Chapter 1
Hi Mr. Stark,
You probably already heard. I’m sure you have it’s been a week. I’m sorry if I hurt you, but I couldn’t do it anymore. No one likes Peter Parker. I don’t even like myself, so it’s impossible for someone else to like me. Things have been exhausting, you know? I feel like I’m being beaten down too much, like I’m drowning.
Don’t worry. I’ll be happier. I think I will be anyways. I don’t really know what I have waiting for me on the other side. Everyone assumes that it’ll be good there, but I’m not so sure. I hope there will be mountains, and the northern lights. Maybe even something like the Nordic countries. I think that would be nice. I wish I could have visited there on my own terms, but instead things have come to this. I’m worried it’ll just be more pain. This isn’t the life I want anymore. It’s all grey and it’s like I never knew what the sun is like. I swear this whole time I’ve been help up by strings, but held down by chains. I feel like it’s all my own fault. This is something I did to myself, you know? Maybe if I didn’t hold myself back or put myself down. Or maybe if I didn’t do all the things I’ve done. The only one responsible for this is me. My parents, are because of me. It’s all because of me, Mr. Stark. The only person to be blamed here is me. I don’t know if I’ll ever get past this. Everything big in my life has lead to this.
Really though, don’t worry about me. I’m sure things will be fine in the end. Don’t blame yourself for this. It’s not on you. I just can’t handle it anymore. Maybe we’ll see each other again, on the other side- if there is another side. I suppose we’ll find out when we get there. Parker luck would probably stop that from ever happening though.
Although this hurts me to write, Mr. Stark. You needed to know, this was the only option. I can’t do anything about it anymore. I am a lost cause. No one should be held back by me anymore. I’ll only bring more pain to everyone involved. I do not want to be responsible for anyone dying. Tell May I’m sorry and that I’ll be okay. I wish I could see her one more time.
Please help keep my memory alive,
Peter Parker