Elastic Heart
Bucky was asleep, his chest rising and dropping as he breathed. Steve couldn't stop looking at Bucky, probing himself on his elbow, caressing his stomach with his free hand. It was finally happening. He loved Bucky so much. He remembers being fourteen again.
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They had been friends for almost a decade when Bucky kissed Steve for the first time when they were fourteen years old. Steve's father had just died. His mother was grieving. Steve was grieving. Bucky knew the pain of losing a father at a young age. He wanted to comfort Steve. He has loved Steve for years now and the only way he could think of was a kiss. They paused for a few seconds and Steve kissed back. They didn't stop kissing. They were in Steve's room. Bucky gently pushed Steve down on his bed and continued kissing. All he ever wanted to do was making Steve feel good. He always wanted to protect him. Before they could do any more, they heard Steve's mother come in and they pulled away.
The very next week, Steve presented as an Omega and Bucky presented as an Alpha. They had the funeral for Steve's father and they moved on. It took time for his mother to finally move on since it wasn't just a husband she lost; she lost her bonded mate. Steve missed his father but he was glad he presented after his death. God knows what would have happened if Joseph Rogers found out his son was an Omega. It was hard enough that Steve was sickly but an Omega too? Steve pushed it out of his mind. All he could think about was Bucky and his sweet kisses.
"You doing okay?" Bucky asked one day.
"Yeah." Steve muttered.
"How's your ma?"
"She's doing good."
"And you?"
"I'm doing good too."
Bucky leaned in close and lift Steve's chin to kiss him so sweet.
"Buck." Steve sighed.
Bucky kissed his mouth, his jaw, under his chin, his throat and finally, his..
Steve pulled away when Bucky started to kiss at his neck. He wanted Bucky but he didn't want that. God, he swore to himself that he'd never bond.
"Steve, I'm sorry." Bucky stumbled over his words.
"It's not you." Steve stopped him. "It's me."
"God, that has been used too many times."
"I'm sorry. I want to but it's just.."
"What is it?"
"I don't want to be in the same spot as my ma."
Steve has never been ashamed of being an omega. Just like his ma. But this was different.
"Okay" Bucky asked.
"Okay." Steve said.
They didn't bring it up again for a few months. Bucky continued to pursue Steve and Steve continued to melt in their kissing. Steve had loved Bucky before they knew what it was but he has been in love with Bucky since that first kiss. They were fourteen. People say that's too young to know love but Steve knew. Maybe it was the Omega in him wanting to bond with the Alpha in Bucky. Maybe it was just Steven Grant Rogers loving James Buchanan Barnes. Or maybe it was just Stevie being a punk and Bucky being a jerk.
Steve had invited Bucky to spend the night at his house one night. It was one of those nights where his ma would be working all night. Bucky agreed. He was in love with Steve. He's loved Steve for a long time but he knew he was in love when he kissed Steve for the first time.
"Will you let me?" Bucky breathed into Steve's mouth as they kissed.
"Anything." Steve gasped. "I'll let you do anything."
They were going to lose their virginities to each other. Steve presented himself to Bucky. Spreading his hole to Bucky. Arching his thing back. Pressing his face against the pillow. Bucky had convinced one of the neighborhood kids to lend him a few condoms. He was nervous. He was going to fuck Steve finally. He prepared Steve and awkwardly pushed his cock into Steve. He froze when he heard Steve screamed. He tried to stop but Steve's begging was music to his ears. He gently held Steve's hips as he began to slowly thrust. Steve threw his head back as Bucky sped up. Bucky pressed his body against Steve's back. He could smell Steve's sweet aroma. He mouthed the back of Steve's neck as he began to go deeper. Steve tensed when he felt Bucky's mouth on his neck. Bucky didn't notice. He was so devoured by pleasure. He was drowning in how good Steve felt and smelled. Steve felt his teeth and...
"NO!" Steve screamed, pulling away from Bucky.
Bucky pulled out of Steve and Steve curled into a fetal position. He felt Bucky's teeth on his neck. He didn't want that.
"Stevie, did I hurt you?" Bucky rushed to his side. "God, did I hurt you?"
"No." Steve held himself.
"Tell me."
"You were going to bite me."
"Oh.."
"I don't want to bond. Especially if you turn into my dad."
"I know, Steve but what does your dad have anything to do with this?"
Bucky didn't understand.
"Steve, what's wrong?" Bucky pushed.
"Don't hurt me." Steve cried.
It clicked. And god, Bucky was angry. Steve looked up and saw the rage. Without thinking, Steve raised his arms to protect himself, making Bucky even angrier.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Bucky asked, trying to keep calm.
"I-I-" Steve was sobbing now.
"Don't you trust me?"
"I do."
"Then why didn't you tell me your dad beat you and your ma?"
"How do you talk about that?"
Bucky gently grabbed Steve's hands and pulled his arms away from his face. Bucky was angry still but he was looking more gentle. God..
"I love you, Steve." Bucky said.
"Do you?" Steve's eyes widened.
"You don't need to say it back and I know we're fourteen but god, I love you so much. I have for years. But I've been in love with you since the day I decided to kiss you."
"I loved you for a long time and I've been in love since you kissed me."
Bucky kissed Steve.
"We don't have to bond." Bucky sighed.
"I know you want to. I can smell it." Steve whispered.
"As long as you'll love me, it doesn't matter."
"Okay."
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It was a while but eventually, they finally bonded. On Bucky's fifteenth birthday. Steve opened himself to Bucky and let Bucky do whatever he wanted. When Bucky was going to release inside of him, Steve presented his neck and begged. Bucky was uncertain at first but finally dug his teeth into the back of Steve's neck, making them both come hard. He hated himself for letting his father ruin the thought of bonding. Because it's been a dream ever since.
"Steve?" Bucky yawned.
"Hey." Steve laid his head on Bucky's chest. "Go to sleep."
"Why are you awake? Is it the pups?"
"I'm not that far along, Buck."
"You have the morning sickness though."
"I'm fine. Just thinking."
"About what?"
"When we were fourteen. And then your fifteenth birthday."
Bucky smiled. He remembered. He shifted and hovered over Steve.
"How about you remind me?" Bucky smirked. "I seemed to have forgotten."
"Lucky for you, I still remember." Steve smiled big.