

“I can’t come get you, Peter. Your Aunt is gonna take care of you now and you gotta let her change you” Tony explained sadly. If he could he would come right now to take Peter home with him.

Peter crossed his arms and sat up more in the bed so Tony could see that he was in fact just wearing his shirt and a diaper.

“Peter, please. We don’t want you to get a rash, buddy” Tony looked at Peter’s face through the screen and saw that he looked extremely tired and sad. It was hard to see Peter like that and not be able to help him or hold him which Tony wanted so badly to do right now.

Peter didn’t say anything for a few seconds and then he took his thumb out of his mouth and wiped his eyes “I wan’ you, ‘Ony. Pwease”

Tony shook his head sadly. He didn’t know what else to say because this wasn’t his doing. It was May’s choice and he didn’t have a say in anything that happens to Peter. He was lucky enough that May even let him see Peter for the times he did.

May walked into the bedroom and sat down on the bed. She looked towards Peter who had put his thumb back in his mouth and was staring between Tony on the camera and May.

“Will you let me change your diaper now?” May asked and Tony could hear that she sounded annoyed.

Peter slowly shook his head but whether or not Peter was gonna let her or not she had to do it.

Tony heard May sigh as she went into the camera and grabbed the diaper from the bed and grabbed Peter so that he was lying on his back.

Peter whined and tried to roll away again but May held him down. Tony didn’t know if he should hang up because he didn’t wanna watch May change Peter’s diaper but he didn’t want to have to say goodbye again.

Tony saw Peter try and reach out for him through the screen and it broke Tony’s heart how he couldn’t reach back towards him and hold his kid.

“Peter! I’m going to change your diaper so you need to stop squirming around or you’re gonna make this harder for both of us” May snapped and Peter froze “I don’t care if you’re embarrassed about me seeing you naked if you’re aware of what’s going on in your teenage mind but I’m doing this whether you like it or not”

Peter started crying and stuck his thumb in his mouth to try and stop crying. Tony could see that he was actually trying to stop crying but it was really working.

May undid the diaper straps and quickly cleaned Peter up before putting a clean diaper on. The whole time Peter watched her with his thumb in his mouth as he tried desperately to stop crying. He glanced up at Tony after on the screen and reached out for him with the hand that wasn’t in his mouth.

May picked up the phone and Tony could see that she looked annoyed and exhausted as she walked away from the bedroom with a high pitched scream and a cry from behind her.

May sat on the couch in the living room and held the phone with one hand and put her head in her hands with the other. She took a few seconds to start talking so Tony spoke up first.

“Let me take him, May” Tony said before he really had a chance to think about what he was saying.

May lifted her head up from her hand and shook her head “No, Tony. I know you want him with you but I think it’ll be better if he stays with me”

Tony didn’t understand why May was thinking this. It made no sense. He could literally hear Peter crying for him right now “No offence, May, but Peter is crying for me right now so I think we should make the right decision here and let me take care of him”

May looked shocked at what Tony just said and Tony immediately regretted it. He shouldn’t have said that to the woman who could say whether or not he sees Peter ever again. May had been so nice in the beginning handing her fifteen year old nephew off to hang out with a strange man that she really knew nothing about when Tony could have done anything he wanted to Peter and May put that trust in him. Tony would never ever do anything like that to ever hurt Peter but at first May didn’t know that and so she trusted Tony with her nephew and Tony was forever grateful for that.

So he had been lucky that May even let Peter hang out with him to begin with and now he had just said that to May. He felt awful. He felt like a horrible person and maybe this is why he shouldn’t have Peter.

Tony looked into Mays eyes through the screen and he just waited for her to lash out on him “Excuse me! Who was the one who even let you see Peter to begin with, I was. I could have stopped Peter from seeing you right after he first went to your house but I didn’t because he was so happy and bouncing around talking about when he’s gonna see you next. I never stopped him from going because he latched onto you just like he latches onto any male figure that you put in front of him and he needed that but maybe I should have stopped it from the beginning, maybe-maybe I should have never let my baby have lab days with you then maybe... maybe he wouldn’t be a fucking baby right now!”

May ended her rant and Tony was speechless. He had no idea what to say because he didn’t expect May to explode so bad.

May continued “You know what, Tony, it’s done. This is done! No more seeing Peter! You get him back to a kid again and you’re done, no more lab visits or movie nights, it’s all over. You’re done with Peter!”

At that May hung up the phone and put her head in her hands again. She heard Peter still crying so she really hoped Peter didn’t hear any of that.

She knew she was horrible for everything she said but she meant every word of it.

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Tony shut his computer screen off from where he was on FaceTime with May in the lab.

The whole conversation ran through his head again and again and again.

It made him sick.

He felt sick.

How could it be over? How could he just never be able to see Peter again?

It wasn’t fair. He got something in his life that he loved more than anything and now it was gone. It was gone just like that.