SAM POV
I was sitting next to Bucky on the couch watching a movie. I can't say I was paying attention cause I really wasn't. My eyes and mind kept drifting off to Bucky who couldn't stop moving or clear his throat from time to time.
He looked uncomfortable like he was trying to figure something out or he was trying to say something but words can't come out of his mouth. I tought about asking him what's wrong or if there is anything I can help him with but I realized if there was something important,if he actually needed my help he would ask for it.
My toughts were interrupted by a shaky voice "Sam" Bucky said from his seat turning to face me.
"Yes" I took my eyes of the TV and looked at him, his attention focused on his hands "how long have we known eachother?" He asked a hint of curiosity in his voice. I looked a little confused at him but shrugged and decided to just answer
"Umm I don't know a lot,it actually depends if you count the years we disappeared or if you don't but either way there are enough years" I said and he nooded "and we are friends...right?" He questioned raising his head making eye contact with him. I looked at him right in the eyes looking for any emotion and saw just pure curiosity and something else that I just can't put my hands on. I realized I forgot to answer him so I quickly shake my head and raised an eyerbrow
"Yes Bucky of course we are friends, we go on missions togheter,we live together, hell we even share the same bathroom and we might not get along pretty well all the time and have little fights but that doesn't mean we are not friends" even if I would want to be more. I wanted to add but I shut my mouth before the words slipped out
"Ok so that means we can talk about anything right?" He asks, curiosity raising more in his voice
"Yes that sounds about right, Bucky what the fuck is going on why you asking me all this?" I questioned getting a bit closer to him
"I don't know is just someth-is something I need to talk about with someone and I-I--I don't know" he says dropping his eyes back on the hands his cheeks blushing and my eyes widened a grin making its way into my face
"Did James James Buchanan Barnes just blushed or am I seeing things?" I asked sarcastically in a teasing voice and he glared at me. I just rolled my eyes still keeping the smile on my face
"Come on man I am kidding what's bothering you so much that you need to talk about?" I asked completely serious this time curiosity hitting me
"I just-I-it's embarrassing Sam just forget I mentioned it" he replied guilt being heard in his tone
"Bucky I can't just drop it now, just tell me man it can't be that embarrassing I can handle it" I said and he raised an eyerbrow "dude I walked in on Steve and Tony doing it, I felt enough embarrassment then for my entire life" I said, he made a face of disgust and so I made a face that suggested him to continue ,he said nothing just gulped
"Have you killed someone accidentally?" I questioned trying to guess
"What? No"
"Did you see someone you shouldn't have naked?"
"Umm no and I don't want to"
"Did you had a wet dream about Zemo?"
"Sam no, Zemo? what the fuck no eww stop asking you can't guess and again eww" was his last reply before I let out a little laugh
"Sorry man just trying to help" I held my hands up in defence as he sighs
"Come on Bucky,look if you really dont want to tell me that's ok I am not gonna force you to but you said you fell the need to tell somene and I am here" I said being serious for the first time tonight,he looked at me trying to find any signs of amusement or joke, when he couldn't find any he sighed and said 'fine'.
"Well you know what happened right? how I was frozen and then the whole hydra thing and right after I recovered Thanos and the snap happened and all that.." he said playing with his fingers something he does when he is felling nervous. Learned that a while ago
"Yes I know about all of it but what about it?" I asked looking at his face
"Well since hm-m" he cleared his throat, his face becoming a dark shade of pink "since we came back and even before the snap I have tried many times to uhh jerkoffbuticouldntdoit" he pronounced the last words fast barely audible but I understood them and my mouth dropped in shock
"I-yo-couldn--wha-i-you wha..." I stuttered, the words blocking in my throat,I closed my mouth pressing my lips on a thin line to stop any sound that could get out
"You what?" I say and regret spelling the words as soon as I see fear and guilt attacking his expression
"I-Sam fuck I am sorry-I shouldn't have said it-I warned you it was gonna be embarrassing-I am sorry-fuck-i really am sorry..." he mumbled trying to get up and my mind came back to normal,I quickly reconnected the toughts in my head and stopped Bucky from getting up.
"Bucky no jeez I was just surprised that's all,I just wasn't expecting it. It-It's not that bad...." I said trying to sounds as normal as I could.
"Now let's repeat that again to see if I got it right" I said,he nooded not looking at me "you said you tried to jerk off but you couldn't do it...right?" He just stared at down giving a small nood
"Ok and what exactly do you mean by that?you mean you can't get you know hard?" I questioned curiously
God this is painful, I am here talking with the boy I have been desperately in love with and had fantasies about for so many years, about him jerking off.
Don't get hard now Sam
Don't get hard now Sam
"No not that,I can get hard I can get my self worked up I just-no matter how much I do it I just can't you know umm...reach my orgasm" he finished and I let out a long breath felling my face heating up and the material of the boxers suddenly feeling tight. I shacked my head and looked at Bucky face trying to find an answer in my mind
"Have you tried you know, watching porn while doing it? That helps sometimes" I suggested and he rolled his eyes
"God Sam" he groaned in what probably was frustration but the sound went straight my cock "of course I did, I watched porn all kinds, gay,straight,lesbian,threesomes and any other kind of porn exist I just couldn't" he said and my mouth went dry at the tought of him in his room on his bed with the phone on his hand watching porn while the other was around his dick trying to make him self cum. I heard another growl from him before he made eye contact with me and my boxers felt like exploding. It all was just so much for me to prooces in a few seconds and the words left out of Bucky’s mouth like it was a causal conversation.
"I tried everything Sam fuck I watched all the porn that existed, I even fingered my self until I felt my eyes in the back of my head,going at it for hours I just couldn't do it"Bucky said frustration filling his tone.
That was it, that's what broke it for Sam.
Imagines of Bucky fingering him self until he couldn't breath holding the headboard for supprt, his own fingers sliding in and out of his hole with no mercy the other hand stroking his dick trying to reach his orgasm but moaning desperately cause he couldn't. Sam felt like he couldn't even breath
"Bucky stop talking" I groaned getting the other man attention.
"I am sorry fuck I got carried away,I just don't know what to do,I am desperate I feel like exploding with need to cum everytime I do it and I jus-" he was interrupted by another loud growl from the back of my throat
"I said stop talking" I repeated in a dominant voice and looked deep into his eyes
"What-" his stare scanned my face and traveled from my eyes to my lips "Sam" he whispered biting his bottom lip.
Our bodies were so close I could fell the head radiating from his skin making its way into mine...."fuck it" I murmured jumping into his lap grabbing his face bettwen my hands and smashing my lips into his.
His hand cupped my waist a surprised gasp leaving his lips but in not less than a second I felt himself relax under my touch and I went for it.
It wasn't slow or comforting and it surely wasn't just a gentle touch of our lips. It was rough and full of need, my tounge exploring every inch of his mouth like I was looking for something I desperately needed to find. His tounge brushed against my teeth and I bite it gently a chocked moan filling his throat as my hands traveled up in his hair holding into it before we let go of eachother breathing heavily.
"Sam wh-" he started to say but I moved my hips our hard lengths rubbing against eachother to make him shut up and he closed his eyes pressing his lips into a thin line
"Do you want me to stop?" I asked moving my hips again and he shacked his head "fuck no, you can shoot me if I ever say yes to that question" he laughed holding tight into my waist
"I wanna help you then" I murmured licking my lips
"Help me?" He questioned confused
"I wanna help you reach your orgasm and more than that, I wanna make you cum hard and fast" I stopped for a second forcing him to look into my eyes "harder than you ever did even before you were frozen, wanna see how you look when I make you shiver and shake with need to reach it" I said, his blue eyes became dark, full off need and lust "fuck yes Sam please" he whispered closing his eyes.
I grabbed his shirt running my hand up his chest shivers running trough my body
"Take this off now" I added desperate, he took his shirt off quickly throwing it in the other side of the room. My hands traveled up from his waist to his nipples and he gasped cupping my waist hard throwing his head back, a smirk made it's way into my face.
I crushed my lips into his once again rolling my hips faster against his creating the long waited friction bettwen us. He moaned against my mouth,I felt my boxers exploding at the sounds he made. I let go of him and get up from his lap my chest rising up and down before we can go any further
"Take your pants off now, boxers too and lean on your back" I ordered taking my own clothes off.
I looked at him staying exactly as I asked him too. Leaning against the couch his hands resting above his head, legs relaxed, his chest rising up and down breathing heavily and cock hard and twitching against his stomach
"Fuck well aren't you a sight" I murmured climbing on top of him looking down at his body and his face.
"Stop staring and do somet-oh fuck" I cutt him off by leaking a stripe along his neck and biting his earlobe
"S-am please..." Bucky moaned rising his hips up in the air. I placed my hands on his waist stopping him from moving a neddy whimper leaving his throat.
"Stop moving baby or I will stop" I said, his cock twitches at the nickname and I smirked capturing his lips with mine in a short kiss.
I slowly make my way down ,leaking his chest biting his nipples twisting the others into my hand. My mouth travels down facing his stomach "F-fuck Sam p-please I need-" Bucky voice comes out like desperate noises from the back of his throat as I leaked biting his stomach and hips avoiding his cock
I look up at him smirking as I see him watching me.My hand goes up his tight then I found my self cupping his cock loud noises filling the room.
I create slow and painful movements with my wrist moving my hand up and down teasing him gently. "S-sam move faster please..please" Bucky begged a needy whine following after, my cock twitches against his knee, I growl starting to move my hand faster and faster while with the other one I was rubbing circles into his tights
"Tell me what you think about" my raspy voice said "tell me what you were thinking about when you were getting yourself off fingering in your room desperate" I slowed the movements of my hand allowing him catch his breath and answer me
"I-i tought about you" he starts "about your pretty lips around me and your tongue licking my cock up and down while I moan and cum on your f-face-oh god Sam" Bucky arched against the bed gasping and moaning when I leaked his cock sucking the tip in my mouth stopping his words
"Is that so baby? Were you thinking about this pretty cock of yours twitching in my mouth against my tongue deep down in my throat" I stoped for a second to look him in the eye "I am sure you want that, you want me to let you fuck my throat, move your hips until your cock is berried inside my mouth and your tights shiver against my shoulders.." I was drolling at the sight of him,his cock, his tights his chest and I couldn't Iie to myself I wanted it as much as he did "Sam I-need please please" he begged looking at me with neddy eyes his mouth opened trying to breath
I kept eye contact as I took him into my mouth lowering my self as much as I could. His head threw back hitting the couch a loud moan echoed in the room sending shivers down my spine. I started to bob my head up and down his length sucking and hollowing my checks pleasuring Bucky with everything I had. I go up flicking my tounge against the head a few times before taking him all. I stay for a second adjusting my throat with the feeling and I start moving my head sucking and swallowing around him like I was hungry for it. He twitches and his tights shiver.
"S-sam don't stop I-need pl--please" he moans and groans eyes closed facing the ceiling, mouth wide opened
I cup his balls in my hand teasing them while I get back to the head of his cock and let go with a popping sound, my hand still playing with them.Bucky whimpers "S-sam no please--i need to" I cut him off bitting his hip "I know what you need baby" I say
I replace my mouth bringing my left hand to his dick as I bring two fingers to his mouth letting his balls untouched. "suck" I murmur pressing them against his swollen red lips. He opens his mouth and takes my fingers brushing his tongue and teeth against them wetting them with saliva swallowing and moaning around them sending vibrations trough my whole body "s-stop" I murmur and took them out of his mouth a streak of saliva leaking against the corner of his mouth.
I place one finger at his entrance and I look up at him for any signs to stop but he just noods telling me to continue and so I do.I enter him slowly and he clenches hard around me as I took a deep breath letting him adjust against my finger.
"S-sam move please please" Bucky says with a shaky voice eyes closed facing the side of the couch.
"Shh baby gonna make you cum soon gonna make you feel so good" I breathe against his hip
I start moving my finger easily and painfully gentle licking his dick again, he gulps out loud shaking his head . I take the tip into my mouth as I insert a second one moving them at a slow peace. He starts breathing heavily chest up and down very fast making all my movements stop
"Do-Don't stop please Sam I need to I nee-" I cut him off with a kiss starting to move my fingers again
"I know what you need baby just breathe for me" he noods looking at me with a pleasing desperate look that makes my knee go weak in a second.
I came back down facing his cock while I move my fingers looking for that stop inside him.
I shift making circular moves with my fingers deep inside him and I know I found it when Bucky moans clenching around them hard.
I force them into that spot with a heavy fast rhythm. "Sam sam fuck I can't i-" He whispers neddy sounds leaving his throat
"You gonna come Bucky? Gonna make a mess on this couch and wet your stomach and my face with your cum" my suggesting tone says and he shakes his head
" I don't know if I-i can S-am fuck keep moving harder please" he grabs the blanket on the couch with his fingers holding tight
"You can baby i know you do" I say confident rubbing his tight. I lick his cock up and down spitting and digging my fingers right into his prostate.
"Come on bucky come for me baby" I say loud and clear as I look deep into his blue eyes
His tights start to shake hard, his cock twitches, his hole keeps clenching and unclenching around me, hips stuttering in the air fighting for breath.Bucky arches his back with loud moans whines and heavy breaths and he comes hard spilling white wet liquid out of his cock all over his stomach and on my check.I breathe heavily looking at him
"Sa-sam fuck to-o sensitive" Bucky says, it takes me a second to realise but I quickly take my fingers out of him touching his cock once again to make sure he completely ride out his orgasm. He shudders closing his eyes few drops of cum still dripping out of him and I moan out loud at the sight.Eyes closed head thrown back his dick twitching orgasming and I come untouched without even realizing. He notices me and places his hand around me helping me come
"B-bucky fuck" I close my eyes and the air stops in my throat felling overwhelmed.
After we both finish I lean to kiss him again. He gasps but fast takes a deep breath and smiles against my mouth. I let him go in a second not wanting to depend it to much and let things escalate again. Not that I don't want to but I can barely move.
"Fuck Sam that was the best orgasm I had in my life and you didn't even fucked me " He chuckles a bit and I smile "Told ya I am gonna give you the best orgasm you ever had...for now" I smugly say, he rolls his eyes
"We gonna have to talk about this isn't it?" He asks,biting his lower lip when I finsh cleaning the cum of his stomach with my shirt and throw it on the floor
"We will but not now" I reply leaning next to him and he places his head on my chest "now I am tired" I continue playing with his hair
"Hmm me too" he humms, I smile at him
"Hey Sam?" Bucky says looking up at me and I raise an eyerbrow
"But did you ever had a wet dream about Zemo?" He asks laughing and I groan
"God I hate you"
"No you don't"
I just chuckle and kiss his forehead, watchin how he slowly falls asleep.
He is right I don't hate him. I love him and now I have plenty of times and ways to shows him that