His Obsession

Steve’s POV

She sees it as she looks down to trace the initials on my chest. I don’t even have a fucken shirt.

This Towel barely hides how I feel about her. She was making my heart beat fast, so fast that it wants to jump out of my body.

I had her initials tattooed to my heart because I can’t ever tell anyone the truth about how I feel about her.

She doesn’t seem scared of me even when I’m threatening her.

She was brave when she moved closer to me “Why Steve? Why are my initials on your chest? You told me you didn’t want to do anything with me when I try to throw myself against you months ago.”

She remembers that she did come on to me. The night it took all my strength to leave her.

She asked me to fuck her that night.

~ Recalling the night, she threw herself at me. ~ 3 months after her 23rd birthday where she found out Howard was cheating on her with Darcy.

Y/N was drinking a lot and she was partying at the club. Howard was spending time with Darcy and they both were clearly in love. He’s been parading his new girlfriend a lot because he knew how much Y/N meant to me.

Howard saw my tattoo and he knew that I’d fallen in love with his wife, Y/N.

Y/N was supposed to be mine but I was away for 4 weeks to save my brother when Howard accepted the agreement with Y/N’s father.

By the time, I returned, the wedding was happening. We both knew if Howard didn’t agree, her father would have tried to give her to the next person he thought could build allegiance.

I’ve purposely got Howard to pay attention to her family because of her.

She was meant to wed me but shit didn’t go as planned. I had to watch her marry Howard.

She doesn’t remember me but I remember her.

I followed Y/N when she went to the bathroom to make sure she didn't die or hurt herself.

I overheard Y/N’s conversation in the washroom because Darcy was looking for an opportunity to talk to Y/N privately.

Darcy says “I’m so sorry Y/N! Please let me explain.”

Y/N was tired and she said “You’re not sorry. You told me the details of your boyfriend and all this time, it was my husband that you were dating. A true friend would have told me the damn truth. I gave you my dress and shoes the first day I met you because I knew you were a tough, funny, and smart gal. You’re everything I’ve always wanted to be. You took him without even telling me. I would have given my blessings if you did.”

That was the truth about how Y/N felt about Howard. She wasn’t mad at Howard for being a cheating son of bitch but she was angry that her best friend betrayed her.

Darcy cries as she feels guilty “Y/N, I never meant to hurt you. I wanted to tell you but…there was never a good time. Our friendship meant something to me…”

Y/N laughs “Meant something? So much that you had to sleep with my husband. Shoes and dresses weren’t enough, you went after him!”

Darcy says “You don’t even love him as I do. I never meant to fall for him but it happens. You were only enduring this marriage as you admitted in the past. You wished to be loved by someone. He always kept you in arm's length because of Steve…”

I felt my heart beat faster. Darcy knows. Howard told her.

My godfather, Howard has always been the man I’d admire and always wished to repay for all the things he has done for me. At this moment, I do hate him for making Y/N feel this way.

Y/N cries out “What does Steve have to do with anything? He’s the reason why Howard had an affair? I think you’re confused that Howard chose to put his dick inside of you. I’m angry because I thought Steve was a friend and he knew that you two were…. Fonduing with each other.”

I wanted to smack my head for her pain and for using that term when I asked if she was fonduing with the strip club teacher one time.

Y/N says “Enough, I’m done. This friendship is over. This marriage, I’m stuck in. Tell Howard to divorce me and I’d like to be free then we can call it even.”

Darcy shook her head and said “Y/N, he’s trying to keep you safe. The moment he lets you go. You know your father would come for you and marry you off the next…”

Y/N turned back at Darcy “So you want me to live in a loveless marriage, yet I am not free to do anything I want.”

Darcy spoke back “You are free to do what you want. You just don’t see that there are people who love you and care for you. I hope you will forgive me and him. There’s a reason why he can’t love you.”

It’s because of me. I’m the reason why she’s hurting.

Y/N stumbled out of the washroom and I caught her before she falls. We headed out of the club.

Darcy and Howard saw me carry Y/N.

This tangled mess has made things harder for Howard and Y/N. I wished I never tattooed her initials on my chest.

I couldn’t even lie to my godfather that these initials belonged to another. I was shot when protecting him so my shirt had to go. No one ever sees my upper body. I kept my shirt on at all times.

As I helped a drunk Y/N back to her place. Bucky brought a drunk Tony into his guest room. Bucky tells me “He’s drunk. Probably passing out. I’m going to head back.” as he pats my back.

I carried Y/N into her room and I was placing her on the bed but she starts attacking me with kisses. She straddles me and says “Steve, fuck me. I want you to fuck me.”

I know she’s hurting. She just wants to hurt Howard's back. I couldn’t do it because I knew she’ll regret it. The moment I got a taste of her, I knew I wasn’t ever going to be the same. She would be mine forever.

She tried to kiss me and I’ll move my face so she kisses my cheek. Y/N was frustrated about my rejection.

She would try again.

She kissed me and I kissed her back. Everyone knows that I don’t kiss but I did kiss her back because I’m a big idiot. She was moving her hips over my hard penis. I hated the fact she was using her body against me. I groaned “Y/N, stop! You don’t know what you’re doing.”

Y/N whines “I want you, Steve… Don’t you want me?” She pulls my hand to her boobs.

I wanted to lose control but not like this. Not when she’s too drunk. I’ll beg Howard to let her go so she can be mine but the risk is too high. Her father has been making threats and using Howard’s new relationship to demand more things.

If Howard was any other man, it would make sense to cut Y/N loose because she’s too much trouble for what it’s worth.

However, Howard understands politics and the way things are run. Y/N is disposable by her father which is why he understands if he throws Y/N into the pit of fire. I’m going in after her.

We didn’t have sex that night because I was trying to protect her.

~ End of Memory Recall

I looked at her and I asked her “Are you drunk?”

She huffed “No!”

I pulled her towards me as I kissed her for real this time.

Given everything that has happened between us. I knew that I wanted her to remember that I kissed her.

Remember this passion that I have for her. To my surprise, she kisses me back.

It drove me wild and I was reaching for her waist but then I can hear Bucky calling my name “Steve! Y/N! I’m here!”

I swear, I’m going to shoot my best friend for interrupting us.

We both pulled apart breathless and I tell her “Pack your bag, you’re coming with me and I’m not taking no for an answer. Get dressed and ready in 15 minutes.” I grabbed her ass as I pulled her in for another short kiss.

Her lips were soft and she tasted perfect to me.

I walked backward until I knew I was at the door to turn. I headed out leaving her alone with bruised lips and flushed cheeks.

She enjoyed the kiss very much.

Her eyes were on me and I smiled because I’m looking forward to her falling in love with me. I’m never leaving her.

It’s official, I’m obsessed with Y/N L/N. There’s no going back to pretending that I didn’t care for her.

This time she can be mine and only mine.

I walked out towards Bucky who has my bag.

Bucky reminds me “You do know that we still have him in custody. You haven’t told us what to do.”

I told my best friend “He lied about the engagement and was trying to bullshit his way out. Y/N confirmed that she took out his 4 goons. I will deal with him as soon as I get her back to my place.”

Bucky’s eyebrow arches and he knew that this day would come. If anyone knew my secret, it was him. He smiles “So did things go the way you planned it? Mrs. Rogers is heading home?”

I grabbed my bag “She doesn’t want to get married yet. She wants to make her own decisions so…”

Bucky laughs “Does she know the truth? You just need to tell her.”

I looked at him “I want her to choose me, Buck. Not because of our past and how we were connected. She doesn’t know and she doesn’t need to know. I want her to choose me now.”

I grabbed the bag and started to head to the washroom to change.

I looked at the mirror as I worried that someday, the truth would only cause Y/N to run. She deserves so much better but I am a selfish man and I can’t let her go knowing that this is my only chance to be with her.

I walked out to see Y/N bringing her bag and she said “I’ve packed a few outfits. Probably enough for me to stay over for a night or two. Hey Bucky!”

She doesn’t know that I’m going to try to keep her.

Bucky smiles “Hey beautiful… you look better now that you’re awake. You scared us yesterday. Gave poor Stevie a heart attack.”

She looked at me and I can see her eyes were skeptical about the new feelings I have for her.

She gulps “Tell me what happened.” As she hooks Bucky’s arm and he walks with her as they leave the suite.

I shook my head knowing that I’m jealous of her being that close to my best friend but she’s a free woman now. I’m not going to take away her freedom like her father.

I do want her to be mine.

She will be.

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Y/N’s POV

Steve was dressed and I felt like his eyes were upon me the entire time. This felt strange and I didn’t know what I was feeling. Is this normal?

Zack asked me to marry him yesterday. Apart from me feeling happy because I have a chance to say yes or no. The idea of being free felt foreign to me.

I wanted to say No to Zack because I’m not in love with him.

I wanted physical attraction and to explore my options. It was a liberating moment for me.

I’d run away if my father requested me to marry anyone else or I could ask Steve and Tony to decline anything.

However, today was a new revelation. I felt Steve’s lips and it stirred something in me.

Just like that night when I threw myself onto him. I felt it then and now I’m feeling it again.

I’m attracted to Steve but because of my role as Howard’s wife, I didn’t want to get him in trouble. With enough alcohol in my system, I went for it.

Just once, It thought if I could hurt Howard back, it was having sex with Steve. I didn’t even think of Tony but well, I did have sex with Tony once that I couldn’t even remember because I was completely drunk.

I felt bad after finding out that Tony and I did have sex. Howard never knew and thank god for that.

I thought Steve doesn’t like me in that way but that kiss and demanding me to leave with him. His words “I’m not taking no for an answer.”

It made me wet. If we continued kissing without interruption, I’m pretty sure I’d jump on him and let him fucked me against the counter.

Right now, I’m walking with Bucky and I held his arm because I needed to stop my thoughts from going wild.

Bucky tells me “We located you on a yacht. We headed to the coordinates but by the time we got there, there were sharks in the water eating whatever was left of the goons you threw in. I think there’s still a body or two left.”

I smiled “I shot them and pushed them overboard as they try to fall onto the yacht.”

Bucky smirks “We threw the rest in the water. Your boyfriend…”

I rolled my eyes “Not my boyfriend, we were casual.”

I can feel Steve’s dark eyes on me as he followed us in the elevator. Bucky can see me avoiding Steve’s face as I turned to him.

Bucky says “Your casual partner lied to us about your relationship and that you were into roleplaying but you were laying there looking lifeless. Steve took care of your casual boyfriend and we brought you back here. The rest is history.”

I asked, “Where is Zack?”

Bucky looked at Steve just wondering if he could answer.

I grabbed Bucky’s chin and said “Look at me and talk. Not him. I asked a question.”

Bucky laughs because he knows I can be bossy when I want to be and he says “He’s alive for now. Being interrogated. He’s Howard’s enemy’s son. Howard disposes of the father years ago.”

My face changed and then I realized why Steve kept a lot of bodyguards on me even a year after Howard passed.

I turned to Steve “How many enemies have gone after me? All those bodyguards and security. It’s more than before Howard’s death.”

Steve looked at me and he looked guilty “It’s hard to say. There’s been a lot of enemies coming out of the woodworks because Howard was killed. Howard’s murderer is still out there. Everyone is trying to dismantle everything Howard has built.”

I realized that I’m in hot water more than I can imagine.

It makes sense that I stick to the man who has the powers to save me.

I asked the question that lingers “Why haven’t you sent me back to my father?”

It only made sense that Steve would do that.

Bucky sighs and he knew that this was a tough conversation.

The elevator doors opened at that time and Steve’s face looked angry but not at me.

He simply says “I’m never sending you back to him. We are your family now.”

I wished he said ‘You’re my family.’ I need to stop my thoughts from going wild. A girl can only wish for true love but I’m never going to have a happy ending. In this world, everyone wants something.

There’s a reason why Steve is keeping me here. He may sound like he’s saving me but I can’t be that delusional to believe that. There’s some use for me if they keep me.

I walked out to the car with them and got in the backseat with Steve. Bucky sat in the front with Sam.

We were heading back to Steve’s building.

I looked around and realized that my life was in danger because my dead husband had a lot of enemies.

I tell Steve “I want to know all his enemies. I can’t be blindsided again. Zack could have killed me and I got lucky this time but not again. You have to let me know. Stop hiding the truth from me.”

Steve’s breath hitched but then he nods as he held my hand “I’ll keep you safe. You need to trust us to do so. Everything we do is to keep you safe.”

I looked at Steve and I can tell he’s looking at me in the eyes and his eyes moves to my lips.

I turned away and I told him “I need some time. I was just with Zack yesterday.” this was happening too fast for me.

Steve nods as he understands so he simply held my hand.

We were driving and soon I fell asleep into Steve’s arm.

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Steve’s POV

I made sure Y/N settled into her new room. I’ve already asked Natasha to help move Y/N’s belongings to her new room.

She’s not going to like the new arrangements but that’s because I’m no longer letting her risk herself. This apartment building is like a fortress and it’ll keep her safe by being on the same floor as me.

We have the entire floor to ourselves and she gets a nice suite to herself across the hall as me. We can break down the walls when she’s ready to be mine.

I left her with Natasha, someone I can trust.

Bucky, Sam, and I were heading to Zack’s interrogation.

I cracked my neck as I felt the need to kill someone for hurting her.

Zack was lucky because he had a taste of what is mine. He had sex with her. Doing the things I’ve always dreamt to do for the past 8 years of my life.

Every woman I’ve been with can’t stop me from imagining it was her that was underneath me.

They all want me to commit and share myself but I couldn’t because deep down, only she held that piece of me.

No matter how much I try to hide, she always cracks my cold exterior and walls. She can get me to smile and laugh.

She’s my weakness and she has my heart without trying.