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Chapter 3

When he sees that I‘m once again back, he asks “Are you ready to move yet?” “How long and move where?” I mumble as my lips and tongue feel numb “Found a New Base Boss” I want to move, I Really Do but when I try I find that the pain is back and I’m still naked from the bottom down and I don’t Know where my Pants are…

To my shame I find that when I try to sit up I can’t, not without help which My Hawk gives without asking. I’d like to tell him to leave me be, but before I can a sudden wave of cramps hit me again full force and I know that I’m not going to be able to hold any of it in. A straggled moan escapes my lips as a wet warmth starts to pool and spread from under me covering the blanket, and to my greater shame it starts spreading to the bunk and starts leaking off the side, forming a puddle on the floor…

“Come on Boss” He says as he starts to detangle me from the soggy blanket while holding my dirty, stinking and still expelling body against his clean one “Let’s get you sorted” I want to protest but I don’t even have the strength for a token argument plus I DO need to clean up as I MUST get on with things as the mere thought of the pain of failure sends a freezing chill though me! I’m mortified, I want to cry, I want to hide in shame, but I can’t as I HAVE to get this done!

It’s BAD enough that My Hawk knows that I Shit myself earlier and I’m doing it again in his presence, no matter how hard I try I just CAN’T hold it in! He finds a clean blanket from somewhere and rewraps me before lifting me up into a bridle carry as I CAN’T even sit up without help, and helps me out into the new base. All eyes snap up at My Hawks appearance but a sharp glare sends them scurrying back to work like scolded children, but I can’t be sure as the world is starting to fade and I’m lost to darkness that is anything but peaceful or painless…

I jolt back to awareness and find that I’m naked and in a bath of warm water in a bathroom somewhere at Base and once again, I’m being washed by My Hawk. When he sees that I’m awake and somewhat ‘With It’ he stops what he is doing and says “Relax Boss you are safe and nobody else here knows”, knowing what I’m worried about. I try and relax in the warm water but I CAN’T as I know that I HAVE to get things moving along but HOW can I when I CAN’T KEEP my insides inside and I’m SO weak that I CAN’T even hold my OWN Damn head UP without his help?!

He starts washing me again, his hands steady and gentle, then after a pause adds “Things are going to plan…” He pauses again to let the water drain before lifting me out of the filthy smelly water and onto a sheet. He turns around and starts swilling the bath out before filling it with fresh water, he lifts me back into the bath and hands me some sort of soap before asking “Do you need help?” I’m ashamed to admit that yes, I really do.

As he starts to lather me up with gentle hands, I come to the VERY uncomfortable conclusion that this looks like it could be a long-term predicament and that I’m going to need My Hawks help for the foreseeable. My thoughts start running away with me as I’m finding that the more I think about it the more conflicted I'm becoming about having him under my Thrall. Do I remove the control and risk getting an arrow in my eye for my trouble or do I just leave things as they are…
But before I can come to a conclusion on my runaway thoughts, I think I doze off as when I next open my eyes I’m lying flat and covered with a warm, but scratchy blanket…

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Many, MANY Thanks Must Go To My Friend Nikita Who Has Helped a Great Deal With This Story