dreamer

"so would you mind just starting at the beginning? I'm really lost" Amelia says looking at the man she was sitting across, who she had learned was called Ashton, Ashton Carter. She felt bad as he dragged her to quite literally the nicest restaurant she'd ever seen in her life, he clearly had money but she felt guilty for not being able to pay, of course he reminded her that this was a date though she couldn't remember him asking her out on it.

"I first met you when you were sent to my hospital and you were assigned as my patient, you were showing a high fever and severe joint pain, your brother informed me that you'd been experiencing memory loss recently and you had the signature lupus rash on your face so I began treating you"

"so you're a doctor? you seem a bit young" She says taking a sip of the wine that was served moments before, though she had no idea if she was of age

"you said that same thing when we first met, and I'll say to you now what I said then, I have a young face but don't worry I have gone through all of the proper training, you're in good hands" he says and she laughs

"what's my profession?"

"you're an author, you've been working on a book for as long as I've known you"

"wow, I always wanted to be an author" she says with a small smile

"so do you have anymore questions?"

"what happened to my family?" she asks

"well I've only met you're older brother Kaden and the teenager Brooklyn but I believe the rest of your family lives in California"

"California? They moved, why would they do that?" she asks confused, they always talked about growing old in Washington

"well from what you told me, they were upset about the essay you wrote about them, the one that went viral so they left. Kaden dropped out of school so you would have someone to take care of you and Brooklyn lives with him so she wouldn't have to leave her friends"

"wow he did that for me?"

-

"Ashton I'm sorry I ruined our date tonight by asking a million questions, next time I'll make sure to take my meds so we don't have this problem"

"don't worry about it, I still had a great time" he says with a smile as he walks her up to her apartment

"me too" she says honestly holding the keys in her hands

"we should do this again, that is if you want to if you don't then its totally fine and we can just-"

"I'd love to, I'm assuming you have my number text me" she says with a blush covering her face

"yeah, yep, sounds great I'll see you soon haha"

"goodnight" she says

"yeah goodnight, sleep tight" he says awkwardly before sending her one last killer smile and walking down the hall. She closes the door gently and takes off the heels she'd been wearing cursing at them before walking over to her room and looking around. There was pictures of Kaden, Brooklyn and her doing various things and they all seemed happy, which was odd considering last she could remember Brooklyn hated her and Kaden hardly ever looked her way. She spots a laptop on her bed and walks over and opens it, she goes to google and types her name in hoping to shed some light on what the hell happened between her suicide attempt and now. She finds a news article dedicated to herself and clicks on it

Amelia Sanderson

Author

(2018- Present)

Amelia Sanderson is a young author, she is well known for her essay 'why I tried to commit suicide', which she wrote at the age of 18 just days after attempting to commit suicide. She talks about her experience with anxiety, and depression. This essay was a major hit and was a real spotlight into the world of depression, she shed light on the truth of it all, including her family's ignorance towards her feelings. Sanderson won several awards from the essay and is recognized as one of the best writers of her generation. Amelia now 21, resides in Seattle Washington, sources say that she has been working on a book for quite some time now. After being diagnosed with Lupus the young talent has taken some much deserved time off, however we are all hoping that she will get better so we can see what is next to come in her story.

The tears fall down her face as she shuts the laptop and places it on the ground, there was no way she had written something like that. Sure she held a bit of anger towards her family for ignoring her obvious pain but writing a whole essay dragging them? That was not something she cold picture herself doing, but since that happened this must mean that this is real? She must have survived just like the article said and now the reason why she's confused is because of her Lupus. It made sense, she hadn't taken her meds according to Ashton and memory loss is a common symptom of Lupus, so maybe she wasn't in hell after all. She was just confused due to her irresponsibility, thats all. She sighs and lays back on the bed looking back up at the ceiling, everything was ok and when she wakes up in the morning it would all be normal.

-

Amelia opens her eyes and is struck with blinding lights, she groans and lifts her arms to cover her face but they feel like jello. After a few moments her eyes adjust to the light and she takes in her surroundings, this was not the apartment she fell asleep in, she was now in a white hospital. She sits up and begins to panic as she notices her parents sitting in the chairs next to her bed, they wake up as her heart rate causes several alarms to go off and several nurses rush into the room and grab her trying to calm her down.

"Amelia its ok you're awake"

"it was a dream? it felt so real" she asks

"you were asleep for almost two days sweetie, do you remember what happened?" a nurse asks

"I tried to kill myself" she mumbles

"thats right, now why don't you take a deep breath and drink some fluids for me ok? And I'll be back in a second with the doctor" she says before walking out of the room

"Amelia what were you thinking?" her mom asks standing up and walking over to the side of her bed

"I was sad and I didn't wanna do it anymore"

"do what live? you have a good life, a roof over your head and food whenever you want it" her mom says angrily

"you don't understand mom"

"Cleary, now if you ever do that again I will kill you myself do you understand?" she says angrily

"yes"

"you're selfish" she says before taking her seat once again