Chapter 4
Samara didn't show up for some nights. Loki waited for her every night and sometimes he came looking for her in the days. He feared that she might never come again. May be she is afraid of him or annoyed of his deeds.
Still Loki waited for her. It's so disturbing that he misses her so much. One day it ached his heart to think about her. He imagine her, sometimes talk to her image he creates.
This shouldn't be happening. I have to leave her behind. It's only matter of three days. I'll forget her.
Loki dreamt about her and woke up at night. He can't deny that she did something to him. Is she a witch? He laughed at himself but then sudden urge of crying overwhelmed him. He stood up from bed and tried to find her with spells. But even for locating spell the person's belonging is needed. He huffed.
In a month he became somewhat more bookworm.
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"Brother? Brother?" Thor found Loki on his study table, sleeping on the textbook. He was completing work given by Odin.
Thor shaked him again. "Loki?"
Loki stirred and looked up at Thor. "Brother, what are you doing here?"
Thor sat on the other seat. "I've come here to see you. You've been acting quite busy lately"
"I am busy" Loki returned to his work.
"Loki look at you" Thor saw his brealfast tray full on the other table like every other day when he return his meals back to kitchen. "What happened? Is it a girl?"
Loki looked up at him. "No. It's just work"
Thor clapped his shoulder. "Come on then. Leave it and come with me" he pushed Loki up from his seat.
"Where are we going?"
"For hunt" he dragged Loki with him.
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After hunt they went to a tavern. Loki was happy after so long. Before he felt that emptiness again in his heart his drink was there. He and Thor were laughing and drinking.
Loki felt someone's eyes on him. He spotted someone outside the window but that person hid quickly when he looked there. He frowned suspiciously. He went outside to see but no one was there.
Thor and Loki walked back to royal wing and before calling a night, Thor told him to let go of what's worrying him. "Sometimes it's our imagination which hurts us, brother. Why don't you think and work less and enjoy more. I know one day at the training grounds everyone was telling me that I'll win. So I thought it would be easy fight with Sif and I'll definitely win but she knocked me down in a second and she won. It felt sad. Just like you are... Am I making any sense?" He was fumbling in addicting way. He has drank too much.
Loki smiled. "No, my brother I think you should sleep. We'll meet tomorrow"
"Ok. Ok. Good night, my brother. Good night" he turned to leave and so Loki started walking towards his room. Thor called him again "brother"
Loki turned to see his brother. "What?"
"If you want someone to warm your bed just tell me. I know plenty of maidens who want you" he winked.
"Yeah, I'll... I'll tell you, brother" he looked around to see if anyone was listening what Thor was saying.
Coming back into his room felt sad again. He don't want to be here. He went to garden for fresh air.
May be it's just me. I should forget her by now. Am I so fool to develop feelings for someone in just three meetings? No, I am not fool. It was just circumstances. Mother was so keen for me to have someone in life and I was also desperate, thinking that it's right time I assumed everything. How could I be so girlish? Thinking that it's a fantasy and norns has sent her to me life, to be my love. To love me. I was a fool.
It's strange that Loki is having this feeling again. Feeling of being watched. He looked around but this time no one was there.
Thor was right. I should think less. But why is it so that everytime I think about forgetting her it hurt me.
He started weeping again. It's becoming harder and harder to live without her.
What has she ever done for me that I miss her this much? I am a fool. I am really a fool.
Unwillingly his body urged him to go to beach again. To see her one more time. Just to ask millions of questions he is having in his heart. He went there.
It's foolishness. I know it's midnight. She won't be there.
And still no one was there. Disappointed Loki was ready to go back when he saw footprints on the shore. Someone was here. It's ladylike small footprints in the muddy area and they are still there not erased by tides. It means she was here. Loki's eyes lit up and hope ignite in his heart. But his eyes started crying uncontrollably.