Something Missing
Steve had returned to the Tower Monday morning after some recon in Europe. He spent that first night back in the upper-level room he'd been sharing with Bucky before Bucky moved to his apartment and Steve left on the mission. He hadn't had the mental energy to move everything back down to his room, though he had packed up his things, until the next day. It was Tuesday and he finally entered his real room for the first time since the day after Halloween when he came to get his go-bag.
As he walked into his bedroom, he got that feeling again. Just like the last time, like he was forgetting something. It had been just over three weeks away from his room and the feeling hadn't changed. It was a strange sensation, it made his fingers twitch and his head feel just ever so slightly off-kilter. He really needed to figure out what the hell was happening around the Tower. His heart still ached daily, and without Bucky there to focus on, his mind kept jumping back to Darcy. The texts from a week ago particularly kept gnawing at his brain. It sounded like she'd experienced some pretty strange sensations that night, among the most notable sounding of all the people at the party, along with his own, and a handful of others. Steve wondered why them.
Putting himself to the task of unpacking his things did nothing to quiet his head. The other thing he couldn't stop thinking about was her wanting to come to talk to him. First of all, he'd thought she was away with Jane, so the notion that she was still here and able to just drop by to see him surprised him, and second, he was still terrified to talk to her when he didn't know what happened at the Halloween party. Even after he'd basically told her he didn't remember anything, he wasn't sure how to have a conversation without knowing everything he'd said that night. The security footage looked innocuous enough, but it was from a distance, and Jarvis was unable to tell him what was said. Especially since Steve got a weird sense from Darcy's texts that she was holding something back. Had he said something stupid? Was she upset with him? Steve wanted to be able to make everything right with her, especially when he'd already screwed up by not simply saying yes when she'd asked him out in the first place. If he knew what he'd done and said, then he might be able to go about making it right. But he also desperately wanted to see her, and talk to her, and try to fix things.
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That night, Steve was finding getting to sleep a very difficult thing to do. Just being in his bedroom, or even the living room, had him unable to shake the feeling he was forgetting something. He had forgotten Halloween, was that part of it? He wondered if it was connected since he'd felt this same sensation the next day before he left with Sam. But why was the sensation in his room? He didn't notice the feeling other places. Sitting up in bed, the clock told him he'd been shifting for over an hour, trying to find rest.
After flopping back and turning several more times, sleep finally snagged him, but not for long. Steve woke in a sweat, pulse-pounding, with the lingering sensation of Darcy. For a moment as he left sleep he could smell the light scent from her hair and felt like he could feel her skin on his. Steve pressed his fingertips to his temples, trying to clear his mind. The serum allowed him peak performance on much less sleep than the normal human, but barely an hour was not ideal, even for him. Given this madness lately with Halloween, and tracking down Bucky, he was definitely going to need more rest, but he needed his mind to stop gnawing at him, and it would definitely help if he wasn't fully aroused at the moment either.
He was definitely getting Sam up in the morning to walk through what happened at the party with him. And maybe take a look at the footage. Maybe a clearer set of eyes would see something he hadn't. Steve's vision was fine, but his mind was definitely all turned around. More and more he felt like there was something about Darcy at Halloween, that what he felt like he was forgetting had to do with her and he needed to know what.