Bucky lays on his bed focusing on the white color of the ceiling and the small sounds coming from the passing cars outside the building.
Since he moved in with Sam, usually most of the nights wouldn't be quiet but full of Sam yelling at the TV or the music playing on the radio while they stay and talk on the couch.
But today was not one of those nights.
Right now the only sounds that could be heard were from the streets. Bucky and Sam being both alone in their rooms exhausted after the mission they had.
Bucky can't even remember what was it about, maybe they had to save the world from some psychotic criminal or maybe it was a simple mission about following a runner and handing him to other people that are gonna deal with the situation.
He can't remember but all he knows is that the adrenaline and the energy were still present in his veins.
He tries not to think about it. He tries not to think about how they run side by side brushing their hands from time to time or that mouth ordering him what to do and when. He was dreaming about that mouth, five or six times a day now. That pretty mouth kissing it's way down from his neck down to his whole body.
Bucky also tries not to think about those hands,those fingers and how they would move on his skin.
He really tries not to beacuse Sam is in the next room and Bucky can't hear the TV so he guesses Sam is sleeping and he really doesn't want to wake him up.
But Bucky can't stop himself, the need to release grows in his stomach as the seconds pass. He tries to be quiet enough so Sam won't hear him and nothing bad or embarrassing will happen.
Before Bucky knows his own hand moves slowly on his bare chest teasing his nipples easily at first and scratching his stomach with the vibranium of the arm. He growls in the back of his throat and he quickly slaps his mouth with the other hand to cover the sounds.
He takes his boxers off and throws them on a chair in the corner of the room.
Bucky was already hard and desperate so he lets out a breath of relief once his dick slaps leaking against his stomach.
He moves his left hand around him covering his length with the metal arm moving it slowly.
The metal feels cold and different on the sensitive skin but he likes it. He likes how smooth the precum makes it feel and move so easy and how shiny it looks around it.
He could feel the heat radiating in the room ,the tension growing inside his stomach making his toes curl against the sheets. The hand on his mouth presses hard against his lips stopping the moans and heavy groans from leaving and cover the silence that's resting on the apartment.
Bucky closes his eyes easy letting his imagination fly.
He wanted to bury his face in Sam's chest and breathe in the scent of him and rut against Sam while Sam whispered filthy things in his ear until he came all over his tighs. He wanted to moan and arch his back to make his skin brush against Sam chest while he pounds into Bucky fast and hard.
His hand twisted again, fingers brushed up over the head of his own cock and he gasped, willing himself to stay still.
His hands started to move faster and faster precum splashing on his chest. Bucky thinks how Sam would look flushing and moaning on his knees sucking Bucky off while he swallows and gags around his length.
Another needy growl escapes his throat as saliva drops bettwen his mouth and hand wetting his neck.
He is already close. His eyelids fluttered open as he gripped his cock harder his knees coming up without conscious decision, his breathing picking up as he stroked himself
Bucky took one last shallow breath,he didn’t move, didn’t blink, couldn’t breathe as he spilled over his fist.
His body acts against his will and his hand drops from his mouth grabbing the pillow as a loud moan echoes in to the room.
"Oh god Sam fuck" Bucky yells and moans, his eyes close cum dripping into his thighs. He is trying hard to focus on something as he rides out his orgasm.
His chest moves up and down hand still on his now sensitive dick when his door opens the sound making him almost faint
"Bucky you ok I heard yo-oh" Sam tones changes eyes moving from Bucky’s dick to Bucky’s face who quickly covers himself with a pillow.
Sam takes a deep breath closes his eyes and looks at Bucky
"Sorr-i--i didn't mean to interrupt you i--just heard y-i don't even know w-why--sorry, please go on I am leaving bye" Sam stutters the words,he closes the door running to his room.
Bucky blushes and throws the pillow hard hitting the floor before letting out a long sigh mentally punching himself.
He takes the cover from the bed and puts it on himself looking at the window.
He was already feeling nervous and maybe even guilty cause he was doing this while thinking about Sam but now he feels angry, angry at himself cause he just couldn't keep his mouth shut.
'What can Sam do about it anyways?'
'Was he really that loud?'
'How is he supposed to go and talk or even look at Sam after this?'
'What could Sam probably even think when he heard his name coming from Bucky’s room like that and then saw Bucky like this...'
Different toughts attacked Bucky's mind until he had to put his hands over his ears to stop the voices from telling him how Sam is gonna want to talk with him about it and things won't go well.
He closes his eyes breathing slowly allowing himself to sleep and relax avoiding to think about anything else.
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In the morning Bucky makes sure to wake up early before Sam.
He goes to the bathroom first and then goes into the kitchen to grab a bottle of water and plans to avoid Sam the whole day, the whole week or even his whole life if he can.
For the first part of the day he watches the news, movies cartoons and any other shit that plays on the TV. Bucky doesn't know how long it passes,how many hours he stayed on his room but he definitely doesn't want to leave.
He zoomes out a lot his mind drifting off from a subject to another until hours pass by without him even realizing.
Right now Bucky was watching one the news how some bank was robbed this morning when someone knocks on his door.
"Yes?" He says swallowing hard looking at the door
"Bucky man is almost five pm you have to come out and eat something, you haven't eaten since yesterday morning, your body needs food" Sam's voice comes from the other side of the door. Bucky closes his eyes for a moment and sighs, he knows Sam is right
"Ok I will come out in a second" Bucky answer loud enough for Sam to hear, he jumps out from his bed and throws a black shirt over his chest quickly going outside of the room.
Bucky walks with slow steps keeping negative toughts out of his head as he makes his way into the kitchen. He goes there and sees Sam sitting on a chair playing something in his phone.
He clears his throat, Sam attention snaps to him and he smiles with the corner of his mouth putting his phone down on the table.
"Finally the lonely boy decided to come out of his room" Sam sighs "Sit down, gonna bring us something to eat in a moment" he finishes, Bucky flushes a smile sitting down.
Sam places two plates of pasta on the table and they start to eat in silence sitting across from eachother.
Bucky can notice how sometimes Sam eyes drop to him and he turns around avoiding the silent stares, there is no lie that Sam also catches him looking here and there and they both look away embarrassed when their eyes met.
They finish eating and Bucky gets up the first placing his plate on the sink.
Sam gets up too looking down at his phone.Without realizing Bucky turns around bumping into Sam their faces and bodies getting very close in a very short second.
Sam eyes drop for a moment to Bucky’s lips and Bucky blinks unable to move
"Sam"
"Bucky"
They start to say at the Same time before they both chuckle Sam finally pulling away from Bucky who plays with the bottom of his shirt.
"You go first" Bucky says looking up at Sam
"I...I don't even know what I was gonna say" Sam laughs awkwardly
"Sorry for waking you up last night" Bucky starts to apologize, his gaze drops at the floor again
"Waking me up?" Sam asks clearly confused
"Well last night, I tought you were umm sleeping so I tried not to wake you up then suddenly I realized I was a bit loud and I woke you" he mumbled not looking at Sam
Sam laughs and quickly covers it up with a cough.
"You didn't wake me up man, I was wide awake staying on my phone watching a movie" Sam says and Bucky finally looks at him the pale shade of pink on his cheeks turning into a dark one
"Oh...sorry I didn't hear you, I tought you were sleeping so I uhh yeah" he confesses a small awkward smile playing on his face
"That's ok don't worry" Sam says getting closer to Bucky
"So...we ok no akward tension anymore? cause it honestly feels like torture" Bucky looks shy at Sam trough his eyelashes bitting his bottom lip, Sam laughs seeing Bucky’s expression
"Stop looking at me with those eyes man you look like a lost puppy" Sam starts with a little smile "of course we are ok everyone does it it's normal and unfortunately you are not the first person I walked in on so yes we are ok"
"Oh thank God I tought you were gonna avoid me for the rest of your life to be honest" Bucky chuckles his lips turning into a little smile
"Although..." Sam smirked raising an eyerbrow his eyes focused on Bucky’s face
"Oh no, I don't like that look..." Bucky whispers under his breath,Sam smirk grows
"I did hear my name and you did well...moaned it" Sam says a glint of desire reaching his eyes.
Bucky swallowed loudly his face heating up
"Uhh yeah about t--that"He starts to say no other words leaving his mouth.
Sam steps in front of Bucky who was leaning against the table. He raises Bucky’s chin with his fingers and makes him look into Sam eyes. Bucky’s breath hitches his hands clenching around the table's border
"Now tell me were you thinking about me while you were getting yourself off?" Sam asks trying to hide the smirk on his face
"I--uhh-yeah I was" Bucky says feeling vulnerable under Sam’s stare while his face is burning with embarrassment
"That's so fucking hot Bucky" Sam answers his eyes closing lips pressed into a thin line
"I am sorry you weren't supposed to find ou-wait what did you just say?" Bucky questions in shock and curiosity at the same time.
Sam opens his eyes pressing his body closer into Bucky’s their chest being almost glued togheter
"I said that's so fucking hot"He repeats his eyes drifting off to Bucky’s lips then back to his eyes
"I--you-what?" Bucky starts to say confused "does that mean you like me? Or you messing with me man come on, that's not funny dude my arm might be made out of metal not my heart don't you dare mes-" Sam puts his hand over Bucky’s mouth to stop him from mumbling
"Are you don-eww did you just licked my hand?" Sam takes his hand off from Bucky’s mouth to wipe it on his shirt
"You're the one put it there in the first place" Bucky laughs out loud placing his hand on Sam waist to stop himself from falling.
"You know what I am gonna put over that pretty mouth of yours honey ?" Sam asks,Bucky stops from laughing and his face feels on fire once he hears the nickname
"What..?" He asks glancing to Sam lips
Without any word Sam smiles and crashes his lips into Bucky’s.
Bucky makes a surprised noise in the back of his throat but he quickly realises what's happening and he closes his eyes enjoying the kiss.
Sam smiles into the kiss once he feels Bucky relax and allows himself to enjoy the feeling.
It started gentle, their lips just brushing against eachother slow and soft
Bucky groaned bringing his hands up from Sam waist to his neck depending the kiss. He traced his tongue against Sam lips who gasped and squeezed Bucky waist his tongue now exploring every inch of Sam mouth.
Sam squeezed Bucky's hips hard and rough, Bucky threw his head back breaking the kiss and moaned out loud
"Like it a bit rough I see..." Sam chuckles against Bucky's neck
"Fucking yes now shut up, I am not waiting another second for this anymore,you're gonna shut up and fuck me untill I forget my own name" Bucky says his chest rising up and down
"Fuck yes I can do that, my room or yours?" Sam asks with a deep voice arousal growing inside him
"Mine, mine is closer" Bucky answers
Sam grabbed Bucky’s hand running to his room both almost falling on their way there and laughing
Once the door opens Sam reaches to kiss Bucky again
"I can get used to this" Bucky chuckles,he looks deep into Sam eyes a honest smile playing on his lips
"Me too babe me too" Sam laughs and slams the door behind him
And if Bucky moaned Sam's name again later,this time was for the neighbors to hear and for Sam to enjoy it