This week was one of the worst ones y/n ever had. She only wanted to get home and forget about it all.
When she finally arrived, she opened the door and walked into Matt‘s apartment. Technically it is his but they live together since about 7 months so y/n would rather refer to it as their apartment.
Living together was truly amazing but there were also a few disadvantages for example her addiction to self-harm.
And Matt’s heightened senses make it nearly impossible for her to do it and leaving it unnoticed by him. There were a few tricks she invented like using a lot of air-freshener and body-sprays to cover up the copper smell but she knew she couldn’t hide it forever.
But today y/n didn’t care about all of that she needed it today and no one would take it away from her. Luckily Matt was working late in the office so she had all the time in the world to cover up all the evidences before he comes home.
After gathering all her supplies which she hid in the back of her drawer she walked into the bathroom and locked it. Even though no one was home y/n always locked the bathroom just in case something went wrong.
She slid down against the bathtub and held the blade to her textured skin. After making the first cut y/n let out a sigh of relief and started to make more cuts each one deeper than the other. After 10 cuts she was finally satisfied and put the blade on the sink.
Her eyes followed the blood that was dripping down her arms onto the floor. Suddenly the noise of a key brought her back from daydreaming and her heart began to beat faster. It couldn’t be Matt he said he would work late but just when she was about to consider who else it could be she heard the familiar clacking noise of his cane.
“Y/n?” Matt’s voice rang through the apartment.
In a matter of seconds y/n was standing up and started to clean up all the evidence. She wiped the blood off of her arms and quickly threw on her sweater because there was no time for bandaging. After that the little pool of blood that dropped down her arm got cleaned up and finally she hid all the other supplies.
“Y/n? Are you okay? I can smell blood,” he said and knocked against the bathroom door.
”Uh yeah everything’s fine just uhm female business you know?” She cringed at her answer but at least it was kinda believable.
“But you take the pill and your last period was just a few days ago,” Matt stated and y/n’s heart rate began to quicken.
“Right uhm I don’t know it’s weird I- uh might go to the doctor,” she responded.
“Alright if you want me to do anything just say it.”
Y/n sighed relieved, washed her hands and walked out of the bathroom. Matt was leaning against the kitchen counter and smiled at her.
“I thought you would work late today?” Y/n asked.
“Yea I wanted to but then Foggy said I should go home because it’s Friday and I should be with you,” he responded and I nodded.
“Well I’m glad you’re here,” She lied. Of course she was happy to be with him but she was not happy that he was here right now. Matt frowned clearly realizing that I was lying.
“I’ll go to the bathroom real quick,” she says but before she can walk further Matt grabs her arm and she let out a cry. His hand loosened its grip around her cuts and Matt tilted his head clearly confused.
Neither of them said anything and the silence was rather uncomfortable. And then Matt finally connected the dots. The copper smell, the bumpy texture of her skin underneath her sweater, now the crying out.
“Roll up you sleeves,” Matt instructed. It wasn’t a suggestion he was dead serious.
“I really have to go to the toilet,” Y/n said and wanted to walk away but Matt took ahold of her hand. He grabbed her sleeve and gently but quickly pulled it up. His finger ran over the old scars and fresh cuts.
He gasped and his grip loosened a bit just enough for y/n to rip her hand away and roll down her sleeve.
“I uh-” Matt begins but he doesn’t quite know how to start this conversation.
“If you wanna leave me now it’s fine Matt I understand I’m fucking insane I know that so if you want to end this it’s okay,” Y/n says and Matt frowned and shook his head.
“Why would you say something like that? I would never leave you especially not because of something like that y/n. I’m disappointed though that you never told me. You know you can trust me,” Matt stated and walked towards her.
“I just can’t stop with it I don’t know what to do,” she started to sob and Matt pulled her into his arms slowly rubbing the back of her head.
“It’s okay I’m gonna help you okay? We gonna figure something out together but I need you to trust me,” Matt said and y/n nodded against his chest.
“We’re gonna get through this together.”