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Natasha had decided not to join the others after putting Logan down. She wanted some time to herself because she knew she wouldn't be getting any time to be alone and just breathe, so here she was sitting on her bed reading and eating a sandwich, enjoying her time alone, the quiet. Natasha was reading a parenting book since she needed all the help she could get and she was learning a lot of things like how she was supposed to make sure Logan got into a good school and stuff but she wasn't going to push him to be perfect because she knew Loki as an adult was smart so she knew Logan would be fine, just as she was about to turn the page to her book she heard wails from the other room only meaning that Logan was up but he had slept a total of 4 hours so she wasn't complaining now that he was up.
When Natasha walked into Logan room he stopped crying immediately when he saw her in the room his hat had been taken off and his black locks were messy and Natasha was glad that she adopted Loki she got to watch him grow and who wouldn't want to wake up to that cute face.
"Hey котенок your up," Natasha said, walking over and picking up Logan in her arms. She noted that his diaper was soiled and got to change it.
Once she was done changing him she relocated them to her room where she got comfortable before she pulled her shirt up so Logan could latch on her to her breast that was full, once Logan was eating Natasha picked up her book again and started reading it was 30 minutes later that Logan was done eating, Natasha started to burp him once he let out the gas before switching to her other breast she had read that you should burp a baby after switching from each breast and when he was finished Natasha repeated the procedure before rocking Logan back to sleep.
Natasha had placed Logan in the bassinet that was in her room. She felt like he was going to be spending a lot of time in her room, she knew she was going to be too tired to take him back to his crib in his room in the middle of the night. Even though she has had Logan for a while she had a feeling she wouldn’t want to let him go. It wasn’t 20 minutes later before she heard the elevator open to her floor, she heard carefully the footsteps and knew it was Steve.
“Stev you can come in,” Natasha said once she was sure that he was close to her door so that he could hear her and Steve let himself into her room,” Dinner is ready.” Steve said in a hushed voice as he saw Logan was sleeping,” Okay I’m coming.” Natasha grabbed the baby monitor and her phone before exiting her room. She knew she really didn’t need the baby monitor because she had Jarvis but having the baby monitor meant extra security if something happened to Jarvis.
Both Stev and her made their way to the common room where the dining table had been set and Pepper was bring in the last of the food to the table as Natasha and Steve took their seats, Natsah tried not to be bothered by the empty spot next to her but it did she really wish Clint was here she could use some of his advice and support but he needed time and she was going to give him that.
Dinner had gone well filled with conversation nothing changed even if they did have a baby in the tower now everything was fine, it was normal, Natasha had been checking the monitor hourly to make sure Logan was still asleep where Natasha had left him, she feared that if she took her eyes off of him it would all be a dream and that this wasn’t really but he didn’t vanish he was still there just where she left him.
Logan didn’t wake up until they were just finishing their first movie. That's when she got the alert from Jarvis and his loud screaming came through the monitor that she went to quiet the crying baby. When Natasha arrived on her floor Logan’s cries were louder than she thought they were.
“I’m here котенок,” Natasha said as she picked Logan up and rocked him gently she took her previous possession on the bed as she got both of them comfortable before she started breastfeeding him again.
Natasha never thought she would find herself here in this position feeding a baby. Her baby. The red room had taken that opportunity or any dreams about her having a family. If it was more important than a mission they couldn’t let that happen they raised her to be a killer, their perfect assassin, and getting knocked up was not in their plans for her.