I Still Wanna Be Your Favorite Boy

October 14

The crackle of thunder woke Bucky, making the arms wrapped around him jump.

He heard Steve inhale in his ear, the Alpha’s face still pressed to his neck, where he once slept peacefully with the scent of Bucky in his nose.

“Mmm, what time is it?” Steve asked, his legs stretching out.

Bucky slowly sat up, feelings the Alpha’s arms slip off his waist. He reached over Steve to his bag on the floor, fiddling with a pocket until he found his phone.

He groaned. “7:54 and I have a missed call from both my parents.”

He wiped a hand down his face, trying to smear the sleep from his eyes. Steve’s hands returned to his hips, this time helping the Omega to stand.

“Come on, Buck. I’ll give you a ride, I’m sure they won’t be too mad. Just tell them we were studying and fell asleep.”

When they were both standing, Bucky’s face to Steve chin, the Alpha leaned down to wrap his arms around Bucky’s shoulder. The Omega sighed, content to rest his nose in Steve’s scent.

“You know,” Bucky began. “You’re gonna have to wear that sweatshirt again soon, that way your scent stays on it.”

Steve pulled back, walking towards his closet and grabbing another hoodie from a hanger, returning with it to hand to Bucky.

“Take this one for now, I’ll make sure to get my scent all over the black one tonight and give it back soon.” Steve smiled, kissing Bucky on the cheek.

And wow, they can just do that now.

Bucky smiled back, rubbing his fingers over the dark green hoodie in his hands, and then pulling the soft fabric over his figure. Thank god all of Steve’s clothes were about two sizes too big on Bucky, this hoodie covering his baby just as much as the black one.

“Thank you.” Bucky pecked his lips.

Steve grabbed his keys from the desk, then reached down for Bucky’s bag, guiding the Omega out of his bedroom door with a hand on his lower back.

Outside was gloomy, grey and getting dark. Thunder still did it’s thing occasionally, making a ruckus through the sky as it sprinkled down the windshield.

Steve drove with his hand on Bucky’s thigh, quickly covering the five minutes of space between they’re houses.

From outside through the half open curtain in his living room window Bucky could see the dining table where his little sisters worked on they’re Disney villain puzzle. His dad also joined in on the fun, reading glasses perched on his nose and dark hair as wild as his sons.

Bucky really did resemble his dad a lot, though his sisters all took after his mom. Bucky was the only child with bright eyes, everyone else had dark blue orbs except him and his dad. His sisters had lighter brown hair as well, and they all were pretty short. The height difference in his parents was quite comedic, considering his moms head only went to his dads shoulders.

As Steve and Bucky sat in the truck, just watching his family have quality time, Bucky longed for his carefree nights he used to have with his sisters and parents. But ever since he found out about the pregnancy the aching fear had ruined every chance he had at spending stress free time with them. His heart would just start pounding when they were all together, the thought of knowing he had to tell them eventually was so fucking terrifying that he just wanted to skip ahead and have the event all ready over with.

“Buck?”

Steve was looking at him now, fingers dancing across his own hand.

“I’m gonna have to tell them soon.”

Steve nodded. “My mom too.” He said, eyes growing wide.

Bucky felt bad for the Alpha, he’d only found out earlier this afternoon. Clearly the whole situation hadn’t fully sunk in yet, considering how calm he’s been. Bucky was pretty sure the growing horror on the blonds face was a live action event of Steve’s reality setting in right before his eyes.

“Steve?”

Baby blues snapped up, pale face growing whiter by the second.

Steve didn’t say anything so Bucky continued. “Clearly I’m too scared to be in a rush to tell anyone about this, so just know that you can take your time. Just let me know when you’re ready, we’ll tell them together okay?”

Steve let out the breath he’d been holding, his fingers clenching over Bucky’s.

“Yeah, Yeah I’m definitely not ready either. Maybe we should wait until they’re all gathered together or something, get it out in one go y’know?”

Bucky nodded even though the thought of that scared the fucking shit out of him.

“Okay.” He said, leaning down to grab his bag. “I should get going though, I’m sure I’m already gonna be in trouble for not telling them I’d be out. I’ll see you tomorrow morning ‘kay?”

“Wait-“ Steve said, leaning into the back ‘seat’ (the backseat was really just a tiny little bench that Bucky’s sisters were lucky enough to fit into.) to grab something. When he returned, small orange pumpkin in hand, he held it towards Bucky. “This was supposed to be for you remember?”

Oh.

The little pumpkin Steve picked out, Bucky was supposed to sneak it into his room.

Holding the small thing in his palms Bucky was surprised Steve had managed to fit a candle inside it, and the carving on the outside made him laugh.

“Really Steve? If my mom sees this her head will explode.”

Steve laughed, “Oh come on that is hilarious and you know it!”

“I can’t believe you were able to fit all of that onto this tiny thing, oh my god I’m gonna have to show this to Becca.”

Ah yes, Becca may be the only person to actually fully appreciate this. Upon the tiny pumpkin in Bucky’s hands was a mini version of the crude carving Rebecca had carved only but a year ago, and the detailed imagery was something only Steve could master.

Bucky leaned over to kiss Steve, “I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“‘Kay.” Steve kissed back. “Call me if you need anything.”

Bucky smiled at the Alpha before stepping out of the truck.

He walked up the path to his house, seeing two bikes strung about the yard. His dad was sure to lecture the girls about leaving their bikes on his lawn for the billionth time, and they’d continue to not listen.

He heard Steve’s truck pull away after he stepping through the door, but quickly startled as his mom rounded the corner of the hall.

“Did I just see you and Steve kiss through the window?” She asked, taking a sniff of the air. “And are you wearing Steve’s sweatshirt?”

Oh shit,

He forgot to put on his scent blocker before leaving Steve’s house.

Fuck.

“Uhm, Yeah.” He answered. “I know I’m in trouble for skipping school but I just really have to pee, I’ll be right bac-“

“Wait,” She stopped him, coming closer. “James, why were you and Steve kissing?”

No, no, no she can’t get too close.

He got lucky that Steve’s fresh scent masked his, but if she gets close she’ll no doubt recognize the change in her sons scent.

“Mom I’ll be right back to explain! Promise!” 

Before she could say another word he dashed upstairs to the bathroom, pretty sure she was calling after him but didn’t bother to explain any further.

When he got inside he pulled out the bottle, spraying the blocker on his wrist and rubbing it into his neck. Breathing a sigh of relief, he took a moment to actually pee because now he always had to.

He dropped his bag in his room, taking off his shoes and putting on some new soft socks, he found himself as ready as he could be to face his mom.

She was in the dining room with everyone else, sitting at the end of the table and staring at the entrance from the kitchen, where he emerged.

He walked over to her, sat in the closest chair and waited.

“So, explain.” She said.

“I don’t have an explanation for why I skipped school, I just- did.” He said, fuck he really should have thought this through.

“James I don’t care about the skipping school part, you never do that and I’ll let this one time slide.” She emphasized the word, a clear threat coming from her tone.

Winnie Barnes would forever be the most intimidating Omega Bucky had ever seen, a stark comparison to his chill Alpha of a father.

“I wanna know why you were just kissing Steve?” She asked.

Bucky didn’t have to look to know his whole family snapped towards his direction, puzzle pieces dropping to the table and jaws hitting the table top.

“What!” Rebecca yelled, similar to the reactions of his other two sisters.

Christina, who was eleven asked. “Are you and Steve dating now?”

Sophie (age five) just gasped, always the most dramatic little Omega.

George didn’t say anything but Bucky was too scared to look at his dads face, the man was calm when it came to everything but his children’s safety. And the fact that Bucky could be dating Steve, the Alpha he trusted most with his kids, probably filed under the same category as children safety in his fathers mind.

“I mean, we haven’t gone on a date.” He said, it’s not like he and Steve had really broken down what they were to each other, but with the frequent kisses Bucky could only assume...(and also the little baby resting inside Bucky)

“But you’re together?” Becca asked, “I mean, you kissed!”

Because in his innocent little sisters brains they thought kissing called for wedding bells.

“I-“ He took a breath. “Yeah, we’re together.”

Well, he hoped they were together.

“And how long has this been going on?” George asked, voice disturbingly devoid of any particular emotion.

“Uhm, since today?”

Wow so much happened today, he was sure he’d have a panic attack about it later.

“Today? What you and Steve just suddenly decided to start dating?” Winnie asked.

“Well, we talked and... I don’t really wanna- What me and Steve talked about is private and I don’t wanna share-“

“No ones asking you to, James.” His mother cut him off. “I would just like to know that my son is dating someone, especially if it’s his best friend. You know we love Steve? But you can understand our shock, I mean, it’s Steve.”

“This does mean I’ll be needing to have a talk with that young man.” George said, resuming his puzzling.

“Please be nice to Steve dad.” Bucky asked, feeling bad for having to put Steve in this position before they even had the chance to talk about it themselves.

“Love, it may be Steve, but you know things are gonna have to change now, right?” His mom asked.

“What things?” Bucky asked, panic filling his chest.

“Well, no more sleep overs for one.” She said.

“What mom, he’s still my best friend-“

“That you’re now dating, there’s a different meaning behind those sleep overs now.”

Bucky just huffed, yeah, he supposed there were.

“Okay, what else?” He asked.

“Well, I think a sex talk is due for the both of you-“ George started only to be cut off by the girls.

“Eww!”

“Dad please.” Bucky said, besides, it was a little too late for that.

Oh god they’re gonna be so mad.

“And I think we’ll have to set a curfew.” Winnie said.

“What? But I didn’t have one before-“

“Well you’ve never dated anyone before, Buck.” His dad told him, looking at him through those square glasses.

“What would the curfew be?” He asked, understanding there was no getting around that one.

“Home by 6:00 on week days and 8:00 on weekends.” Winnie said.

“What? Six?” Bucky questioned, surely that was too early.

“Fine, 7:00.”

“What about 9:00 on weekends?” He asked, especially considering he would be losing sleep overs all together.

Though he suppose once the truth of the baby came out he could probably bend that rule, he and Steve would be parents after all, sleeping over at each other’s houses when you have a kid to raise would only make sense.

His parents seemed to consider this, sharing glances and shrugging.

“Fine, 9:00 on weekends. But not a minute later.” His mother said, giving him a look.

“Okay,” Bucky nodded. “Now can I go get something to eat?” He asked, so fucking ready for this conversation to be over with. Plus he was pretty hungry, to be fair.

“Sure, love.” His mom said. “There’s pasta on the stove, and chicken in the microwave, help yourself.”

“Thanks”

Wow, that went way different than he expected.

His parents really were too nice to him, and he can’t handle what he’s gonna do to them eventually, soon probably. Bucky had a feeling Steve would be more responsible then him and be ready to tell everyone within the next few weeks, especially his mom, the two never kept secrets from each other.

God he was not ready.

............

October 15

7:15 am.

Bucky was so happy his mom had left to take the girls to school by the time Steve knocked on the door to pick him up.

The Alpha leaned down to kiss him and Bucky felt his heart expand with warmth, he never thought they’d be able to just do something as simple as kissing. He’s loved Steve for as long as he can remember, and if you asked him the moment he was in love with Steve he wouldn’t have an answer, he just was.

“I brought you mango slices.” Steve held up the bag, smiling at the Omega.

“Thank you.” Bucky said, opening the bag to take one out.

They held hands on their walk back to Steve’s truck.

On the drive Bucky continued to snack on the mango, Steve’s happy Alpha scent keeping him calm and content.

 “So Buck,” Steve started. “I’ve been meaning to ask you what Clint said on Friday that made you so angry?”

He meant when Clint confessed to him that he knew about-

“He told me that he knew I was pregnant.”

Steve glanced over real quick, eyes wide in shock. “How?” He asked, turning his attention back to the road.

“Apparently when we skipped class-“

“When did you skip class?” Steve asked, getting distracted. “You never do that.”

“I never get caught. Except for yesterday. But anyway,” he huffed. “We skipped and Clint offered me a cigarette, but the smell was so bad it made me puke. And I guess he saw my belly.” At this he put a hand on his baby, over Steve’s hoodie.

“So Clint knows? Just Clint?” Steve asked.

“Yeah, he said he wouldn’t tell anyone. Oh and by the way my parents know we’re- uh, together.”

They kissed this morning, of course they were together.

That didn’t stop Bucky’s doubt from roaring up, worried Steve would freak out and say it was nothing, it meant nothing-

“Oh you told them?” And the panic in his voice suggested more, that he thought Bucky had told them.

“No, my mom saw us kissing through the window. They just know that we’re, uhm, together. Not about the baby. They did set some new rules though.”

“New rules? Oh god does your dad hate me now? Oh fuck when he finds out about the baby he’s definitely gonna kill me-“

“Steve calm down!” Bucky reached over, hoping to calm the Alpha’s breathing.

They’d pulled into the school parking lot at this point, and the truck was turned off thank god.

“It’s okay, he doesn’t hate you.”

“But he gonna!” Steve sunk his head into his hands, forehead against the top of the steering wheel. “He trusted me, he’s never gonna trust me again, I mean I got you pregnant Buck. There’s a baby in you that we’re gonna have to take care of, and your dads gonna hate me.”

The blonds breaths were short and panicked.

Bucky leaned over to card his fingers through Steve’s hair, hoping to ease that ache.

“I’ve been up all night freaking out about this...” Steve whispered, his eyes still covered but Bucky was willing to bet his face was wet. “I’m sorry.”

“Why are you sorry?” Bucky asked, hating how much pain Steve was in and wishing he could fix it.

“I should be strong, for you. You have to carry a baby inside of you, which means I need to be strong so you have someone to lean on.” Steve cried, big, shuddering breaths coming in.

“Steve,” he sighed. “This is happening to the both of us, regardless of who carries the baby. We’re both gonna be parents, we’re both gonna have new responsibilities. You don’t need to be this unbreakable rock, it’s okay to be scared. There’s absolutely nothing to be sorry about, we’re in this together.”

Steve removed his face from the steering wheel, falling into Bucky and circling his arms around the Omega’s waist, faced tucked into Bucky’s neck.

“I love you so much.” Steve whispered.

“I love you too, Steve.”

............

The following days were filled with a series of uncomfortable talks.

Steve was invited over for family dinner, which resulted in the girls making him even more nervous. Asking questions about him and Bucky, asking if they were in love. Sophie asked if “Are you gonna get married?”

An hour later the girls were occupied upstairs and George sat the two teens on the couch. And had The Sex Talk.

Surprisingly Bucky didn’t puke, and even Steve was able to (somewhat) hold it together.

His poor father was gonna be crushed when he found out that talk was about five and a half months too late.

On Wednesday Clint came up to the two at lunch and pulled them to the side to ask if “Everything alright between you two?”

The Beta was happy they’d talked, and promised again to not tell anyone, even Nat. Clint told Steve the same thing he’d told Bucky, that if he ever needed to talk to someone, he was happy to lend an ear.

Thursday brought cuddles in Steve’s bedroom, and getting cut short of they’re movie watching by the new curfew.

On Friday Bucky had dinner with Steve and Sarah, who was much more excited about the news of them dating.

“I always new you two would get together, ever since you were little.” She called them soul mates and Bucky almost lost the control over his hormones on that one.

October 28

Two days before halloween.

Tony was having a Halloween party tonight, and they were invited.

Bucky didn’t really wanna go, what fun was there going to be for him at a party right now? A bunch of drunk underage teens being loud and touchy? No thanks.

But Steve wants to go, and so Bucky would lie about his disinterest in the matter, for Steve.

But he was not dressing up.

Happily covered in Steve’s black hoodie, the Omega waited to be picked up on the couch.

His dad was reading in his chair, while Winnie was crocheting beanies for all her kids. Rebecca had put on The Nightmare Before Christmas (a classic), something they’d inevitably watch again in December. Christina was braiding Sophie’s hair, she’d been practicing all year and the improvement definitely showed and was a skill Rebecca took advantage of often.

“James,” Winnie started. “Me and your dad have both agreed to raise your curfew to 10:00 tonight.”

Of course, the one night he didn’t want it raised.

“Oh, thanks. But you don’t have to-“

“It’s fine son, we trust you.” George said.

You shouldn’t, he thought.

“Thanks.” Was all he could say before there was a knock. “I’ll see you guys later, love you.”

“Love you!” They all called after him.

Steve greeted him with a kiss, taking hold of the Omega’s hand and tugging towards the truck.

Bucky was pleased to see the Alpha hadn’t dressed for the occasion either, wearing a grey hoodie that Bucky was sure he’d get to wear himself in the next few days. Steve had been pretty on top of making sure the Omega always had a Steve scented hoodie at all times, and the alternating sweatshirts definitely helped his wardrobe out a bit.

“So Buck, I was wondering if we were still doing the haunted house this year?” Steve asked, they were only a few minutes from Tony’s house at this point.

“If you want.” Bucky said, though the thought of getting spooked didn’t appeal to him as much as it did last year.

“Buck.” Steve sighed. “Do you want to?”

“I mean, not really. Sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry, it’s not a big deal if we don’t.” The Alpha squeezed his hand.

“I am sorry, I’m being a drag. I know you wanna go to this party and I’m probably just gonna bum you out-“

Steve cut him off, parking the car a walking distance from Tony’s house. “Wait, you don’t wanna go to the party? Why didn’t you say so? We can go somewhere else-“

“No Steve it’s fine, you already told Sam we were coming and I know he wants to hang out with you.” Fuck why did he have to go and ruin Steve’s excitement.

“Are you sure? We can leave, do something else.” Steve had those worry eyes, the one where his eyebrows scrunch together and his eyes start to gleam.

How could Bucky ever deny those eyes anything they want?

“No, we should go inside, at least for a little bit.”

He knows their friends will wonder why they weren’t there if they didn’t show up, and Natasha always hangs out with him at parties (mostly so she didn’t have to deal with a drunk Clint).

“Only if you’re sure.” Steve said.

“Yes! I’m sure, okay. Let’s just go inside.”

And great now he was getting irritated for no fucking reason and taking it out on Steve.

Steve met him outside the truck, hesitating to grab Bucky’s hand until the Omega just sighed and grabbed Steve’s.

“I’m sorry I’m being like this.” Was all he said, pulling the Alpha towards the big house.

Surprisingly the party wasn’t as... wild as it usually was.

Sure there was still a lot of people, but everyone seemed a lot more calm than usual. Music was playing but at a reasonable volume that Bucky could actually still hear himself, and the dancing was kept to couples swaying together, everyone else just kind of milling around or sat on the furniture.

One thing Bucky was sure about however, Tony must be pissed.

As far as party’s go, this one sucked.

Not that Bucky was complaining, a quiet party he could handle. Maybe he could hang out with his friends and then convince Steve to go make out somewhere, they had three hours until curfew anyway.

“Can you guys believe this!” Thats how the Beta greeted them when they walked into the kitchen, hands still held.

“It’s not that bad, Tony.” Steve said, wincing when the Beta groaned. 

“Steve! This is the lamest party of the fucking year, and it’s Halloween! What kind of losers show up to a Halloween party and just fuck about?”

“Don’t worry, Stark. I’m sure your reputation will be fine.” Nat replied, off to the side of the kitchen sipping something pink.

Tony ignored her. “And what is this?!” He exclaimed, gesturing towards Steve and Bucky. “No costumes? This is a halloween party!”

The Beta in question was wearing what Bucky assumed was supposed to be a ‘sexy’ cowboy costume. It was really just Tony in leather pants with cowboy boots and an unbuttoned leather vest, a cowboy hat tossed on his ruffled hair for good measure.

A glance at Nat showed she wore devil horns to match her red dress, looking stunning as ever without having to put in too much effort.

Next to her, looking through the fridge was a sheet with eye holes cut out on the top, really, a sheet ghost? Must be Clint.

“Sorry.” Was all Bucky told Tony.

He wasn’t sorry.

“Come on, what’s with the layers? Everybody shows a little skin on Halloween!” Tony complained.

“Let it go, Tony.” Steve chimed in. “Besides you’ve got bigger problems, considering you’re hosting the lamest party of the year.”

Tony gasped.

Bucky, Nat and the ghost of Clint all laughed.

“Steven! I thought you were the nice one!” Hand held to his heart, the Beta stormed out of the kitchen.

Steve guided Bucky to the kitchen chairs, sitting down next to him.

“So,” Nat said, walking towards the two. “When did this little thing start happening?” She asked, gesturing between them.

“Like, two ish weeks ago.” Bucky said, sliding so the table would hide his frame a little more.

If anyone was gonna figure out he was pregnant (besides Clint) it would be Natasha. He was starting to worry that he was showing through Steve hoodies now, but that could just be paranoia.

“Hmm, and what made you two confess your obvious undying love for each other?” She asked, sitting next to Steve and resting her chin on her hand.

“Uh, you know. Just came out.” Steve said, his hand squeezing Bucky’s.

“Mhm,” She hummed, leaning forward to whisper. “And this wouldn’t have anything to do with your little... situation.” She eyed Bucky.

“Clint!” He yelled at the ghost.

The sheet froze by the fridge, wide blue eyes showing through the holes.

“You said you wouldn’t-“ he started.

“I didn’t!” Clint stopped him, raising the sheet off his head and wearing it like a cape. “She cornered me when I was coming out of the bathroom! I swear she just guessed!”

“You’re not gonna tell anyone right?” Steve asked, panic in those baby blues. “We haven’t even told our family’s yet.”

“Steve I wouldn’t blab on you guys, we’re friends, I’m not gonna spread gossip about you.”

Steve sighed, sagging a little.

“What all did Clint tell you?” Bucky asked.

“Well,” She began, glancing back towards the Beta. “Once I got him talking, and believe me that took awhile, he said you’d been keeping it a secret from everyone. Steve included.” She raised a brow, her questioning look never once judgmental.

The concern in his friends eyes did nothing to take away the stress of another person knowing.

“Yeah, that’s when we got together. After I told him.” He whispered.

“I hope you know that’s not the only reason we’re together, right Buck? I wanna be with you, regardless of the- you know.” He cut himself off, glancing around the room to make sure no one overheard.

“I know Steve, I feel the same.” He smiled at the Alpha, excepting the kiss on his cheek.

“What are you gonna do?” Nat asked, at this point Clint had moved to an empty chair to join the group.

“I mean, we’re keeping it.” Bucky said. “But, we really have to tell our parents. Soon.”

Steve gulped.

Nat opened her mouth to ask another question but was cut off by, “Steve!”

They turned to see Sam walk into the kitchen, the Alpha going immediately to the blond.

Steve stood to hug him, excepting the clap on the back.

“Hey man, what’s with the face? Why do you look so freaked out?”

Steve shook his head, trying to rid the panic from his eyes. “Nah man, I’m good.”

“Alright.” Sam didn’t look convinced, but luckily he turned to Bucky. “You not gonna give me a hug, Barnes?” The Alpha stood there with open arms.

Bucky stood, somewhat slowly, and embraced Sam.

“This is the first time we’ve all hung out together in months.” The Alpha said, freezing in the hug.

Bucky froze as well, trying to pull away but finding Sam’s grip to tight.

“What the hell...” The Alpha whispered, finally letting Bucky go.

Buck jumped when Sam’s hand reached down to touch his belly, stepping back and knocking into his chair, Steve reached out to steady him.

“Oh my god!” The Alpha said, looking between the couple and then pointing at Bucky’s stomach. “Did you- you two! Did- are you? Why didn’t you tell me? How could this happen?”

Oh god, now everybody fucking knows.

“Sam keep it down!” Steve said, moving closer to the Alpha to rest his hands on the others shoulders. “You can’t tell anybody.”

“Oh my god,” Sam’s eyes were still just as wide. “Guys that’s... this is crazy. Who- who else knows?” He asks.

“We do.” Natasha chimed in, Clint nodded.

“You told them before you told me?” Sam asked Steve, genuine hurt evident in his voice.

“They just found out.” Bucky said. “The only person I actually told is Steve.”

The Alpha still looked shock, and Bucky only just noticed that he wasn’t dressed in a consume either.

“Fuck.” Sam whispered. “This is huge you two, like, this is fucking life changing. How are you even coping with this?”

Steve and Bucky stared at each other for a moment, before the Omega started talking.

“Well, I’d say not the best, considering it took me four months of knowing to even tell Steve. And the fact that he’s only known for two weeks...”

“Damn...” Sam said, moving to take an empty chair, everybody else sat down as well. “You know I’m here for you guys, right?”

Bucky smiled at the Alpha. “Thanks, Sam.”

“Us too.” Natasha said, reaching her hand over to grasp the Omega’s.

Steve sighed, resting his head on Bucky’s shoulder.

“Tony’s gonna be so upset when he finds out he was last to know.” The blond said, catching everyone off guard and making them laugh.

Damn, the number of people who know had doubled in the span of two minutes.

At least he had more people he could talk to about this, he hoped Steve would be relieved, happy to have friends to confide in that weren’t just Bucky.

But he still has to tell his parents.

Crap.