Resurrection

Chapter-19

Loki was never a heavy sleeper. The faintest noises would wake him up. So it wasn’t a surprise when he felt the bed jostling that he woke up from the slumber. But what surprised him was a gentle touch in the face and a kiss in his cheeks like the owner of the lips didn’t want him to wake up. So he drew a breath and pretended to be asleep.

Tony didn’t mean to be awake but when soft hair brushed his face he woke up only to see Loki still spooning him, his lips barely inches away from Tony’s neck still asleep. He marvelled at the sleeping God. Loki was once the destroyer of their world, ruthless and ready to kill anyone. There were theories (truth) that his mind was controlled. Maybe he was a victim but his little stunt with brother’s coronation, the lies upon lies to cover it, near destruction of blue jellybean planets, all pointed towards one thing, Loki was ruthless and would find his ends anyhow. The only person who knew that the soft looks projecting could be a well-practiced poker face was Strange. He was weary of the moment Loki would snap.

Yet, in the first rays of morning, Tony couldn’t find any of those evilness. Did this thousand year old guy know that there were many who counted on him? Did he know that if he let others, they would love him?

Suddenly tony wanted to kiss him, welcome him to his strange family. At that moment, he didn’t think for a second that Peter would object to it. He started with a simple kiss in the cheeks and then couldn’t stop there, kissing both cheeks, he moved to the forehead. Then travel down to both eyes, kissing those sharp pointed nose, he moved to those thin lips. So thin it disappeared with his upper lips pressed it. Yet he couldn’t stop kissing it two more times. He kept moving further, slowly unbuttoning the shirt of his that he had lent. Deep red. He had meant it as a joke, but God didn’t Loki look as handsome as ever. He played with his nipples for sometimes, placing kisses on both of them and sucking them lightly so not to wake up the resident God. Then kissed the belly button. It was when he was trying to undo the pants that he felt firm hands on his shoulders. Looking up, he saw Loki arching up his neck to stare at him. He shook his head to show a ‘NO’. Loki wasn’t ready for that but he didn’t show any intention of pushing away Tony. So tony moved up meeting those gorgeous green eyes that were slowly turning to black with desire.

Then he simple ducked down and took Loki’s face in his hand and kissed him. Unlike yesterday it wasn’t slow. This was want. Desire. Within seconds there were wet noises filling up the room, both Loki and Tony were fighting for dominance. The kiss was so needy, lustful. Tongue fighting tongue. In the end they had to stop to taking a breath but Tony didn’t stop instead he pinched the nipples, diving right back for Loki’s lips. Loki kissed him for minute but suddenly pushed him down to his chest clearly asking to bite the nipples and Tony was happy to do it. He kept kissing and biting it harshly. The sensation of pain and pleasure was making Loki shiver, his toes curled as he was chasing for what not what, he was trailing his hand unconsciously towards Tony’s pants when he heard a whisper in his ear-

“When you are ready, I need you inside me Lokes”

That broke the trance. Loki suddenly pushed him away panting and stared at the deep brown eyes. He couldn’t help but turn right to see the still sleeping form of Peter. He flinched looking at it. Tony could see the guilt in Loki’s eyes. Funny he never thought Loki would feel guilty about it. Again he didn’t know that Loki was sensitive. He slowly tried to grab Loki’s hand but Loki swatted it away and stared at him.

“Tony” he heard Peter’s soft voice still laced with sleepiness.

Then was the last straw, with a poof Loki vanished.

Tony sighed.

“Was that the Loki in our room?” Peter asked.

“Yep”.

“That’s it? He was just here?” Peter asked blank faced.

“No, we kissed” Tony answered truthfully judging the reactions.

Peter stared at the ceiling and tony could see from here Peter trying to solve the puzzles and he prayed for anything but self-loathing. The kid never had much of confidence. Always trying to put himself down. This was the kid who fucking solved the pass code of the highest security room with a simple calculator (Karen totally ratted him out to Tony). But still the kid thought Tony was genius. He thought that he was some weird kid from Queens who had no one to look after. So anything but self-loathing Tony would take.

“Pete, I swear I wasn’t cheating on u. I…”

“I know.” Peter cut off Tony’s rambling –“or rather I have an idea of it”.

“Yeah?”

“You need to explain it to me eventually”.

“Eventually?”

“Yeah because now I am hungry” Peter answered trying to get up.

“Are you okay?” Tony asked puzzled.

“Do you want me to answer that?” Peter replied mockingly.

“After we eat?” Tony asked trying to gather the thoughts.

“Yes. After we eat”.

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They moved into the kitchen without any further conversation but holding their hands. Peter was squeezing Tony’s hand as if he was trying to ground himself.

“Would pancakes do?” Tony asked breaking the momentum.

Peter just nodded and sat across the table watching Tony work.

“How’s your friend? Ned, was it?” Tony asked conversationally as he was preparing the batter.

“I think he is okay” Peter answered a little disorientated by the turn of topic.

“You think?” Tony asked amused.

“Yeah, I mean after I moved to college, we couldn’t keep much contact. There were always timing issues and then I had shifts in the café, so by the time I came back there was no energy left to call him. We used to chat though just to you know… be aware of happenings with each other.”

“How about your aunt, Pete?”

“Yeah I visited her during the Christmas time and she said that she was dating Happy. And then yeah she is happy. Went for a trip or something during that time. We do call once in a week or something.”

Tony was silent. Peter thought that the news of Mr Happy dating would make Tony happy but his expression was far from happiness or witty comebacks.

“Pete?” – Tony called a little broken “There really was no one to look after you, was there?” He asked his voice wrecking with sobs and hugged the kid so hard. He thought, he thought that the ever happy kid would find a purpose to live. But no, the kid was so broken.

“Shhh... Tony that was in the past remember, you are here. You won’t leave me, right?”

“No, kid… Never. I love you so much. I will never try to hurt you again. Tell me what to do, what should I do?” Tony asked tears rolling.

“Be with me, stay with me Tony.  And don’t hide from me. Don’t. We always had something that we hid within ourselves. Not anymore. Promise me.”

“I promise kid. I promise.” He answered.

Pete just soothed Tony and he knew that there were still things to talk over but one thing at a time. “Tony, do you love Loki?”

That startled Tony-“I… I don’t know Pete. He is so lonely and he takes care of us. And he is handsome. Not that anything is wrong with you but I mean… he fits with us so perfectly. I don’t know Pete. Of course I won’t hurt you…I swear” Tony was shaking. When he had kissed Loki he had no doubt that Peter would be okay with having him in the relationship. But Peter loved him. Not Loki. Jesus he had already ruined this relationship. Like always. Like every single time.

“Tony. Tony .TONY!” Peter asked seeing the flames in Tony’s hand.

“I love him, Tony” Peter whispered.

“What?” Tony asked still feeling nauseous.

“I love Loki” Peter answered and gestured Tony to let him speak further “I mean, I knew I was attracted to Loki. He had helped me far better than anyone during these past days and Loki always took care of me so fondly, at times I used to feel than even Loki was attracted to me but then it would soon turn to motherly intentions. Or that’s what I felt. But I never thought about it because I was busy with you. And of course I didn’t want to hurt you. But then today I saw him sleeping with us and I wanted to kiss him but of course you beat me to it. I should have felt disgusted or angry. But I thought it was Hot. And I could see how much he was holding back and how much you liked him. So, I was confused but then Loki touched my arms and you did too. Not that you both noticed, you were too consumed.”

“What do you mean we touched you?” Tony asked surprise colouring his face.

“Well, you both were holding my hands while you were kissing. Why do you think I woke up?” Peter asked with a smirk.

“I am sorry. I swear I wasn’t cheating” Tony said his eyes again filling with tears.

“I know. Remember I said I love him too. I don’t know how that’s going to be. But I would like him to be there for us”.

“I think I spooked him” Tony answered a bit sheepishly still voice shaking.

“I bet you did. I am hoping he is still in Norway.”

“Of course he will be” Tony scoffed folding his arms.

“No he might have gone to Vanheim and let’s hope he didn’t teleport there”.

“Why is that?” Tony asked skeptical.

“Well, if he is in Vanheim, then you need the help of Mr Strange. Good luck explaining the reason to him” Peter answered gleefully.

“Oh well fuck me”. Tony exclaimed pitifully.