Depression
⚠️⚠️ Mention of scucide ⚠️⚠️
⚠️ Remember the stories are not connected, this one doesn't have Peter.Oh and if Steve saw this chapter he is going to punch me and say language⚠️
Tony was sitting by the piano playing and singing with tears pouring from his eyes.
There is no one at the combound, no one stayed, they all gone .
Natasha is with the rouge , she left me for Rogers. After vision saved me he went to wanda. Rhodey, my best friend from the MIT is half paralyzed because of me he can't walk anymore exept with using a stupid technology .
If I was better ,that wouldn't have happened to him
If I was better, Natasha would have stayed with me instead of going with Rogers.
If I was better, all those people wouldn't have died in sokovia .
If I was better, yensin whouldn't have died .
If I was better, mom would be still alive next to me , help me when I break down like she always did.
But then came Steve fucking Rogers and defend his damn boyfriend , Barnes ( there is part inside me telling me it's not him it's hydra , I know this is right but the rage filled me ) .
I continue play on the piano , the gun in front of me was very interesting .
I'm waiting up, saving all my precious time
Losing light, I'm missing my same old us
Before we learned our truth too late
Resigned to fate, fading away
… So tell me, can you turn around?
I need someone to tear me down
Oh, tell me, can you turn around?
But either way
… Hold me while you wait
Know that you are good enough (hold me while you wait)
Please don't give up when things get tough (hold me while you wait)
I know, I know, I know, I know
Won't you stay a while?
… Tell me more, tell me something I don't know
Could we come close to having it all?
If you're gonna waste my time
Let's waste it right
… And hold me while you wait
Know that you are good enough (hold me while you wait)
Please don't give up when things get tough (hold me while you wait)
I know, I know, I know, I know
Won't you stay a while? (Hold me while you wait)
… I wish you cared a little more (hold me while you wait)
I wish you'd told me this before (hold me while you wait)
My love, I know, I know, I know
Won't you stay a while? (Hold me while you wait)
… This is you, this is me, this is all we need
Is it true? My faith is shaken, but I still believe
This is you, this is me, this is all we need
So won't you stay?
… And hold me while you wait
Know that you are good enough (hold me while you wait)
Please don't give up when things get tough (hold me while you wait)
I know, I know, I know, I know
Won't you stay a while? (Hold me while you wait)
… I wish you cared a little more (hold me while you wait)
I wish you'd told me this before (hold me while you wait)
My love, I know, I know, I know
Won't you please stay here? (Hold me while you wait)
… Stay a while (hold me while you wait)
(My faith is shaken, but I still believe)
Stay (hold me while you wait)
My love, I know, I know, I know
Won't you please stay here?
This song was expectaly for Natasha, I really learned the truth too late.
Mom used to sing this song to me when I was kid and howard was pissed off me, but of course, she wasn't singing it all, the only part she was singing was the part where
( I know you are good enough, so please don't give up when things get tough ,I know ,I know, I know, I know ) .
I smiled at the memory, remembering those beautiful times when my only problem was howard .
Those time when me and Ana was making cookies together, this was the best cookies I ever ate. Those times when Jarvis was playing with me and taking me to the park. Those times when me and mom were playing the piano and cooking her famous Italian pasta. When aunt Peggy was visiting and taking me with her secret job which ilater realized it was shield. When uncle nick, yeah this cold asshole fury, was come to Peggy's office and babysit me when Peggy was in a meeting,
to be honest he still babysit me , but not anymore, he will get rest from me, Natasha will get rest from my bullshit , rhodey won't need to have someone who bother him all the time, Bruce won't have someone to destroy his experience and make explosion in his lab. They can have the combound and all my things after my death . I pardoned them so they will have the combound. They won't even notice that iam dead, my dead stanky body will maybe stay here for days, weeks, months or even years with someone notice it . That's exept if they wanted to live at the combound or rhodey decided to visit the man who destroyed his life.
I took the gun and looked at it, it would be a stupid way that the Tony stark died by a gun, huh, I don't care anymore, I won't be there when the people talk about how tony stark died .
Natasha's pov
I walked to the to the combound , I know what I did was wrong, I love tony with all my heart, I wasn't supposed to tell him what I said when I went to him to ask about rhodey, I hope he accept my apologies.
I walked in the hallway to the living room, suddenly I heard a gun shot, there is two possibilities, 1 there is someone in here and there is a fight or .... NOO.
I ran to the living room to the sound source, I frooze, n...no . There was blood all over the floor, tony was lying on the floor in the blood.
"TONY " I ran to him there was that hot salty water pouring down my cheeks ,h..he can't , he can't die and leave me alone.
" T...tony , please iam so sorry, p..
Please " I broke down his head was in my lab , I start sobbing, all of this because of me, my love life died because of my stupid decision. He left me alone in this cruel word. If I was better.
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Natasha's pov
I walked to the combound, there was a singing , it's tony , I didn't know that he is so good at singing, why the hell did he say he isn't good at singing and just played in the piano when we made a singing competition
I wish you cared a little more ( hold me while you wait )
I wish you'd told me before ( hold me while you wait )
My love, I know, I know, I know
Won't you please stay here ? ( hold me while you wait )
I arrived the living room, there was a gun on the piano , tony was singing with tears in his cheeks
… Stay a while (hold me while you wait)
(My faith is shaken, but I still believe)
Stay (hold me while you wait)
My love, I know, I know, I know
Won't you please stay here? .
He finished singing then he took the gun , was he... Planning to scucide .
" WAIT " I shouted before he do anything stupid .
He turned to me with red face and eyes, his hair looked so messy, there was bruises all over his face. I got my gun out and pointed at him, of course this is a shitty move, soon pointed it at me .
" If you shot yourself, I will shot my self too "
"NO, l...lEAVE THE GUN NATASHA, THERE IS NO NEED TO ME ANYMORE, IAM NOT WORTH TO LEAVE, YOU ARE . " he said pointing the gun at himself .
" If you don't want me to shot myself then put the gun on the floor" I said to him calmly with tears in my cheeks.
" N... natasha p...please, let me do I...it , I'm so tired I... I need to rest , why you don't want me to . "
" Because I love tony, now leave the damn gun "
" LOVE ME, NATASHA , YOU LEFT ME FOR ROGERS, IF I WAS YOU I WOULDN'T JAVE RETURNED TO SOME ASSHOLE LIKE TONY STARK, THE MERCHANT OF DEATH, NOW I KNOW WHY HOWARD LOVED HIM MORE THAN ME "
"NO, NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE, YOU ARE PERFECT AND I LOVE YOU , YOU ARE BETTER THAN STEVE , HOWARD WASN'T RIGHT , YOU ARE MY LOVE LIFE AND IAM GREATFUL FOR THAT , IF YOU KILLED YOURSELF I WILL KILL MYSELF TOO AND WE WILL HAVE BE TOGETHER IN TBE HELL " I shouted at him then walked to him, I throwed my gun on the floor then took his and throw it too.
I wiped the tears in his face and he wiped mine, " iam sorry " he said wisper, I nearly couldn't hear him . " I love you " I said then kissed him , it was filled with love and care, I don't know what I would do if something happened to him.
" Hey you wanna eat cheese burger" I said to him after we broke the kiss, he just nodded then took my hand to go to get cheese burger. I will never leave him again .
By Loki's voice : yeah very sad.... Anyway.
I saw a meme in the internet said that's what the author says when he/she kills a character, that's very true 😂.
I want to hear your thoughts about this chapter and what I should do next , 'cause as always, you ignore me when I ask you to gave me an idea 🙂🕸️🕷️🕷️❤️