When
Time was irrelevant.
It took many things from Peter Parker. His innocence. His purity. His immunity to evil. His uncle. His parents. And soon, Time would send Death to take Peter and May themselves.
Peter Parker hates Time. He hates Death. And he hates Love. Call him depressing, but it was true. He hated them. Despises them.
And Time took five years from him. From Ned and May. And Happy. And MJ. And even Flash, who didn't care what Time did to Peter. Time took five years from everyone and left others to mourn and forget and wish others were still there.
So yeah, Time is irrelevant to Peter.
And so is life.
Really.
After Mr.Stark died, his third father figure, and he thought he gained a fourth? Taken from him, lied to. Three aspects make up his life: Time, Death, and Love. All of which he despises.
He didn't always hate them. Fell in love with MJ, broke up when they both realized they were gay. Didn't hate Love until Love broke him- fucking Wade. Death was just death- happened to everyone. Didn't really hate it until it took Uncle Ben and his parents from him... now Tony. And Time- five years? Uncle? Parents? Time was a part of it all. So he didn't really hate time until it all happened too.
So, no, Peter hasn't always been this way.
Cold demeanor, Flash fears him, and MJ and Ned are scared.
Scared of who he's become.
When? When has always been an aspect in his life. "' When am I going to grow up, Mom? Get a car, and live like you and Dad- happy?' "
His mother never knew how to answer. Until her death day.
She knew HYDRA was coming for her and Richard. So she answered him with, "Honey, I don't know. All I know is I love you and will do my best to be there every step of the way."
May and Ben knew. They knew Mary and Richard were going to die. But lying to their son before they did to find closure? That was too much.
That night, on the news, it showed the flight had crashed. Peter wouldn't leave his room.
" 'Uncle Ben? Why'd they leave me?' " He cried for weeks.
Then Uncle Ben died a few years later. He left too. But this time, Peter was strong for May. He had to be. He listened, and was kind, and didn't get into arguments- maybe then would Time, Death and Love would leave him be.
Met Tony, fought with Tony, loved Tony. Lost Tony.
"Would it kill you to call me Tony?"
"Kid, those were swimming goggles."
"Fury tried to call you!? Stay far away from him."
"Because I care, kid. I want to be there for you, too."
"... ki-"
Lost Tony, and he felt like another piece of his heart was ripped out.
So yeah, Time is irrelevant.
Death is irrelevant.
And sure, he loves May, but he tries not to show it so she doesn't leave him too.
Yes, he is scared. But who wouldn't be after a life like that?
So when? When is irrelevant. Life is irrelevant. So is Love, Time, and Death because "fuck that, I want my fucking life back."
That's why he cuts.
And that's why he's in a coma.
He can feel them, and can't reach out.
He's lost himself too much.
Gone too far.
Bleeding through everything doctors put on him.
So weak, his healing isn't even working.
When is irrelevant.
He doesn't forget that.
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Maybe he's just weak. Or that's how he thinks. Maybe that's why he couldn't save that baby from the fire. Or that mother from being raped. Or that elderly man from being mugged and killed in an abandoned garage.
He thinks he's weak. "Maybe if you were stronger, Tony would still be alive."
He breaks again and again.
And even when Beck is dead, he still remembers. And even if people trust him, he still doesn't trust himself. He's scared...
But not of death. And not of Death. And not of Time. And not of Love.
Because they're irrelevant.
So now he's walking down the street a plan in his mind. He has exactly 3 days to complete.
And When...
When he does it, he hopes no one will remember him.