I can't go back in Storage
The tower was near deserted but that was ok. Peter had just shown up with subs from some place he had been raving about for weeks. Friday began playing the second toy story movie for them. He had enjoyed watching the first one at the teams last movie night but couldn't seem to convince anyone to watch the second. He was careful not to watch movies alone because pop culture references were triggers that even Shurri hadn't considered. Nobody was laughing when he went postal on the tv during Spaceballs a month back. In hindsight he found it kinda funny that Hydra couldn't bring themselves to use an actual Star Wars quote as a trigger and that it came from a very jewish very anti Nazi comedian as well.
He and Peter set up the pillows and blankets on the couch grabbed some drinks and settled in for the movie. Occasionally they paused the movie to talk or he would ask about a reference made. Things seemed ok until the cowgirl doll had her first of quite a few freak outs about going back in storage. Bucky flinched a little and once again at the mention of Sputnik. It wasn't until the near end that he saw Bucky's face.
He was looking straight ahead but not at the movie. The cowgirls frantic cries about being in a box seemed to sync with every twitch of a muscle and every ragged breath he took. Steve had taught Peter what to do after the adventure time incident. "Mr. Barnes your ok. You aren't getting locked away. You have this whole huge space. Friday, stop the movie. Mr. Barnes please listen to me. You are ok. There's no tank here. There's no storage. There never will be ever again. Relax." He was rubbing his back trying to calm him.
He could see his breathing steady and his shoulders relax. He got up from the couch and walked into the bathroom where Peter could hear him getting sick. He knew he was doing all he could he just felt so awful that something so sweet and nice had become a moment of trauma re-lived. It was a common occurrence. He came back out and sat as close as he could to Peter. "We can finish." He spent the rest of the movie next to Peter as if he wanted to just hold onto him.
Once the movie was over they put on Star Wars. It was the go to movie after an incident. "I never want to go back in cryo." Peter looked at him. He was pale and looked haunted by the memory. "At one point I was promised I would be kept out if I did my job. I took the detail, all I had was a name and a location. I was sent to kill a pregnant woman. The father was a prominent member of Hydra who wanted damage control at any cost. When I figured out the target even the cold hard winter soldier couldn't bring himself to harm her so I left. I walked out then and there. It took them two weeks to find me and bring me back in. I begged for another chance. Instead I was beaten, raped, and put back in the box." I never disobeyed until Steve found me.” Peter wrapped his arms around him unable to hold back his own tears. “I will never let that happen to you. No one is going to let that happen to you ever again. I’ll beat up anyone who tries.” He threw back his head and laughed so hard it almost frightened Peter. “I’m sure you will kid I’m sure you will. I can see why Steve likes you so much.”