you left me!
TW
+ Underage drinking ig (they're 17/18) (and 18 is the legal age in the UK but not America and I think this is set in America so bear with me)
+ Some mentions of past abuse and suicidal things e.g self harm and suicide attempts and thoughts.
+ Possible drinking and driving (nobody dies or gets caught tho ig we might be fine) (also this will only be mentioned I'm not describing that shit thats long af)
(Icl im gonna probs stop doing TW bc like if you acc read this you'll see that they are very repetitive and long)
I'm done now xx
Catra
Adora just smiled and said.
"Come on then." in a playful (?) tone.
She then proceeded to drag the brunette to the school parking lot, and seeing this Catra 's eyes widened.
"They have a whole ass car park!?"
Adora just rolled her eyes playfully she's so.. Pretty.
"Well duhh, how do you think people get to school."
" Whatever. " she said with an eye roll "Well which ones your princess"
"This one." She said whilst unlocking the pink? (Adora never liked pink. ) Convertible.
Catra' s eyes widened a bit in shock.
"Its.. Pink?"
" Well yeah. . You clearly have fantastic observation skills. " her voice laced in sarcasm.
"Oh. Yeah no sorry, I just wasn't expecting it, your favourite colour was always red.."
Adora (sorry for the sudden pov change)
"------your favourite colour was always red.." She remembered..
Catra was right red was her favourite colour, until she saw the colour too much, her red door, her red blood ( she had bled so much the first time it happened and it hurt so, so much). Now when she thought of red, she could only recall all the bad memories that had somehow connected to the colour.
"Yeah, well it changed..." She trailed off wanting to change the subject .
" well.. Come on, I'll show you what I have on me. "
The blonde watched as Catra raised her eyebrows.
"I promise its not that bad, just come on!"
Once Catra was in the passenger seat, Adora opened her white fluffy handbag, it matched her outfit. she liked to be co-oridinated, sue her. Ahh pulled out the water bottle and cigarettes, deciding she wanted the weed for herself.
" who would've guessed, that golden child Adora would do all of this? " Catra said with a teasing smirk.
Oh..
"Oh shut up!.." Adora replied with a playful shove .
"Well go on princess, take me away.."
Adora replied by staring her car and driving off.
Time skip (to when they get to the park)
"You took me to a park?
" Yeah, but only because nobody really comes here, it's basically abandoned.. "
Adora watches as Catra look at there surroundings and nods a little.
" Well... Let's do this then. " Adora reaches for the bottle in her bag, slowly un-screwing it before taking a long gulp, and then handing said bottle to Catra.
Time skip
When the bottle's finished both girls are all drunk and giggly, stumbling around and then falling back down. Adora thought it was a nice surreal feeling, being drunk with Catra was fun, they are both being compete idiots and without a care in the world. If only that feeling would last...
It was like this for a while, the duo then eventually deciding to play around on the playground equipment. Just like when we were kids.
"Yeah, it is isn't " Catra said before busting into a guy of giggled.
Oh. She had said that aloud. The blonde could feel herself going red. She then decides to look at her shoes to save herself from further embarrassment.
When the blonde finally looks up, she sees Catra staring intensely at her, she's also really, really close. Why do I want to kiss her. . The blonde finds herself asking.
"Adora...."
"Yes catra.." She says slightly slurring over her words.
Catra looks away for a split second and even though Adora is fucking wasted, she can tell that the other girl wants to say something.
Once (Adora assumes) Catra has collected her thoughts she speaks up again.
"Why did you leave me?.." The brunette had said it so softly, if they weren't alone Adora wouldn't have caught want she said. Oh... I- i. Why would she ask that...
"I Catra - i-i you know why... I got adopted... I couldn't not leave."
That seemed to break something inside of the other girl, as she suddenly burst into tears. When the brunette looked up Adora could see that the sadness in her eyes had been replaced with anger.
Suddenly, Catra stood up abruptly.
"Yeah, but you promised, you promised you would come back for me or write or something! You knew how much Weaver hated me, how much she wanted me to fail and you just- you just left. You left me alone with her. You moved on so quickly, did you even miss us! Did you even miss me!? Did you even care!?"
" C-catra I didn't.. I didn't want to leave you, but you have to see that I had no choice! "
The blonde girl realised tears of her own were now running down her face, it's cuz she was drunk... Definitely.
"Yeah, fine okay. You got adopted, but that didn't mean you couldn't write, or were you too absorbed in you new flashy life and all the new slutty clothes you could get." Catra pants out, looking Adora up and down gesturing to her outfit. it wasn't even that bad, if anything my outfit today is one of the calmer ones. ( it's some bell bottom jeans with a pink heart on one of the back pockets, with a white long sleeved shirt that's low cut it has fluff/fur on the bottom off the sleeves and the collar of the shirt)
Adora opens her mouth to say something but Catra just continues.
"Did you even think about me? You knew how Weaver was did you even tell anyone?! Wait- of course you wouldn't have you were her golden girl, you were always her favourite she probably never laid a single hand on you! Ever!"
Adora listened to Catra's panting. Was she done with her rant. Why didn't she understand that if it was up to Adora she wouldn't have left at all!
"Catra, you don't understand! I didn't want to leave, I tried so hard to find you, I looked for you everywhere but I moved to a different state, and then when I tried to write the letters they wouldn't get sent, they always, always got sent back to me.. "
"You were my best friend how could I ever forget about you... "
After about 10 minutes of silence, Adora checked the time 23:25.
The blonde quickly wiped her tears and spoke up;
"Umm... I'm pretty sobered up now, if you want, I'll take you home?"
The only response she got was Catra nodding her head.
When they got to Adora's car it was pissing down with rain, and just Adora's luck the roof to her car was fucking jammed.
"Shit.."
" sorry about it being wet... "
Catra slowly lifted her head from her shoes to look at Adora.
"Yeah, it's fine don't worry about it.."
The drive to Catra's house was silent, besides a few curse words and complaints about the rain. When they reached both girls were completely and utterly soaked, Adora decided the part she could was walk Catra up to the front door.
"Adora? I'm umm sorry about all the yelling, I understand that it wasn't your fault, I was just being dumb." Catra slurred.
for some weird reason the way Catra worded her apology pulled at Adora's heart strings.
"Its fine I kind of deserved it anyways..."
With that the pair continued there walk to Catra's ocean blue door in silence.
Catra
Catra watched from the corner of her eye (as she struggled with getting her key in the keyhole) as Adora stared off into the distance. For some odd reason she found her mouth forming the words,
"Do you want to come inside? My mom's will be home but they won't mind you being there." Was it The alcohol speaking?
The brunette watched as the blonde girl thought it through, eventually answering the question.
" yeah , if you're sure your mom's won't mind. "
With that said Catra lead Adora to her room, telling the blonde girl she would get her a change of clothes for her to wear, until her wet ones were dry.
Catra lead Adora to the bathroom connected to her room, and handed her a white Nike hoodie and grey tracksuit bottoms. Adora muttered a quiet thank you and closed the bathroom door. As soon as Catra heard the door click, she herself for changed.
It was a struggle at first, the t-shirt wouldn't go over her fucking head! Plus still being drunk made things much harder.. But eventually she was dressed.
The brunette sat down on her bed and quietly waited for Adora to come out the bathroom; after what felt like an eternity, Catra felt the bed dip down.
They both sat there in compete silence, the only sounds that were made were the sounds of heavy breathing, they were like this for a couple minutes before Adora spoke up.
"What happened...... When I left?" She said it quickly and quietly and when Catra turned to look at the blonde she saw her fiddling with the hem of her hoodie and looking down at her socked her feet.
It took Catra a couple seconds to come out with an answer.
"Well, umm.. I was only there till I was 9, so two more years after you left, but Weaver just got worse, she was upset when you left and the punishments got worse. But umm, she fell ill, probably all the smoking and drinking getting to her..." She tried to joke but neither her or Adora laughed or found it funny .
The brunette cleared her throat before she continued.
"She was diagnosed with cancer, i-i I don't really know what happened after because I got adopted shortly after that... "
Normally when she spoke about her childhood, it took a lot of prodding for her to say anything. (All she could ever see was her punishments, and all the physical and mental scars that left her with) But with Adora, it was.. Easy. She felt like Adora understood, and deep down she knew that Adora would never judge or make fun.
She was dragged back to reality when Adora softly spoke up..
"Catra, I'm so, so, so sorry, I'm glad you got out when you could..."
Did Adora truly believe that is was her fault? Catra only lashed out because she thought she needed someone to blame for how shit her life was going, it just so happened that Adora was there, she guessed.
"Don't be a dummy, it wasn't your fault.." The brunette said staring into Adora's, pretty, deep, blue eyes.
They were pulled out of their moment when Adora's phone went off; someone was calling her, before the blonde actually picked up the phone, Catra took a quick glimpse at the time. 2:07. Fuck it's late af.
Whilst Adora was talking to her mom (?) Catra stared off into the distance. Replaying the events of tonight in her head.
Did tonight mean anything to Adora? And if it did, did it make them friends again?
She was pulled out of her thoughts when Adora tapped her in the shoulder.
"My mom-" Catra noticed how she said the word with a grimace and a flinch? Before she continues.
"---wants me home now. So I'm gonna go now okay?"
It takes a while for Catra to completely process the words she's being told.
" I uhh, yeah, okay.. Do you want me to walk you out? "
"No it's fine, just go to sleep,and drink lots of water" the blonde said with a soft smile.
Catra just nodded, the words not being able to form on her tongue.
"Okay, bye catra." The blonde said with a small wave,as she left Catra's room.
Leaving Catra alone in her room with her thoughts.