mama spider
Natasha didn't know what to do for the most part after she nearly fought the Winter Soldier and then got shot right in the heart.
She didn't have time to pray to be in the same afterlife as her kid as she sees a stroller. Squatting and running, Natasha gets to the stroller and turns it to reveal a baby girl. She was sleeping amidst the chaos with her stuffed puppy. Unbuckling her seatbelt, She puts the baby on her left hip and looks around.
Steve was fighting the Winter Soldier and ripped his mask off. She could hear a distant, "Bucky?" But she said nothing as the baby girl woke up and looked around in wonder before letting out a wail.
The Winter Soldier (Bucky?) looked towards Natasha and was prepared to shoot at Natasha before The Falcon saved both of them. Natasha turns her attention to the child and rocked her slowly, trying not to dirty her with the blood that she was spilling. "I know, I know, it must be scary kid," She soothes, "But we're gonna get through this, I know it."
And that's when they arrived. They rushed Natasha to Steve and tried to take the baby, but Natasha wasn't going to give the baby so easily.
So, just like for Peter, Natasha fought for the baby. Despite her nasty conditions.
She didn't have the time to win or lose as she hears Rumlow say, "Not here." And the guns were dropped as the trio plus the baby was escorted into the van.
-
"He looked right at me like he didn't even know me." Steve slumps with a frown.
"Steve, I'm bleeding," Natasha says with nonchalance, "I hate to break your pity party big guy but I'm bleeding and I have a little baby who has no name."
Sam and Steve now noticed the baby who was playing with her stuffed animal. "Give her a name," Sam whispers, "How hard it can be?"
And Natasha tears up.
She remembers naming Peter and not even getting to hold him. She remembers reading the news about her Peter being dead in a plane crash that smelled nothing but fishy. Now, she's holding someone else's baby who must've had a name for the girl. "I dunno about naming her." Natasha murmurs and the baby turns to Natasha. She smiles for the girl. The girl lets a smile of her own.
Natasha is thankful that baby's don't have the slightest comprehension of what's going on around the world.
"Can we make a pit stop?" Sam asks a Hydra agent, and Natasha rolls her eyes with a fond smile, "Not only is she bleeding but she has a baby in her arms and I'm pretty sure the parents are looking for her."
Whatever happened went by quick as one of the Hydra agents neutralizes the other with a baton and knocks him out. All Natasha could see was Maria Hill herself and she looks at the trio. "Two new people?"
"Don't ask." Natasha murmurs and yawns, before laying down.
"Nat!" Was all Natasha hears before knocking out.
-
"Mama! Mama!" What Natasha can assume is her baby prince, Peter.
Peter looked different from when she first saw her newborn. He had bouncy curls, his eyes shining like he has seen something unbelievable, His body lanky and he had bandaids on his knees.
Natasha smiles and gives her kid a number of kisses as Peter begs for her to stop with a giggle. "I love you, my little spider." She says fondly and cups his cheeks.
Peter leaned in to her touch and that's where the nightmare begins.
Instead of a smiling Peter, His smile was coated with blood as he coughs it up to Natasha. Natasha always panics as her clean hand turns into a bloodied hand, "Pete!" She shouts, starting to sob as Peter always... ALWAYS falls into her arms and has difficulty breathing.
"Mama..." Peter mutters, starting to die and Natasha's sob grew. "Why-- Why did you let m...me die?"
"I didn't!" Natasha exclaims, holding Peter close, "I would never let you die, baby!"
Peter takes his last breath.
And so does Natasha.
-
Natasha was woken up by a slap.
The hand was anything but big. In fact, it was a baby-sized hand. Natasha opens her eyes and sees the baby girl she picked up earlier. Smiling at the girl, She sits up and puts the girl on her left leg, noticing her wound was fixed and bandaged.
"Who's Pete?" It was from Sam.
Natasha smiles bitterly, "Someone I'll never know."
Sam walks over and rubs her back. A comforting sign. "Was he close?" Sam asks as he lets his hand go to the girl.
He was my kid. But was he even mine? "I guess so, yeah." She replies, looking down at the girl who was chewing on her own hand.
"Did you feed her?" She asks, "And change her diaper?" Natasha turns the baby around and saw a clean diaper. A sigh of relief as she won't get those painful rashes.
Sam nods, "We found her family, too."
Natasha raises her eyebrow, "Really?"
"Yeah, her name is Delphine Willows," Sam says, "Child of Nila Willows and Athena Willows."
"When are we planning to give her back?"
"I dunno, but Fury says you should do it. Something about the experience?" Sam questions and Natasha's demeanor changed. She hands the baby to Sam.
-
"How do you know?" Natasha asks Fury.
"I'm fine, thanks for asking." Fury says with a grumble as he sits up, "Hill, Doc." And without protest, they both leave.
"How do you know?!" Natasha asks again, grabbing a knife and her eyes blurry.
Fury looks at Natasha with pity and she hates it, "Background checks." Fury replies, "I looked into it and your kid died at three."
Natasha breathes. She feels like losing it. With her nightmare and the sudden reminder of her child that she could never get, Natasha wanted to cry again and throw things. But she didn't. Instead, she lets her head hit Fury's chest and let Fury hug her.
"I loved him, y' know." Natasha finally says, "It was either him or me and I would gladly choose him because I would like to think that if he grew up, his own hands not being stained with another person's blood like mine. If he lived, I would've never got involved with this avenger stuff as I can't imagine not coming home to my baby boy." But he didn't come home to me.
Fury thinks for a moment. He always does. "The reason he's dead is the reason you joined the Avengers. You want someone else's kid to come home the day that they're in danger, right?"
Natasha nods.
"I think your boy would be proud of the woman you became, Natasha," Fury states with utmost confidence, "You may have been an assassin but now you're an Avenger. You and Tony are the stories of turning a life around and if your boy was alive to see that, He would use both of your stories to influence others and himself. You may have blood on your hands, but you're wiping it."
Natasha sighs. She can only hope that wherever Peter was, he'd be proud of his mother.
-
She drops off the baby to her mothers.
"I'm sorry that it took a while, but rest assured, She was under the best care," Natasha says with a smile.
They were happy to have their baby back.
She said goodbye to them and gave the baby a pat on the head.
It was bittersweet, Natasha thinks. That many people can get the ending Natasha wants but her.
-
"I'm sorry," Natasha says, taking off her disguise. Sounding cocky she resumes, "Did I step on your moment?"
Everyone was shocked, but Natasha couldn't care as she knew what she had to do. She walks to the computer and starts typing.
Councilman Rockwell asks, "What are you doing?"
Letting the world know how fucked up our government agency is.
Pierce replies for Natasha, "She's disabling security protocols and dumping all the secrets onto the Internet."
"Don't forget Hydra's." Natasha points out, staring at Pierce.
"And SHIELD's." Pierce also points out, " If you do this, none of your past is gonna remain hidden," Natasha looks up, face blank. "Are you ready for the world to see who you really are?"
Pierce had no idea her world would never know who she was. And that was fine. Her other world (the Avengers) knew who she was before she became one of them. And that was fine. She wouldn't tell him. "Are you?" She asks and continues to type.
And after five minutes, She hits the final pass.
"Disabling encryption requires two Alpha members. It's the executive order." Pierce says.
"Don't worry," Natasha looks up and tilts her head, "Company's on the way."
And on cue, Natasha saw Fury.
"Your flowers are shit, Sunflowers are my favorite." Fury replies to Pierce's question.
As they were talking, Natasha looks around and waves to the other councilmen and women.
"... Nick if you have the courage, take it."
"No, I have the courage not to." And with that, Fury drags the old man to the retinal scanner and as a backup, Natasha points a gun at him.
"Retinal scanner active."
Alexander looks at him as if he was a fool, "You don't think we wiped out your clearance, do you?"
Fury gives him a belly laugh. That made Natasha smile slightly. "I know you erased my password. Deleted my retinal scan. But, if you want to be ahead of me, Mr. Secretary..." Fury takes off his eyepatch and reveals his scarred, dead eye. "You gotta keep both eyes open."
That's so cool. Natasha thought to herself as she watches a former friend of Fury give in and put their eyes to the retinal scanner.
And within five minutes, Natasha notices Pierce looking out at his helicarriers falling. A defeated Pierce says, "What a waste."
Natasha shrugs, "Still on the fence about Roger's chances?"
Pierce ignores her, "Come on councilwoman, you're my ticket out of here. Or do you want a violent shock that can kill you?"
Natasha walks with the man.
"You know, there was a time in my life where I would've taken a bullet for you." Fury tries to stop him.
"You did. And you will again when it's useful." Pierce says and Natasha had a split second thought.
I think your boy would be proud of the woman you became,
Natasha activates the disc and gives herself a shock and that disables the pin. Fury shoots his old friend twice and Natasha went unconscious.
Fury woke her up.
And they were on their way to the helicopter.
Fury and Natasha both saved Sam. Sam complained about them barely catching him.
"Let it go, Sam," She humors, "You're alive."
"But at what cost?" He jokes and Natasha thinks to herself:
Peter would be proud of his mother.
-
Natasha is sworn into the committee. She could nothing about it as the process of leaking HYDRA and her long history resulted in this. But she could care less. They won't arrest an avenger. So, all she had to do was show up and speak nicely.
She did one of the two.
As she nears the end, she decides to go all out, "You're not gonna put me in prison. You're not going to put any of us in prison." She starts, a smirk gracing her face, "Want to know why?"
"Do enlighten us, Agent Romanoff."
And she does, "Because you need us. Yes, the world is a vulnerable place and yes we helped make it that way. But we're also the best qualified to defend it. So if you wish to arrest me, You're free to do just that. You'll know where to find me."
To finish it off, Natasha stands and takes her leave.
Peter would be proud.
So, Natasha would be proud too.