Chapter 51
Taylor P.O.V
I sit in the bathroom. Staring at the test. I didn't believe Eddie the whole time but he was right. The last time was different. My period stopped at week 6. I still have my period. Maybe I'm not that far but I gained weight. Oh my gosh what should I do. I walk up and down while waiting for the results. I open the door and come out.
Taylor: you were right *sighs*
Eddie: right with what?
Taylor: i think I'm pregnant. You were right. With every point. *walks up and down* I'm nauseous, I'm fighting with buck about the stupidest things, I gained weight but
T.K: but?
Taylor: i still have my period. So maybe I'm not that far? I don't know
T.K: did you do a test?
Taylor: yes it's in the bathroom. It's one of these things where they show you the weeks. But only until the 6 week. If you're more far along there's a 6+. But we always used protection, except *looks at them*
Eddie: except what?
Taylor: this one time 5 months ago. No, no, this, I mean if I'm pregnant and that far why do I still have my period? And my belly isn't that big now
Eddie: you sure?
Taylor: are you saying I'm fat??
T.K: no he's not saying that. Just that your leggings are covering it up and when you look from the side I would say yeah you're pregnant. When you wear a jeans it's not that obvious.
Taylor: to be honest all of my jeans were very tight in the last time so I was wearing leggings to university. Gosh I'm scared to look at the result.
Eddie: come on just look.
Taylor: okay okay *sighs*
I count again. Protection, we always used protection, I can't be that far. Gosh we were so stupid...I need to text Buck...I need...
I look at the test. Oh my gosh...6+ weeks...I should call my doctor tomorrow...
I go back to the boys. I want to cry and laugh and gosh...
Eddie: and?
T.K: i think we can see what it is.
Taylor: this, this, it's, grrrrrrr *sighs* what am I supposed to do now?
Eddie: first of all calm down. Then you make an appointment tomorrow and talk to Buck. Then you do what you already do. Being great parents *smiles*
Taylor: you think we are good parents?
T.K: of course you are. You are doing a great job!
Taylor: thank you. I'll, I'll go to bed *sighs* thank you T.K
T.K: no Problem. Text me tomorrow.
Taylor: I will. Good night.
T.K: Night
He leaves and I go back to the bathroom. I take off my leggings and look at my belly. I turn to the side and look at the mirror. To be honest I really do look pregnant...I set my alarm at 7am and go to bed.
When I wake up I call my doctor and make an appointment for 8am. I take the kids and go to the doctor.
Dr.Smith: okay lets see *smiles*
Taylor: how far am I? Is the baby okay?
Dr.Smith: the baby is doing great. Looks like your in the 23rd week.
Taylor: 23rd?? *goes through her hair* that's almost in the sixth month
Dr.Smith: yes it is
Taylor: but I still have my period. How is that possible? Is the baby okay? I mean I didn't have any check ups now and on some days I was drinking a glass of wine and and *gets interrupted*
Dr.Smith: the baby is doing great. Everything is like it should be *smiles* you wanna know the gender?
Taylor: but it's just one baby right?
Dr.Smith: yes *laughs*
Taylor: Tell me the gender *smiles*
Dr.Smith: it's a little boy, congrats *smiles*
I still can't believe it. Now I just need to tell Buck...hopefully he's happy. When I come home I find him lying in our bed with Eddie.
Taylor: so he's your friend now? *grins*
Buck: maybe *laughs* where were you?
Taylor: i was *sighs*
Eddie: I'll leave you guys alone.
Buck: why? What's wrong? He can stay here.
Eddie: i should
Taylor: okay it's fine. Remember that Eddie was joking about us because we always fought about the stupidest things
Buck: you did that, because everything I did was wrong.
Taylor: yeah and I'm sorry about that *sits down and grabs his hand* I was, I was going crazy. This had a reason.
Buck: so what? Why did you go crazy?
Taylor: I'm pregnant.
He looks at me. I don't know if he's mad or happy or...
Buck: how long did you know that? *looks at the wall* like the last time?
Taylor: no I knew it since yesterday evening. I was at the doctors today and she told me that I was right
Buck: how far are you *gets up*
Taylor: 23 weeks..
Buck: and you tell me you didn't know it? *laughs annoyed* are you serious?
Eddie: buck hey. Calm down. It's true she didn't know until yesterday
Taylor: i still had my period so i didn't think about it...
Buck: i need to get fresh air *gets out*
Taylor: buck
Buck: no just
Tears roll over my face.I knew it...I knew it...I sit down on the bed and start to cry.
Claire: mommy sad?
Tyler: *plays with some toys*
Taylor: no honey it's okay *smiles softly and sobs before she picks her up*
Eddie: it's not your fault. He will calm down. Give him some time.
Taylor: no he's right...I mean how did I not notice?
Eddie: Taylor sometimes our bodies are crazy. The whole point is, that the baby is okay and that you are okay
Taylor: yes he's okay *puts a hand on her belly* I asked the doctor because I was drinking alcohol but she said that everything was fine *sobs*
Eddie: so it's a boy? *smiles*
Taylor: yes *smiles softly and sobs* my cute little boy. If he's not coming back what should I do? *sobs*
Eddie: he will come back. Why are you saying this?
Taylor: because I was a bi- sry I was an idiot the last weeks...I treated him like...like *sighs* it was wrong...I can't raise three children alone. I can't do this. I'm at university *looks at her watch* oh my gosh I need to go...
Eddie: go, I'll take care. It's fine
Taylor: you sure? You're still on crutches *sighs*
Eddie: I'm good and I'm pretty sure T.K is next door. Don't think he's at work.
Taylor: thank you so so much *sobs* I'll grab some things and go. *kisses the kids heads* I love you two so so much *grabs her bag* See you this afternoon. Shouldn't be back that late.
I give them one last kiss before I go. I look out for Buck but I can't see him. His car is gone. I sigh and get in the car. My mind is somewhere else. I drive to university. I am at a crossroad, 5minutes away from my university. My light is green. I'm sure it's green. Then it's all black...