Chapter 6
Upon awakening, Vision was saddled with the responsibility of protecting humanity. Designed to be the perfect vessel for Ultron, later taken by Dr. Banner and Tony and gifted the -thought to be- remnants of Jarvis coding.
Created for other entities and with other entities, Vision was never meant to be his own person.
I’m not Ultron. I’m not Jarvis. I am… I am.
Because of this, he’s spent so much time discovering what it means to be human. Wanda encouraged him and accompanied him on many of his adventures, exploring the world and finding his place amongst people he swore to protect. However, he’s had this unidentified emotion when he was around her, almost like a sense of righteous anger.
Stark won’t mind paying for it, Vision… It’s the least he could do after everything.
When she said that he thought nothing of it, the group’s dynamic he was propelled into treated this behavior as usual. Looking back, the divide between the team and Tony was always present. It was an unspoken commonality between the Avengers that they all thought Tony was trouble and difficult.
The more time he spent with all of them, the more he had feelings of anger and sadness, but they never felt like his own emotions. Shortly after Ultron, Tony came to speak to him regarding his place on the team and offered assistance adjusting. The way he approached Vision was so different from everyone else who was cautious of him and suspicious. It evoked a warmth that wasn’t unpleasant but left him feeling uneasy. Having him within distance caused an unfamiliar emotion that was not his own to become dominant within him, almost like something clawing its way towards Tony.
That uneasiness resulted in Vision abruptly cutting Tony off and phasing away. It would set up their interactions for months to come. Steve was the one who encouraged him to have minimal contact,
It’s best if you don’t interact with him too much; having Jarvis coding doesn’t mean you have to be friends with the guy.
For months he watched Tony be attacked and berated in his own home for faults that could be found within each member. All done during a grieving process of Tony losing his creation… child… Father?
Even before the civil war blew up, they treated Tony, a team member, and friend, as something other. Someone they thought was so bigger than life; they quickly put in a box. Mistreatment and harsh jokes were the Avengers normal. Bad habits passed down to Vision as acceptable.
Kindness does not include purposely faulting someone for being human, and sir is so very much human.
Looking back, Vision can pinpoint exactly which thoughts came from Jarvis and what was Visions’ own perspective.
There is nothing wrong with not being human; having humanity and wanting to protect it shows your own character’s greatness.
In hindsight discovering Jarvis code was still functional and worth salvaging worried Vision; he kept the discovery to himself until his miscalculation. Wanda’s attack resulted in him feeling heartache for the first time. One moment he was in control, and the next, Jarvis was expertly transferring his makeup onto Friday’s drive. He would spend a month communicating with Jarvis in a setting that wasn’t his own mind. After the civil war ended, Vision enrolled himself into Jarvis’s old position to protect and shield Tony from unwanted and vile interactions.
He built a relationship with Tony - not based on preconceptions- but, his own experiences and Tony’s real character. When it was finally time for Jarvis to be integrated back into Tony’s life, Vision was happy for the happiness that Tony was going to experience. However, he didn’t anticipate the need Tony had for Vision in his life to diminish.
It seems with Jarvis back and fully functioning, Vision has no importance amongst Tony’s self-made family.