Chapter 4
While waiting for Wanda Natasha opens the letter and begins to read what this one says, hoping that there’s something in this one that can give her hope of seeing Peter sometime soon.
So, I’m assuming the person reading this (or who found it) is Natasha. I mean Nat you’re the one who taught me the whole symbol thing, if you’re reading this then I guess it worked but at the same time you don’t need to waste your time looking for me. I know I’m acting different to what I’m saying seeing as I wrote this hoping that you would find it but I kept having this image of you searching and searching but coming up empty and I know how much you hate not being able to find anything.
You won’t find me Nat, at least not yet but I don’t want you to, so please Tasha just go home. I need to do this on my own okay. I need to. As much as I know you want to you can’t make this any better, I can’t tell you everything (mostly because you won’t react to it well) but May doesn’t want me anymore. She’s not the main reason I left but she’s the reason I’m not with her, she told me to leave and never go back, so I haven’t been in that apartment for a while now.
I lied to you and Mr Stark when I said she was on the night shifts when I asked to stay at the tower, I’m sorry I just didn’t know what to do. I knew I could talk to you so please don’t think it’s on you, but I didn’t want to tell you, I think I had convinced myself she was just at work.
Last night I realised that I don’t want to be gone forever, I don’t think I knew how much I felt like the tower was my home until I wasn’t there and all I wanted to do was turn back around and come home but I can’t, not yet. I don’t want to disappear forever, so I put a number on the back of this letter, I have a phone with me and before you wonder it’s not traceable. But I’ll have it with me at all times, if you need me then you have a way to contact me, but you don’t have to. If you want to then you could message it to just tell me you got the letter, although now I’m not sure how I’ll know it’s you.
Anyway, I think I’ll try and figure out a way to get another letter to you at some point, I know that’s probably dumb seeing as I wanted to leave, and I told you to forget about me so I should stop but I don’t know how to really. I thought I wanted to go but I’m not sure anymore, or at least I don’t want to be gone completely if that makes sense. You know if you want me to stop just message that number with just “Stop” and then I’ll know, I’ll keep the phone with me just in case you need me for an emergency though.
I’m sorry Tasha, I know this is the dumbest thing I’ve ever done but I feel I have to go. I still have no idea where I’m going.
Oh and don’t worry about school, I graduated the other week, I made sure that none of you knew. I obviously didn’t tell any of you and I also told Ned and MJ that they can’t say anything, I’m going to miss them while I’m gone. I’m going to miss all of you.
See you one day!
Love from PP
After reading the full letter Natasha flips it over and just like he said there was a number on the back of it, she pulled her phone out ready to message him before she realised that she wasn’t sure how to ensure he would know it was her. Until she was hit by a memory from the year before.
Once again Natasha and Peter were up at an ungodly hour, neither of them able to sleep once again and so they sat in silence watching whatever was playing on TV. Neither of them was really watching it but more using it as background noise. Until “Miss Nat?” Natasha had been zoned out for a while before his voice pulled her back and she turned to see him looking at her to which she nodded to indicate for him to continue, “Would you be okay with teaching me Russian?”
That, honestly, was not what she had been expecting, “You want me to teach you Russian? Why?”
Peter looked away from her before uttering “I tried to teach myself but it’s erm it’s not going well, I thought it would be fun to learn a new language or well more MJ said I should try learning a new language, said she wanted to see if I’m a genius outside of the more academic subjects. We went through all the different languages that the Avengers can speak, and I decided I want to speak Russian like you! Only if that’s okay of course, but I have no idea where to look to start learning and so I was wondering if you would help?”
At his ramble she can’t help but chuckle, “Of course I’ll teach you Russian Peter, don’t tell Tony though or he’ll get jealous I’m teaching you something he can’t.” Her answer gifts her with such a dazzling smile on his face that she feels as if the sun has rested in her chest despite the fact that they’re awake at three in the morning covered in a blanket of darkness only disturbed by the light from the TV.
Instantly she knew what she could send him.
You will always have a home with me! - Мама Паук
After around five minutes later Wanda comes walking around the corner, clearly trying not to look out of place but still rushing to meet her, “What did you find?” Is the first thing to come out of her mouth.
Instead of answering Natasha just hands her the letter Peter left and she watches her while she reads wanting to see her reaction. When Wanda gets to the part about May she doesn’t look up as she says, “Well I guess that answers our question about why May isn’t helping look.” And Natasha is very aware of when she gets to the part about the phone number because her head shoots up and unlike Natasha, she flips the paper over before reading the rest but before she can even open her mouth Natasha beats her to it. “I’ve already messaged him, told him he that he can come home. He hasn’t answered and I don’t think he will.” And Wanda goes back to reading.
After she finished reading Wanda lent her body against the wall dawning the spider symbol, “He graduated?” She asks looking at Natasha, who only stares back. “He graduated and didn’t tell us, we didn’t notice. I – how? Why? So, he’s been planning on leaving for a while then huh? I don’t get why Ned and MJ didn’t tell us, yeah, I know he told them not to saying anything about him being done with school but how come they didn’t get concerned when they found out he’s just gone. If you knew your friend just wasn’t showing up, you would be concerned and- “
“Unless they already knew.” Natasha cut in.
“You think they knew he was going to run?” Wanda asks.
“I’m not saying for certain, but it makes sense as to why they didn’t panic when we said he was missing if they already knew he was gone. What I don’t understand is why he didn’t tell us about May, he must have known we would have taken care of him?”
“I have no idea Nat. Do we do what he says and just stop looking? Do we just wait for him to randomly drop off another letter? He said it himself you won’t find him. We all know you don’t like people telling you aren’t able to do something, especially Peter but he wouldn’t say it if it wasn’t true. You’re also the person who knows him best out of us so if you don’t know there’s little chance we would.”
Staring at Wanda, Natasha found herself going through the letter once again. He told her to go home, begged her practically.
“He said he doesn’t want to be gone forever, so as much as I hate it, I think we need to listen. He’s asked us, or well me, to basically leave him to it what if we don’t listen and he chooses to never come back? So, we tell them to go back to the tower.” Natasha sighs before pressing her earpiece, “Boys turn around and meet back at the tower. He left another letter.”
“Got it Romanoff.” Tony’s voice crackled through.