Desperate
The nightmares you experience while asleep are nothing compared to the living hell Loki puts you through. He can make you do anything, and at night, he can make you see anything. For weeks It was torture. Until, It wasn't.
This morning it all changed. Loki wakes you up with a kiss to your forehead “morning sweetheart” His presence doesn’t fear you like you know it should, instead it’s calming and reassuring. You feel yourself snuggle up to him but it’s not against your will, you want to. He wraps his arm around you and for the first time in weeks you feel safe. You stare into his eyes getting lost in them for a few moments before his voice brings you back to reality. “how are you” holding his gaze for a moment you answer honestly.
“I feel, good” you have to think about your response for a second but you do truly mean it, something has changed within you and the worst part is, you don’t even mind.
“that's great to hear” he leans in for a kiss, his lips are soft and sweet as he pulls away you want desperately to taste him again but you settle for resting your head against his chest. Looking back on the past few weeks with Loki you can't bring yourself to remember them with anything but fondness, he had rescued you from, the Avengers. Even thinking about them fills you with rage. No. Hate. It took you a second to remember why you were feeling this hate it was almost as though the thought flipped a switch in your mind that you couldn’t control. Suddenly memories that you couldn't quite place came rushing into your mind. The Avengers mistreating you, Tony taking you from your parents and not letting you see them, Peter forcing you to be with him. something about these memories seems off they seem too vivid almost as if they were a dream, they had to be real though right. “What are you thinking about dear?” he voice is like music to your ears as he offers you a big smile.
“The Avengers”
“oh” he sounds taken back by your words as he strokes your cheek with his hand. “it’s best not to dwell on the past darling, you’re safe now and there is so much we have to do today”
you spend another hour in bed with Loki before he jumps out and makes breakfast for you both. When you are finished eating he washes up and sits before you at the table. “Today Y/N we are going to have to break into the avengers compound and take back something they took from me.”
“how are we going to do that, isn’t it heavily guarded” he waves his finger at your face as you ready yourself for his plan.
“We shall sneak in undetected, you know the lay out so it will not be too hard, come on my darling we will leave momentarily” he stands up and takes your hand, leading you outside. Before too long a white flash envelops you both and suddenly you’re standing on the woods on the perimeter of avengers compound. You crouch down with Loki behind some bushes. “you ready” he asks before you sneak from the bushes you see Tony and Peter walking just a few paces from the bush you were in. the shock of seeing them causes you to involuntarily gasp. Fuck, they heard you. Their heads dart to the bush and Loki grabs your arm steading you as he suddenly stands up forcing you up with him. your eyes lock with the two men as they stare at you in disbelief. Rage fills your entire body as Loki releases your arm and you sprint towards them.
“Y/N!” Peter’s voice a mix of fear anger and sadness.
“Take them out Y/N” Loki barely had to speak the words as you were already cocking your fist to attack. In a moment Tony had gotten his suit to manifest around him and was moving toward you. You hit Peter in the jaw as Tony pushes you from him.
“Y/N stop this, why are you doing this” Tony pleads with you but his voice only fills you with a deep hatred that builds from deep within you.
“You did this to me!” you yell back in his face as you kick Peter in the stomach but as you regain your balance Tony pins your arms behind you back and pulls you to the ground. You look up to try to find Loki in hopes that he will save you but you can’t see him, the only evidence of his presence the white flash dissipating through the trees.
“Take her inside” Disgust fills his voice as the rest of the Avengers show up to help Peter and take you into their custody.
Bucky hoists you up from your arms causing you to groan in pain as he leads you towards the compound. You struggle against his grasp manging to partially loosen his grip and turn to fight him off but before you can lunge towards him he punches you in the face knocking you out cold, as you collapse to the ground you hear him say something “Sorry doll”
When you come to again you find yourself tied to a bed in one of the prisoner containment rooms. Tony, Bucky and Thor surround the bed. “Let me go!” you scream and struggle to break free from the restraints but it’s no use.
“What happened, why did you break Loki out and attack Peter” Tony questions you as he places his hand on the bed.
“He rescued me, from you”
“Y/N what are you talking about” Genuine concern flashes across his face.
“You all abused me, Loki saved me” Thor grasps Tony’s arm and drags him out of the room and you only just catch what he says as they exit.
“I think I know what’s going on” Only Bucky remains in the room with you, his intense gaze leaving you on edge.
“This isn’t you” You’ve never seen him look so hurt before it's almost as if he cares, but you know that isn’t true because you have memories of him ignoring you and treating you like dirt.
“Leave me alone. I hate you!” He turns to the door and solemnly walks out, as the silence envelops the room you manage to hear a bit of Tony and Thor’s conversation.
“It has to be that, He is inside her mind” Thor’s voice barely registers as you begin to drift asleep on the bed.
Your eyes adjust to the darkness and you make out Loki’s figure in front of you, Running up to him you wrap your arms around his body and he pulls you into a hug. “I’m sorry about that darling, I didn't think they would be able to capture you, but I promise, I’m coming to get you just stay strong”
“I will” You cling to him tightly wishing you could wake up and truly be in his arms again. But for now you had to find a way to escape the Avengers.