Falls
"Peter why would you do this?"
"Peter, we love you."
"Don't leave us, Petey."
"Hey, Kid."
"Come back to us."
Peter could hear everything around him. He was falling. Words, echoing around him. He was falling. Falling deeper and deeper into the pit. He couldn't climb back out, for the walls were too deep. Gasping and clutching his chest. He knew he shouldn't have, but he did.
Now, who's going to make sure May doesn't go down the same path as him? He might as well killed everyone that cared about him too.
And MJ and Ned... he should've told them. But it's far too late. Far, far too late. Maybe he can wake from this medically induced coma and open up more. But then Ms. Pepper is going to blame herself, too...
And Morgan! How could he forget about his favorite sister. Morgan was there when they were both missing Tony so much it started to hurt.
Peter is falling. Falling hard and fast. The Angel's wings were taken from him. Everyone is worrying. He's always been stuck in his head, but now that his wings are gone- his hope, his pride, and the one person he would give anything for- who is he living for? Because it was hard enough when his parents died. He didn't know who would be proud of him then. Then Ben was, and he left too. May couldn't always be there for him, so she didn't know half the things he's accomplished. But Tony did. Mr. Stark was there at every science convention, every award, and ice cream after.
Of course, he didn't say he was proud. But he showed it. And the tree remembers. He remembers being watered and cared for and helped when he was sad.
But Tony is gone now. And he finally tried living for himself- but that's impossible. How could he ever be proud of himself- such a fuck up, that he got 3 different fathers killed.
And he'll get to see him soon enough.
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Hey Aunt May.
I love you more than you know. You were there since before my parents died, and helped me get through that. When Ben died, we were there for each other. You could've kicked me out, gotten abusive, and drank alcohol all the time. But you didn't. You stayed strong for me. And I will never be more thankful.
But I don't love me. And that's the thing. I have nightmares about Beck. I know you're awake when I wake from those dreams. I have nightmares about when Tony died. I have nightmares about when I was in the Soul World. I was in so much pain. You've probably noticed the number of pills we have, and by the time you get home, you'll see the number of bottles I had to use to get rid of Beck in my mind constantly. I think you know I've been smoking Marijuana and drinking alcohol a lot. I want to apologize.
I'm very sorry about drinking. I'm sorry for smoking. I'm sorry for being a burden to you, even if you don't think so.
I larb you.
Pete.
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Ned, my bro.
I know I don't say it- but I love you man. You're the best friend I could ever ask for. I know I haven't been an okay brother or best friend, but you have been. And I couldn't thank you more. I know that you know about the nightmares. You always fake being asleep. That night I stayed over you were awake, and you were worried. Your heart rate was so fast when you heard me crying. I'm sorry for ever worrying you.
I guess we really can't fix that Death Star.
I told Karen all about you guys. About May, and MJ and you. I asked if I died, who she would want to go to. She obviously said she would never let me die, but if she had to choose, she wanted to go to you. So. You can have Kare-Bear.
Love you, man. And I'm sorry for this.
Pete.
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Emmie, MJ, Michelle, the badass of the century.
Thanks for being there for me. You helped me through panic attacks at the school, and stood up to Flash when he poked the wrong wounds. Thank you for being my friend. You've always been a badass, but when you told off that one cop for police brutality to black people and got a bit famous for it, and I introduced you to Pepper- that's when I realized I'd stick around for a lot longer than the day I wanted to die. A few weeks after I came back from the soul world, from when we came back, and Tony died- you found me in the library crying. And you calmed me down. So thank you. You saved me for a bit longer. I love you, and I love Ned and May. Please, please make sure they're okay when I die. Because I know you won't break like they will. I'm hoping you'll miss me, but those two? They'd die inside and probably try to follow me.
You have your whole life ahead of you. Make sure it's full of love and protests and changing history.
Pete.
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Even though they were in separate rooms, they were all crying. Peter couldn't be saved, and the doctors at the Compound are taking him off of Life Support. There were tears all over their letters.
Pepper told the rest of the Avengers that they were going to lose Spiderman and revealed his identity.
They all felt bad for the child, especially Bruce Banner. He met him during his time with Tony. He corrected his equation and fanboyed and they grew close...
Not close enough.
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Hey Morguna.
Peter said, on the hologram.
I won't be seeing you for a while.
And I know you'll be sad about this when you're older, and when you understand what I did-
But I did it because I love you, and Pepper, and May, Ned, MJ, and the whole world.
And because I love Dad. And I found a way to bring him back. I did this, so you could be with Dad longer.
Pepper quietly gasped, and the reformed Avengers' eyes were wide.
And because people miss Natasha. And Gamora- even though we only saw her in battle.
I love you so much, little miss. You're going to rule the world when you're older. And I wish I could be there to see that, I really do-
Peter inhales deeply, and breathes out shakily, trying not to cry during this recording.
But I can't. You'll see me when you're older, sis. And I know it's Dad's thing, but
It seemed like he looked directly at everyone- in their eyes.
I love you 3000. Hope you don't get mad at me for saying that.
He chuckled with watery eyes and walked away.