Chapter 27
BuckP.O.V
Well I guess this was the most boring summer of my entire life. I turned 19 and wasn't able to celebrate it. I spend the whole summer break in the psychiatric center. I feel better now. Way better. I'm clean since 8 months now and I stopped cutting. I still have a few problems with my right hand, so I'm wearing a brace but everything else is fully healed and I'm allowed to do sports again. Today is my first day back at school. More like, we all have our first day back. Summer break is over and senior year starts. It feels weird going back there. Without Eddie. Without Taylor...we all feel weird going there. After everything that happened. Carlos and T.K are still together. Of course. They were on holidays together. 3 weeks São Paulo. We don't hear much from Eddie. He's in Afghanistan. Sometimes we get a text message from him or a short call. Taylor is...it hurts speaking about it...she's still in a coma and her parents are thinking about turning everything off...she's still not breathing alone. In therapy I talked a lot about the case that Taylor might dies...I still have hope. She's a fighter. She can do that. After school I will visit her. Luckily on our first day of school we only have 3 periods.
Maddie: have a nice day *kisses his cheek* if you need anything text me. When you come back I will be at work
Buck: i will. Thank you
Chimney: *comes downstairs* good morning *smiles*
Buck: Hey *smiles softly* okay I need to go now. See you later *smiles*
Yeah Chimney is living with us now and guess what. My sister is pregnant. I still can't believe it. I'm 19 and I will be an uncle. Finally. I smile. I drive to school and park in front of it. I take a deep breath and get out of my car.
T.K: *jumps on his back* good morning *grins*
Buck: Hey *smiles softly*
T.K: we are Seniors *grins*
Carlos: one year left until we are finally out of here *laughs*
Buck: yeah
T.K: Hey you okay? You don't look very happy
Buck: just nervous *sighs*
Carlos: about school? You can do this. We are here by your side *smiles*
Buck: thanks but I'm not just nervous about school...Taylors parents called me yesterday and told me that they want to turn everything off *sighs* I'll drive to the hospital later and... and *holds back the tears*
T.K: Hey, if you want we can come with you *grabs his hand* we are there for you.
Buck: thanks but I want to do this alone *sighs* I still have some hope left...maybe she starts breathing when everything is turned off. I don't know *sighs* her lungs aren't healing very well.
Carlos: she's a fighter. I don't think That she will leave earth that easily *smiles softly* come on let's go
I slowly follow them inside and sit down next to T.K. The hours go by and I drive to the hospital afterwards. I need a few minutes before I can go inside. I go to the ICU and stop in front of her room and look inside. The last time I saw her was 8 weeks ago...I slowly go inside and sit down next to her. Her brace on her shoulder is gone. She still has this tube in her throat. I slowly take her hand. I don't know what to say.
Buck: Hey *sobs* it's me. Buck. I know it's been a long time since I was here the last time but I wasn't able to come. Now I'm here and I will not leave your side until you're back. Back with me, your family and everyone else *can't Hold back his tears* taylor you can't leave us...you're only 19...you wasn't able to celebrate your birthday...you were here...come on Taylor I know you're a fighter. You can do this. Your parents want to turn off everything. You can't die *cries* I need you. We all need you *sobs* if you think you need to go then it's okay. I don't want that you are having a bad life *sobs* I'll sit here until you take your last breath or you open your eyes again *looks at the door*
Dr.Stevens: hello *smiles softly*
MrsKelly: hey Buck *sobs*
Buck: hello Mr and Mrs Kelly *smiles softly and wipes away his tears* I can leave you alone with her...
MrKelly: it's okay. We said goodbye to her before you came...
Dr.Stevens: so this may take a while. We don't know it. I'll put out the tube now and maybe she will continue breathing for a little amount of time or maybe she won't. I know it's hard to let someone go.
Buck: is there any chance she could wake up?..
Dr.Stevens: sure there is a chance but it's not that high. You ready?
MrsKelly: will we ever be ready to do that? *sobs and new tears run over her cheek* she's laying in this coma for more than 2 months now...
Dr.Stevens: okay I'll take out the tube now *takes out the tube and checks Taylors lungs* I'll leave you alone with her
I can hear Taylor coughing a little bit but she doesn't move
MrsKelly: *takes her other hand* I'm so sorry honey *cries* I'm so sorry that you have to leave so early.
MrKelly: it's okay Girl. You can go. *wipes away a tear*
Buck: I will always love you and I'm so sorry that we didn't had more time together... *sobs*
I look into her face. Her breathing is getting less. Suddenly something happens. I can't believe it. Her eyes open very fast and she starts to wrestle after air. She puts a hand on her throat and tries to breathe but it doesn't work. Her dad runs outside and gets Dr.Stevens
MrsKelly: honey calm down. Everything is going to be okay. Mommy is here *sobs*
Taylor P.O.V
Everything is dark around me. I don't know where I am and what happened. My throat hurts like hell and it feels like something is inside of it. Am I dead? The last thing I remember is that I was in school and...and got shot...
I hear a familiar voice. It's Buck. He's here finally. I thought he would never come to visit me. My parents were here every day. T.K and Carlos were here as well...only Buck and Isabella weren't here...but I have a pretty bad feeling about Isabella...
I listen to Bucks words. They want to turn it off? No I'm still here! Gosh how can I show them that I'm still alive. Something got pulled out of my throat. Breathing is getting harder and harder....I can't breathe...I need help I can't breathe. I don't want to die...I need to show them that I'm still alive. I try to open my eyes and finally it works. I take my hand from my mothers hand and put it on my throat. I can't breathe. I see my dad running out of the room. After a few seconds he comes back with the doctor and she puts the tube back in. Finally I can breathe again. I look around. All I see are crying faces.
MrsKelly: you're alive *cries and hugs MrKelly*
Buck: I knew that you can do this *wipes away some tears and squeezes her hand*
Dr.Stevens: welcome back MrsKelly *smiles*
I squeeze Bucks hand and take a deep breath. My mom hugs me tight. After her my dad. Buck gives me a long kiss on the forehead.
Dr.Stevens: we will do some tests tomorrow then we have more information. Today just rest. If you need anything push the red Button, for communication just use yes or no answers. One blink for a yes and two blinks for a no *smiles softly and leaves*
I close my eyes again. I feel exhausted. My parents stay one more hour before they leave.
Buck: if you want I can stay here a little bit longer *smiles softly as she blinks once* oh here's a message from the boys. „Taylors parents told us what happened. Tell Taylor that it's great to have her back and that she gets well soon 😘 we will visit her tomorrow. Take your time" *smiles* guess they were here in the hospital. I said that I want to be alone *laughs* guess they didn't want to
I smile as good as possible and make some space next to me in my bed. I knock on the bedside with my hand and look at him.
Buck: you sure that's a good idea?
I blink once and put my head as good as possible on his chest. I feel much better now. I grab his phone and type something.
Buck: you want to take a selfie and send it to the boys? *laughs softly*
I type something in again.
Buck: so they know you're awake and doing better?
I roll my eyes and type something in again.
Buck: so Eddie knows you're awake *smiles*
I nod. Buck laughs and I softly punch him. I don't have much power so it doesn't really hurt him.
Buck: That was a very cute punch *grins*
I punch him again and he laughs. We take that picture and Buck starts to tell me stories before I fall asleep.