Chapter 15
Bucky
Bucky didn't like the idea of staying behind till the intel arrived. He watched the man who had insanely familiar big blue eyes, pink lips and creamy skin walk in to the water and disappear. He looked back several times at bucky.
He was completely unbothered by his lack of clothing after turned into human form. Not like there was anything to change into.
Bucky is also used to the nudity for easier inspection and medical attention. Asset was not supposed to be bothered by those kinds of things. Now that he thinks of it hydra treated him like an object without a dignity. Something inferior. A weapon.
Weapons fire on command. They made him do a lot of things. He never questioned them. He did not have free will. When he thinks back he can't see the actual purpose of things he did. He did enough killing to turn the white sand in front of him into red.
The man asked whether he wanted to go back to hydra. He could not come up with a proper answer. But hydra is cruel. He doesn't want to be their weapon again. He never thought about not being something other than the asset or about a time before he was an asset.
But the man said he had a name, a family. He was someone before hydra. Bucky knows he wasn't lying because he can detect a lie. Steve never lied. Steve always did the right thing. Steve doesn't like bullies.
S T E V E
Steve
The name came to his mind as easy as breathing. It was always there. Steve owns a place in buckys mind far deeper than hydra ever reached. That's why he started to remember things.
He remembers Steve in a tiny frame. Pacing back and forth in front of a radio looking furious. "they can't just go ahead and start killing people" he is saying.
He remembers Steve with the body he has now with his hand around bucky's shoulder.
Steve charging towards enemy troops. They fought bad people back then. Was it hydra they fought? Why did bucky join hydra then?. Was he forced to follow them?
Steve looked so sad and angry when he heard about hydra. He doesn't like when others get hurt. He cares about people even though he isn't careful himself.
Bucky feels worried about Steve. Though he told about all the possible surveillance equipment Helicarrier might have some memory says Steve doesn't know about those kind of latest technology. What if he fails to avoid being detected.
Bucky can't go there and help as he cannot hide under water.
Bucky always watched his six. Protected him. Bucky felt helpless now no longer being able to do that.
Even if they get caught he will stay.
They will never abandon each other