Chapter 1
Rhaenyra looked up at Alicent with her big purple eyes, "So... you're... into this stuff?" She looked back down at her phone, seeing a large woman being fed by another smaller— but still fat— woman.
Alicent didn't look up, she simply nodded. The shame on her face was so clear for Rhaenyra to see, it was a touchy subject for Alicent.
Rhaenyra laughed shortly, but cut herself off as she realized that her mouth was still slightly agape.
Alicent groaned in frustration and hid her head under her pillow.
Rhaenyra realized what her unconscious reaction had done, "No no no, I wasn't laughing— eh, well, I was... but I swear, my little dove, I wasn't laughing at you, I was... this is just very new to me, and... out of the norm. I'm surprised, is all... nervous laughter." She felt that if she'd explained it to Alicent, the awkward mood would lift, and the unbearable urge to cringe at her own reaction would cease pressing down on her.
Alicent shook quietly. She was crying.
Rhaenyra sat down beside her and took the smaller girl up in her arms. "Allie... you don't need to be ashamed of anything you feel..."
"All my life, I've been made fun of if I dated anyone who was... bigger... and especially if it was a woman. My father... my brother... they were never quite kind about my choice of romantic partner. Even about you, they—"
Rhaenyra cut her off with a twisted, disgusted look. The look wasn't aimed at Alicent, and she knew. Rhaenyra would never look at Alicent like that. "I know. I know what they say about me, my love." Rhaenyra said, with a hint of venom in her voice. "Trust me, I hear it all." She hissed.
Alicent sighed, "I'm sorry..." She went in for a kiss, but Rhaenyra's hand rested on her chest.
"Don't be sorry. Nothing you've done warrants being sorry." Rhaenyra's voice was warm and gentle. "I'll tell you when you make a mistake. That's what friends do..." she gave Alicent a gentle kiss on the lips, "... and that's what... we do." Rhaenyra never said the words 'girlfriend' or 'partner' all that often, as they were words with weight and meaning that if she assigned her relationship to, suddenly Alicent was no longer her best friend, but her girlfriend. It was too soon for that... but Rhaenyra knew Alicent would want to make it official soon, even after only a month. The undeniable truth was that Rhaenyra wanted nothing more than to make it official, but she was fighting the urge not to beg Alicent to remain friends, so they'd never risk breaking up. Most of Rhaenyra knew that was already a long-gone possibility, and she liked that, despite her fear.
Alicent smiled and returned the kiss, feeling at ease for the first time in a while.
She cherished it, and gave Rhaenyra a delicate kiss on the cheek, "So, I wanted to discuss it, so you didn't think I was a freak."
Rhaenyra's eyebrows knitted in confusion. "I don't... think you're a freak at all. It's a little odd, sure... but... not a freak, no."
Alicent nodded softly, "Thank you. I think I just needed to hear it from you." She said, her entire being starting to loosen and relax.
Rhaenyra smiled softly, "So... you want to explain to me what it is you like about this... sort of thing?"
Alicent nodded, "Well... I like the idea of..." her cheeks turned hot red once again, "I like the idea of feeding someone, helping them get... heavier." The words felt stuck in her mouth.
Rhaenyra felt her own cheeks heat up at the thought, "I... I see." She nodded, trying to fight the urge to press for more information.
Alicent stiffened. "No...?" She asked, hesitantly.
Rhaenyra gave her a one-shoulder shrug, "I... we'll talk about it." She said, trying to digest all the information she'd been fed, pun intended, by Alicent.
Alicent felt a little jolt of cringe rocket up her back, and she giggled that kind of nervous giggle when you stutter during a public speech.
"Of course, I... didn't expect you to turn around with an answer immediately."
Rhaenyra gave her a gentle kiss on the forehead and sunk into her thoughts, wondering what she'd look like if she did agree to allow Alicent to make her... bigger. It kind of excited her, all things considered.