Chapter 3
Gus: “We’re back!
So, Luz immediately caught your attention on her first day at Hexside. She saved the day and was allowed to study every single track at Hexside. That meant she was going to be in one of your abomination classes.
How did the first week go down with Luz in your class?”
Amity: “Heh, I remember that first lesson she was in with me. She really wanted to sit next to me when she got into the classroom, but since the teacher remembered our… incident, he didn’t want Luz to sit next to me due to me recent behaviour towards her...
But I told him it was okay, and that we sorted things out. He questioned it… but allowed her to sit next to me. Luz couldn’t be happier and she hugged me, which gave me that butterfly feeling in my stomach.
So we spent the entire lesson working together on abomination homework, and I… remember I couldn’t focus at all. Luz was a distraction, but a nice one.
It was the first time I had some actual fun in the lesson!”
Gus: “Actual fun… as in like… you enjoyed the lesson, instead of seeing the lesson as a chore or something?”
Amity: “Yes! I didn’t really have friends in the abomination track, but with Luz, I felt like I really did!
I always hated working in pairs, because the other one would always slow me down and stuff and I wanted to focus on my own thing… But Luz… she made me laugh… and she made me enjoy the stuff that we were learning!”
Gus: “Because it was all new for Luz, right? She didn’t have a clue about where abominations came from or how they were made and stuff. She was really curious!”
Amity: “Yeah. It was her first ever abomination lesson. She kept asking me all the questions and she kept giving me compliments about how good I was…” *Chuckles*
Gus: “She made you feel… special?”
Amity: “She made me feel like I was worth something. It may sounds weird, but she did.
Sure, the teachers and Lilith sometimes gave me compliments and stuff, but I never really valued those compliments like Luz’s. The way she just stares at you with those big beautiful eyes…
I really wanted to impress her that lesson, and I don’t think I realised it yet. I was really trying my best for Luz. And I was happy to do it! How crazy is that?”
Gus: “Well, it was new for you too, right? Someone new in your class that wants to be close to you because of who just… you, and how you really were?”
Amity: “Oh, yes, yes, yes! You’re spot on.
I often felt like I was surrounded by people who didn’t really care for me. Who just hung out with me or acted nice towards me because of my status as a Blight.
People didn’t want to mess with me, because they feared me… But they didn’t know who I really was!
But Luz… Luz saw right threw me. She knew about my soft side pretty quickly… She knew I could be… fun to hang out with… hehe.”
Gus: “Luz was the first one since Willow you could be yourself around. You could put off your mask around her. It must have felt relaxing as well?”
Amity: “It felt really nice. I remember I couldn’t stop smiling that lesson. And afterwards, too. It was the last lesson of the day and Luz and I talked for some more before she headed off to the Owl House.
And while I was going home myself, I just kept playing that afternoon back and forth in my head… I was starting to fall for her…”
Gus: “Yup… But because Luz was friends with Willow, you couldn’t be around her much, because Willow would be there a lot.
You were still not on good terms with her, and still ashamed about how you ended things with her all those years ago, thanks to your mom.
So, you weren’t a close friend to Luz, yet. You were still in you own little gang. The ‘mean girl gang’, if I can call it that.”
Amity: “You absolutely can.”
Gus: “If you would step out of it, you felt like you would become a target to pick on.”
Amity: “Yes, and Boscha would tell her moms and they would tell mine, and she would expel Willow and punish me. So, yeah, I was not at all ready to reconnect with Willow.
I was ashamed the most, if I’m honest. What I did to Willow… I couldn’t…”
Gus: “You just needed a little help. A little help from… Luz?
Amity: “Luz helped me fix things with Willow.
I remember that I was walking past a classroom one day, and I saw a picture of me and Willow when we were friends. It was a picture that was pulled from her memory by Luz.
And, instead of just telling the truth to everyone about my past with Willow, I thought it’d be a good idea to burn the picture, so that Willow would forget about that moment.”
Gus: “The picture resembled a moment from Willow’s past. The moment you ended your friendship with her. So you wanted Willow to forget about that moment.”
Amity: “Yeah… What coward would do such a thing?
By burning the picture I thought I would feel better… but I didn’t get a chance to think about that, because by burning the picture, I set the other pictures on fire as well!
I basically destroyed Willow’s memories. I caused a big mess and I needed to fix things, because otherwise, Willow would be doomed!
So, when Luz saw that it was me who caused the mess, she asked me to come over to the Owl House to help fix things. She didn’t yell at me or blamed me or anything, she was being really understanding of it all, which reassured me a lot.
I remember feeling really guilty about what I did. I thought Luz and you would absolutely hate me for what I did to Willow, but you were just so… sweet towards me.”
Gus: “Well of course. We knew you didn’t mean to burn all the pictures. We just needed to help Willow, and that was the most important thing. Getting angry at you wasn’t necessary at all.
I remember I had to interview someone that day and I was in a rush, so my head was kind of elsewhere to be fair. But Luz was determined.”
Amity: “Yeah she was.
So, Luz and I were sent into Willow’s mindscape to fix the burned memories. I remember feeling really scared about it all. I was scared of the inner Willow and mostly… about Luz seeing Willow’s memory which held me ended our friendship.
I didn’t want her to judge me… I didn’t want Luz to… see me as a villain. I didn’t want to lose her…”
Gus: “You knew Luz for quite some time when you were in there. Didn’t you think that Luz, being the person she is, would be understanding?”
Amity: “Yes of course, but I was just… afraid. I was really scared about the ‘what if’ scenario.”
Gus: “You were feeling anxious.”
Amity: “And nervous, and I felt a lot of regret. I didn’t feel comfortable being in Willow’s mind at all.
But Luz…. Luz reassured me. She made me feel like it would be okay.
We were fixing memory after memory and we were a pretty good team! I felt that the butterflies were coming again, and this time, I knew why they were there.
I remember that Luz hugged me at some point and it made me feel all kinds of stuff.”
Gus: “So you knew you were falling for Luz, while being in Willow’s mind? Wow…”
Amity: “Well, mostly when I got back and could think about it all…
But anyways, to make a long story short…
It turned out that the inner Willow was trying to kill me and all the memories that involved me. But when it saw the memory of me ending our friendship… it calmed down and realised it wasn’t just me.
It were my parents, too. I apologized to the inner Willow and to the real Willow, too. It was the start of us two becoming on good terms. Not friends yet, but good terms.
When it was all over… I was very, very relieved. And that night… all I could think of was Luz. I had a crush on that human… I finally admitted it to myself.”
Gus: “Was that hard? Admitting it to yourself?”
Amity: “Well… yes… I remember that I kept pushing those feelings away. That they were just… some sick… feelings.
Come one, me? Having a crush on a…. human? That’s just… impossible, right?
And it was my first crush. Sure, there have been times that I… noticed other girls… but Luz was my first crush! I didn’t know how to deal with that.”
Gus: “But how did you deal with that? Did you want to ask her out?”
Amity: “Of course I wanted to. And Grom felt like the perfect opportunity to do it.
But you know what happened at Grom…”
Gus: “Yeah… For those of you listeners that don’t know the concept of Grom, it’s basically a dance party that involves defeating a fear bringer monster.
Every year, the monster Grometheus tries to escape underneath the gymnasium at Hexside. One of the students gets picked as Grom Queen or King, and they have to defeated Grom.
But the thing with Grom is, it knows your biggest fear, and it will transform into it. So if the Grom Queen or King fails to defeat the monster, everyone on the Isles has to live out their worst nightmare.
So, with Grom coming up, Amity thought it be a great way to ask Luz out. But Amity, how did that go down for you?”
Amity: “Well… that Grom night was amazing… But listeners, spoiler alert, I didn’t ask Luz out. I was too scared.
But, I did spend the entire evening dancing with Luz and we defeated Grom together as Grom queens. It was a really special night and I still have the Grom tiara.”
Gus: “It started when you got picked as Grom Queen, right?”
Amity: “Well, for me it started by having the courage to write a note.
I wanted to ask Luz out by giving her a note that said: Luz, will you go to Grom with me? Amity”
Gus: “Was that the pink note?”
Amity: “Yeah!
The night before the announcement, I remember I couldn’t sleep at all. My head just kept playing scenarios of Luz rejecting me over and over again.
I was terrified of her rejecting me.”
Gus: “Your worst nightmare… Luz rejecting you.”
Amity: “Yes… I liked her so much at that point… And our friendship meant so much to me, so if she rejected me, that would be over, too”
Gus: “I think that a lot of people know exactly what your talking about right now.
I personally have had one crush on someone in my life yet, but for me that didn’t work out unfortunately, and that’s okay, it happens.
But I was seventeen at the time. When your younger, it’s more difficult. Especially when it’s your first big crush. You don’t want to ruin what you have, but you also want to be… closer to that someone.
It’s difficult.”
Amity: “It was. I didn’t really know if Luz liked me or not. Romantically speaking. I know she liked me for who I was and we bonded over Azura and stuff, but I didn’t know if she… liked liked me. *Chuckles*
And I also thought that considering our past, she maybe still held onto that. That she still saw me as a bully… And it’s crazy, because I knew Luz didn’t think like that.
So, that morning, I was really in doubt whether or not I was going to ask her out. I wanted so badly, but I was so, so afraid. But the announcement came and I ran away.
I was Grom Queen and that meant that everybody was going to see my biggest fear: getting rejected by Luz… romantically.
Humiliating.”
Gus: “You knew that was your biggest fear? You were certain it was going to be that?”
Amity: “It was my absolute biggest, biggest fear. I didn’t care about my other fears. Luz was all that mattered to me. She brightened up my life and I couldn’t lose that.”
Gus: “Wow… I never really got that.”
Amity: “Yeah… it was bad. *Chuckles*
Gus: “But… that fear of rejection… you were still in the position to do it. You still had time to ask Luz. And by asking her, that fear would disappear into another one, whether she accepted or not.
Did you realise that?”
Amity: “Yes. When I got home, and after I screamed into my pillow for two hours, I decided I’d go for it. I was Grom Queen, so everyone was going to see it anyway, including Luz.
I decided to go to the Owl House, ask Hooty if he could get Luz, and hand over the note to her. That was my plan.
But it didn’t happen, because I accidentally ran into Luz and one thing let to another… and somehow she took my place as Grom Queen.”
Gus: “How…”
Amity: “Well…. Luz knew I didn’t want to be Grom Queen, and after she bumped into me, she saw how bummed I still was… so she just offered to take my place.”
Gus: “And you agreed right away? By letting Luz do it, it meant that she was going to face Grom on her own now. Didn’t you feel any guilt?”
Amity: “Yes, but seeing Luz right there and then reminded me of how terrified I was of asking her out in the first place. It was my biggest fear after all.
So, I decided to go along with it. I helped her train though. That counts for something, right?” *Chuckles*
Gus: *Laughs* “Absolutely.
But, you didn’t know about Luz’s biggest fear. And you know, facing your biggest fear is, for everyone, quite a challenge.”
Amity: “Of course it is, but I had faith in Luz.
She had already proven me wrong so many times before, so taking down Grom was going to be… well, not easy… but doable.”
Gus: “So, Luz was going to face Grometheus. She was Grom Queen.
Did she have a date?”
Amity: *Chuckles* “No!
Just a few minutes before she went on stage, I saw her. And I immediately noticed her outfit and I loved it. It was such a Luz outfit. We talked for a bit, and I think if we had some more time… I’d asked her.
But I was too late and she was going to face Grom. I wondered what her biggest fear was, and it turned out to be disappointing her own mother. And boy, I could relate to that.
Not in the same way Luz did, but still. Luz didn’t want to tell her mom the truth about staying in the Boiling Isles, because if her mom knew, she’d throw Luz back into the Human Realm and send her to some summer camp forever.”
Gus: “Luz absolutely loved spending time in the Boiling Isles. She was as happiest she ever was. She didn’t want her mom to find out about that and disappoint her.
But anyways, Luz wasn’t able to face her fear. She ran away to a cliff, and that’s where you came to the rescue, am I right?”
Amity: “It was my fault for letting Luz take my place. I was Grom Queen, so I had to take Luz’s place! She was doing this for me!
There was no way that I was going to let Grom beat Luz.
So, I got in front of Luz and Grom turned into my biggest fear. Grom turned into some… creepy version of Luz? You couldn’t really see who it really was, but that person took the note out of my pocket and ripped it in half.”
Gus: “How did that feel?”
Amity: “Awful. But I didn’t get to see Luz’s face or hear her voice. That would have made it a lot worse.”
Gus: “So Luz didn’t realise that it was her, yet?”
Amity: “No, Luz only got to know that my biggest fear was rejection. She didn’t know who it was, and that felt very relieving.
So, Luz knew, and being the person she is, immediately offered to be her Grom partner… so sweet. I accepted it right away of course.
But there was no time for partying, because Grom needed to be defeated.”
Gus: “Grometheus the fear bringer needed to be taken down once and for all!”
Amity: That’s right!
Luz and I took each other’s hands and we… started dancing and combining our magic together…
We were perfectly in sync, as in like… the other person knows exactly… knows exactly what you think and are about to do. Luz and I… that dance…
While dancing with her, I knew it.”
Gus: “Knew what?”
Amity: “That Luz and I were meant to be.
And I know it sounds cheesy and I know I can say this now because we’re married, but it really felt like that!
By combining our magic together, we managed to defeat Grom very easily, and it turned into a beautiful blossom tree.
Luz asked me who I wanted to ask out and I should have said that it was her right there and then. And if she would have said yes, then the story would have been perfect, like a book.
But I was, again, afraid again and didn’t say it.”
Gus: “That was the perfect moment.
Do you know if Luz would have said yes? If you asked her then?”
Amity: “I asked Luz a while ago and she says she would have. She says she didn’t really realise her crush on me yet at the time, but she was definitely in to me. And these are Luz’s words.”
Gus: “So Luz would have said yes, realised her crush on you and you two would have become real Grom Queens! As in like, a couple!”
Amity: “That would have been pretty awesome, I admit.”
Gus: “Oh, that would have been incredible. But hey, a tunnel of love is great, too? *Chuckles*
Amity: *Laughing* “The tunnel of love… well, yeah… no… I don’t know.”
Gus: “We’ll talk about that in a bit, but I want to know… how did you act around Luz after Grom night?
I remember… that you couldn’t really talk normally to her after that night.”
Amity: “If my crush wasn’t big yet, it definitely was after Grom. I was head over heels in love with Luz after Grom. Luz was all I could think about.
Every time when Luz would say something to me, I would just keep stumbling and blushing and turn into a mess!”
Gus: “And Luz, being as oblivious as she can be, was clueless. Wasn’t that annoying? That she wasn’t noticing the signs?”
Amity: “Sometimes I’d get annoyed, yes. Like, come one girl! Don’t you see that I’m super in to you?”
Gus: *Laughing* “Willow and I definitely knew.
But to be fair, when Luz was being all shy around you, you didn’t realise that as well. You were both crushing on each other and neither of you realised. It was entertaining to watch.”
Amity: “Well of course I noticed Luz being weird around me, but I only hoped it was because she liked me!”
Gus: *Chuckles* “I’m teasing…
What I’m really curious about is… who made the first move?”
Amity: “I made the first move, but it was actually unintentional. I didn’t plan on making a move any time soon but I couldn’t control myself.”
Gus: “What did you do?”
Amity: “I kissed her on her cheek… and after I did it, I ran away very feeling very embarrassed and anxious. I thought I screwed things up with Luz.
I didn’t know how she felt about the kiss up until we saw each other again and became a couple.”
Gus: “What made you kiss Luz then? You couldn’t resist it anymore?”
Amity: *Chuckles* “Uhm… well, maybe that, too, but it happened naturally I think.
It was right after Luz got my job back at the library, after I got fired by the master librarian because I was in the Forbidden Stacks to help Luz in the first place.
And you know how much my job at the library meant to me. I lost it and felt really upset about it. I lost it because I wanted to help Luz. It was my own fault.
And I remember questioning my feelings for Luz after that. She made me do stupid things and feel all kinds of things and… maybe… maybe… it were just sick feelings.
But Emira reassured me and told me that I wasn’t happy before Luz entered my life, and she was right… and that made me think…
I decided to dye my hair a new colour. A pink abomination colour, which I still have today.”
Gus: “Your hair used to be green.”
Amity: “Yes, I used to have green hair because of my mom. She wanted me to match with her and Ed and Em.”
Gus: “Because your natural hair colour is brown, like your dad’s, right?”
Amity: “Yes. I didn’t want to go back to brown either, because that meant that I was matching my dad, and I didn’t want that either. Sorry dad. *Chuckles* I decided to go with pink.
And right after I did that, Luz came to my house and gave me my library card back. She gave me my job back. And she had to go through a lot to get it back…
And I remember that… I was looking at Luz and I just kissed her without thinking. What she did for me meant the world and she was looking so cute… and I think she complimented my hair which also gave me butterflies…”
Gus: “So that was the first move! You kissed her cheek!
But you didn’t see Luz again for quite some time, right? You wanted to avoid her, because you thought you messed things up?”
Amity: “Yes yes yes. I was so scared… I wanted Luz to forget about the whole moment. I screwed up. She didn’t like me and now, she was going to end our friendship.”
Gus: *Chuckles* “Well, Luz was feeling quite the opposite. After you kissed her, she thought that she might have a chance to ask you out now.
But she was nervous about it, too. Because you were avoiding her, she was questioning whether you really liked her back or not.”
Amity: “Yeah… we were so stupid back in the days…”
Gus: *Chuckles*”So, how did you two finally end up?”
Amity: “It’s such a crazy story again. It involves a bird tube kidnapping me, a tunnel of love, King saving me from death and a harpy Eda.”
Gus: “Hmmm…”
Amity: “Yeah…”
Gus: “Start from the beginning!”
Amity: “I was at home, minding my own business, up until I suddenly saw Hooty, and in a flash, I was in some sort of sack and being dragged to the Owl House.
Hooty of all demons decided to kidnap me and bring me to Luz. He knew about Luz wanting to ask me out, so he thought it’d be a good idea to just hand me over.
So, I was in Luz’s basement now and when she found me, I was, of course, very nervous and I wanted Luz to forget about the kiss.
But I didn’t have the time to do that, because we stood on some sort of trap, which made us fall down from the basement.
We fell on a pile of heart-shaped pillows and when the lights turned on, it turned out to be a Tunnel of Love, created by Hooty of all demons.”
Gus: “But you thought Luz made that tunnel, didn’t you?”
Amity: “Yes! I thought it was such a Luz thing to do. I loved it so much and I was waiting for her to ask me out. I remember feeling so happy and I couldn’t believe what was happening!
A Tunnel of Love, just for me? Luz really liked me!”
Gus: “Well, she did, but she didn’t build the tunnel. Hooty did it, because he wanted to help Luz ask you out.
But Luz didn’t like the Tunnel of Love, did she?”
Amity: “No… she… hated it. She thought it was the worst way to ask me out, because it was too cheesy for me and I was too cool for it and I was going to make fun of Luz.
But I absolutely loved it, and it broke my heart seeing Luz destroy it. She said that it was Hooty’s idea and that made sense to me, because I beat him up once. He was probably getting back at me by doing this.
Luz didn’t build the tunnel… she didn’t want to ask me out…”
Gus: “But Luz was just scared you were going to make fun of her.
Because listeners, in the Human Realm, Luz didn’t really have friends. She was herself, but people didn’t really like her for who she was. She was too cheesy…
But Amity liked Luz for who she was… and Luz just… didn’t believe that yet. She thought Amity was way too cool for her.”
Amity: “Luz was… doubting herself way too much.
But I didn’t get that. I wanted to leave as fast as possible after she told me it wasn’t her that built the tunnel. My heart was broken.
But… yet again, I didn’t get that chance, because all of a sudden, Hooty started to go crazy. Turns out, that day, he was trying to help everyone with their problems.
For Eda it was dealing with the curse, for King it was finding out who he really was, and for Luz it was trying to ask me out in the best way.”
Gus: “But Hooty thought he didn’t help them. He failed, so he wanted to leave. But Hooty… Hooty is literally attached to the Owl House, which meant that if he wanted to dethatch himself, it meant breaking a lot of stuff.”
Amity: “Luz and I were almost crushed by a rock that fell from the tower. Thanks to King’s new discovered powers, he managed to save us.
And after that… it happened.
Luz told me that she wanted to ask me something for a while, but she wanted to do it in the best way. I was too cool for the Tunnel of Love…
She told me she wanted me to be part of her life… and then…”
Gus: “She asked you out?”
Amity: “Nope. I did.” *Laughing*
Gus: *Laughing*
Amity: “I couldn’t control myself again. The words left my mouth without thinking. I asked her out and I remember saying it way too fast. Doyouwannagooutwithme?”
*Chuckles*
Gus: “You just wanted to be first.”
Amity: “No, it wasn’t that. I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had to say it, even though I knew Luz was going to ask me the same thing, which I also let her say.
Luz asked me out, too. And I said yes and that was the story of us becoming a couple!
Eleven years ago, Luz and I became a couple… and we’re still together on this day… with two amazing children and this little one coming…”
Gus: “You two are meant for each other…
So, you two became a couple! How did you feel about that eleven years ago?”
Amity: “What do you think? I was thrilled! So happy!
Luz was my girlfriend now! We were together! I was… so in love with her…”
Gus: “But it was still new for you, you know. Luz was your first crush and your first girlfriend. Didn’t you… feel scared about what was going to happen?
Your parents didn’t really value Luz, you were still not on the best terms with Willow… and, most importantly, Luz was trying to find a way back to the Human Realm, possibly forever.”
Amity: “I didn’t care about my parents’ opinion, but I was a bit scared of what my mom would do to Luz, if she found out about our relationship.
She had already expelled her… and almost killed her... I didn’t know what she was capable of if she knew about us being girlfriends. So I just didn’t tell her.
Willow and I weren’t exactly friends yet, but step by step, we were becoming… friends again. I really wanted to, and since Luz and I were going to spend time more with each other, it also meant spending more time with her. And you.
But I was excited to be friends with you guys. And I also loved being at the Owl House with Eda and King.
The last thing you said… that did scare me. Because if Luz was able to build a functioning portal to the Human Realm, that could mean that she might leave forever, and I didn’t want her to leave forever. No one did.
So yeah, I was scared about that… But I was mostly very happy that I was her girlfriend. I was going to be the best girlfriend ever!”
Gus: “An awesome girlfriend!”
Amity: “That’s right! *Chuckles*
Gus: “I remember that you were tying to prove to Luz that you were good enough for her.”
Amity: “Yeah… I remember that as well.
Luz got sick two days after we became a couple and I saw that as an opportunity to prove myself. I helped take care of her and I even went on a dangerous mission to get Titan’s blood she needed to make a portal.
I even feared she might break up with me if I didn’t come back with the blood.”
Gus: “You were scared Luz would break up with you if you didn’t help her?”
Amity: “Yes… But Luz didn’t care about the blood. She only cared for my safety and that’s when I realised Luz doesn’t think like my parents or my toxic friends.
She only cared for me and that’s why I loved her so much. She made me feel worthy and mostly, she made me feel special.”
Gus: “And you made Luz feel special.”
Amity: “Well… if you say so.” *Chuckles*
Gus: “So listeners, there you have it, the story of Amity and Luz becoming girlfriends.
You two didn’t go on a date for a long time, right?”
Amity: “No… there was too much going on really. There was always something in the way, and most important, Luz was in danger. The Emperor was after her…”
Gus: “Emperor Belos… He was in your way.
After the break we’re going to talk about our experience taking him down. And also, we will tell you our stories about our time in the Human Realm!
After the break!”