Rescue me

Eddie P.O.V 

I was in the hospital for 3 weeks. After that I was allowed to go home but I can't do anything alone. Walking on crutches is difficult because of my shoulder Injury. I'm living at Bucks place now. I feel like it's too much for him. He's taking care of me for 3 weeks now. The nightmares are still there. 6 weeks since it happened and no night without at least one nightmare...

At least my shoulder is healing. My body is getting better, I can breathe almost normally and living with only one kidney is like having two kidneys. Just my knee is, still no improvement...

Every two days buck is driving me to therapy but I...I...I can't talk about it. I can't talk about what happened. When buck is at work taylor is taking care. One good thing, having the kids around. Sure they aren't mine and I'm not really able to play with them but does that matter? I don't think so. 

Buck is a completely different person since he's working as a firefighter. He's happier and enjoys going to work. 

To be honest I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to lie here and just do nothing. Hopefully I'm back on my feet soon so I can go back to work but do I want to go back?...

T.K. P.O.V 

The situation between me and my dad is getting better. It's still kind of weird because sometimes he's so overprotective. Like I'm still a little child. At least everyone else is nice to me now. The situation with Judd was very weird at the beginning but now we are like best buddies. 

The only annoying thing is that very often Carlos and I don't have the chance to see each other. Sometimes when I come home he's asleep because he has to work late or he's working. It sucks but I think we can do this. We all are just worried about Eddie. I wanted to help Buck with him but he's the only person who's able to calm him down when he has a nightmare or a panic attack. It's just, I don't know I can't describe it. 

Right now I'm at work. Carlos is working as well. Maybe I see him at a call. We have a lot of car accidents at the moment. Don't know what is going on but every second call is a car accident. 

Right now we are playing cards while Mateo is cooking something for dinner. I get a call from Taylor. 

T.K: Hey *smiles* everything okay? 

Taylor: Hey, Uhm kind of. I have an appointment in one hour and I have no one for the kids. How long is Carlos working? 

T.K: i guess until 6 like always. 

Taylor: can he come over directly after he's home? I can call them and say that I'll be 30min late but this meeting is important for me. I would ask Eddie to take care but he's 

T.K: yeah I know what you mean *sighs* how is he doing? 

Taylor: just staring at the walls when he isn't playing with the kids. T.K i think he's thinking about going back when everything is healed 

T.K: *sighs* if it's his wish we can't change it. It's his decision. I think it would be the best to stay here. Search for a job here and don't go back to Afghanistan. 

Taylor: you're Right *sighs* maybe buck is able to talk to him about it. It's *sighs* he isn't talking to us. Sure he's talking but not about what happened. Not with us, not with his therapist. No one.

T.K: give him some time. He will talk to us. I'll text Carlos and ask him if he can take care. 

Taylor: thank you so much. Have a good shift 

T.K: thanks 

I hang up and we continue playing. Then we get a call. Car crash. Multiple car wrecks. We grab our gear and start our way. I see a few police cars standing around the crash. I thought I saw Athena's car but it's not. So Carlos isn't here. I quickly check my phone. Still no response to my message. Doesn't matter now. I get out of the truck and we look around. 

Owen: okay Mateo T.K you take the rover. Marjan Paul the Ford and Judd you come with me. *into the radio* we need three more ambulances at our location. 

T.K: *runs to the rover* hello Ma'am can you here me? 

Mateo: does she has a pulse? 

T.K: I'm trying to find out. I can't reach her neck. There's blood everywhere. Weak pulse but it's there. 

Mateo: can you open the door? 

T.K: no. Dad, I mean Captain we can't get her out. We can't Open the door 

Mateo: hey T.K you smell that? 

T.K: smell what? *looks at him* 

Mateo: smells like fuel. 

T.K: maybe it's from the other cars. 

Owen: Mateo, T.K what do you need? 

T.K: something to open the door. Captain we smell fuel! 

Owen: be there in 2 minutes. 

T.K: Captain please hurry she has a weak pulse. 

Then everything goes very fast. Sparks fly around and the fuel starts to burn. We try to get the women out of the car. I scream for my dad but he's rescuing a man out of another car. The car is on fire. We try to get her out before something happens but it's too late. Something explodes. My neck is burning, I think I touched the flames. Screams around me. Mateo is lying on the street, his clothes are burning. I run over to him and put the flames out. 

Owen: dispatch to 126! We need to more ambulances and another unit here. Two firefighters down. I repeat two firefighters down. 

Bobby: dispatch we are near this place should we go? 

Dispatch: okay 118 it's your call. 

I search Mateos pulse. He's not breathing normally. His skin on his neck and face is burned pretty bad. Luckily his gear saved him from more injuries. 

Owen: T.K hey, you okay? You're hurt

T.K: please look after him it's...it's bad dad...

The 118 arrived at the accident. I lean against the truck while Hen and chimney take care of Mateo. Buck is helping  the others. When they are done he comes over. 

Buck: come on let me see 

T.K: I'm fine *sobs* it's nothing 

Buck: it's not nothing. A doctor needs to check on this. 

T.K: no...just put a plaster on it and I'll go back to work...

Buck: T.K Listen 

T.K: just look at it so I can go back to work!!

He just sighs. We drive back to the firehouse. I sit down in the fitness area and stare at the wall. Hopefully Mateo will be okay...

It's all my fault..,I should have been more careful...