Chapter 3
It seemed to be a cycle. Once again, I woke up finding myself in a shitty motel. I heard the shower running, which meant billy was in the shower.
I moved slowly to sit on the edge of the bed.
My feet brushed against the floor. Wait, why can I feel the floor? Shit. Billy must have taken off my shoes.
fuck
I hurried to check my boots, which were by the door. There was nothing there.
Shit, he saw my knife! He knew I was hiding it the entire time, or he just found out, Which is equally as bad.
I heard the water stop, and I quickly moved to sit at the edge of the bed. I kept my head down, looking at the floor.
I heard billy coming out of the bathroom. He quietly moved towards me. He stopped right in front of me. I could see the water drops hitting the floor. And, since I could see his legs, I most definitely knew he only had a towel around his waist.
"Good morning, darling."
His voice was so fucking smug.
"Good morning," I said, my gaze still on the floor.
Suddenly his presence was much closer. His hands rested on the bed on each side of me, caging me in.
I didn't look at him still.
"Is there something you would like to tell me"
His voice was so calm. Yet, It sent chills down my spine.
I could act dumb and not say anything. Or, I could demand to know where my knife is.
"Look at me." he damnded, and I complied.
"Looking for this," he said, waving my knife around.
"Why did you take it?" I tried to sound calm.
"Why did you hide it? I think that's a more important question. Don't you darling,"
"Billy, When is this little thing between us going to stop? You can't expect me not to carry any weapons. That is absurd. Do you not see the world we're living in right now." I was so frustrated with him.
Instead of answering, He leaned closer to me, forcing me to move backward, Putting all my weight on my hands as I held myself up.
His face was barely an inch away from mine. His eyes never left mine.
"It is absurd. But, something tells me that you still want to slit my throat in my sleep."
He smirked, his eyes shifting from my eyes to my lips for a moment.
"I do. But, I won't." I kept my eyes on his.
"And how do I know you won't jump at the first chance to kill me."
I loudly scoffed at that. "Billy, if I wanted to kill you. I would have done it. I most definitely wouldn't have stayed in your car and fallen asleep. Trust me. I would have jumped out even with your little threat about dragging me back."
He moved even closer to me now. His nose touching mine. "trust me, doll, there is nothing little about me." he stressed.
His eyes shifted to my lips one last time before he completely pulled away from me, standing straight now.
He threw me my knife, and I caught it before it could hit me in the chest.
"Get freshened up. I'll make us something to eat."
He was driving me insane. He frustrated me more than I liked to admit. He also turned me on. And that scared me.
We had breakfast in silence Which, was shocking.
As we cleaned up, Billy broke the silence.
"Listen, we need to agree on things."
" I couldn't agree more." sarcasm dripped from my words.
He chuckled, looking at the floor before his eyes found mine again.
"I'm being serious."
"well, so am I."
"You need to know that I won't hurt you."
"yes, but you did." I chimed in before he could finish.
He shook his head in frustration before he continued to speak.
"I promise you I won't hurt you. Again."
He stood in front of me.
"I will not hurt you. I will not force you to do anything you don't want to do. And I will talk to you about anything and everything that happens."
"How do I know you're telling the truth." I crossed my arms.
He gripped my chin, lifting my head.
"You have my word. I always keep my word. All I want to do is keep you safe. You've grown on me."
"hmm, I'm sure I have." The way he looked at me at this moment made me feel something I couldn't quite explain.
" I promise," he said again.
"fine. But, if something like that happens again, I'm leaving." I felt like I was lying to myself.
"And if it happens but you like it."
"we'll see." If he wanted to play this game, I could play it too.
He moved his right hand from my chin to the side of my neck.
"You're beautiful," he whispered against my face. I found myself at a loss for words.
"Can I kiss you?" He mumbled an inch from my face.
I was nodding before I could even think.
"I need to hear you say it."
"maybe that isn't a good idea," I whispered.
"I didn't ask you if it's a good idea. I asked if I could kiss you. Do you want me to kiss you?"
"I do." He cut me off, slamming his lips against mine.
I felt myself melt into the kiss. Billy moved his left hand to my waist, holding me so tight it felt like a bruise would form.
Billy's knee moved between my legs, making me moan into the kiss. His hand tightened around my neck, making me gasp.
"Do I scare you?" he asked, breaking the kiss.
"yes," I mumbled out of breath.
"Do you still want me?" he asked, pecking my lips.
"yes, I do. But I'm scared." I was truthful even though my thoughts were so hazy.
"I won't hurt you. Only protect you." He said, pecking my lips again.
"Care for you. Hold you." He kept showering me with kisses.
"you promise?" I asked, almost whining.
"I promise, darling. Just say the words." He pulled away, waiting for me to answer.
"I want you. In every way possible. As scary as it may feel." I gasped as he leaned in to kiss my neck.
" And I want you. I want to have you if you'll have me." He sucked my neck, pulling at my skin.
"ill have you, billy. I want you."
He pulled away from my neck
"it's settled then. You're mine, darling."
He smiled, his eyes darker than before.
His lips were on mine in a heartbeat.
I hope I won't regret this later.